Random Musings of a Confused Gemini

Random relationship musings

2012-02-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

I guess I may be different from most other girls in my thinking. Just coz you flirt or spend time with a guy, doesn't mean it will end up being a relationship. Sure, that is the aim of most people, to flirt and eventually find a 'right' or 'good' guy. But to go into it with just that aim in mind, is pretty restricting to me. Personally, I don't mind flirting or spending time with a guy, without looking beyond that. Sure, if it works out, that's best. If not, I still am pretty alright with things, as long as I'm happy, or I enjoyed the experience.

I believe in enjoying the present, living in the moment and taking things as they come. Everything else beyond the present, just let it come. I am known to be a worrywart when it comes to planning my future, but in regards to boy-girl relationships...after all that I've been through, all the complications, I've learned that there is no right or wrong, nothing much that can be planned so far in advance. It's easy to judge others for whatever they do. You may say, "Why did they do that? How can they be so etc etc." But when the situation comes and you find yourself in the similar predicament, it's hard to say much about it.

Things happen without you expecting it and for a reason, somehow, no matter how weird/shitty/messed up it can be. Life is unexpected, never say you will never go through or do that. I guess I view everything that happens as a learning experience, so as to not repeat my mistakes. It does make me grow and change my perceptions/thinking about certain issues. I think I have stopped judging what others do and become more open-minded. Of course, I may express my concern over things, but never to say what is right or wrong. But maybe to tell them, to keep their eyes open and be careful. Take things as they come, one step at a time. There is no rush or 'right' timing.

Over the last few years, I've gotten a lot of flak about who I hang out with and what I've done or am doing. Honestly, if you aren't someone I care about, I could care less about what you think. Of course, it starts becoming a concern when family and close friends start talking about it. Yet, I do realise, that most of them may not be as open-minded as I am about things. Something I may not think is a big deal, is a huge issue for them, maybe because they're slightly more traditional about it. My response? Life is short, why do we need to get worked up over things like that, when we should be living it up. Enjoy life to the fullest, try out every experience possible, as long as we're not doing anything illegal, or hurting people. Relationships between a guy and a girl, as long as they know what they're doing, and the consequences...is between the two of them.

I no longer believe in living based on what others say you can or can't do. Seriously, who are these people to be able to dictate all that we do? Who are they to make the rules? Besides, I think most rules are meant to be broken. It is MY life, so it's MY rules. As long as I am happy with what I have, and what I'm doing and I'm not hurting anyone, then I'll do things as I please. Again, life is seriously too short to worry about what others think. Make yourself happy before making others happy, even if they are your significant other. You should always love yourself before someone else. After all, before and during marriage, you are your own person. Even after marriage, you are still a person, not just the partner of whoever it is. With my current schedule, I have no free time to waste on thinking about the haters. You can't please everyone so just forget them.

If only....

2011-04-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

I know this would seem rather random, especially since I haven't updated in so many months? But I suddenly thought of these...like..what would I want to do with my boyfriend..if I had one! Haha...just thought I'd jot them down so that I can remember to do them when i do get one...LOL

- Piggy back ride from him
- Holding hands while window shopping etc...
- Holding his hand while he leads me across the road (coz I'm honestly not too good at crossing roads!)
- Back hug
- Randomly hold each other's waist
- Just hugging each other tightly
- Being able to tell him 'Oppa, saranghae!' and do the cheesy heart shape with my fingers or arms to him
- Take cute/sweet photos to my heart's content
- Wear couple shirt, use couple perfumes etc...just plain being able to buy a couple set of something!
- Allowing me to sniff his new cologne on his neck
- Letting me 'dress' him up like a real life Ken doll
- Hold hands n being able to lean on his shoulder while watching a movie :)
- To be able to buy each other surprise presents just for no reason at all...doesn't even have to be anything big
- Accompany me to fangirl at Xiao Zhu's concert etc though he might be jealous

Haha..kinda silly right? But sometimes it's really the small things that matter and makes us happy. Will add more if I can think of them and hopefully I can achieve some...sometime soon?...LOL...

Quarter Century Mark

2010-06-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

I know that it's been ages since I last updated, as usual! I guess it's because of Twitter, where its convenient and quick, but of course limited to 140 characters :P. Anyway, as per my custom, I have to update on my birthday. Somehow, this year I didn't really have the mood to celebrate it, unlike previous years. Mayb it's age catching up, or probably because I dont feel like I have many ppl around, compared to in Kuching?

However, I am still grateful to my family, friends, colleagues and ex-colleagues who made the effort to help me celebrate. It started with Aileen, Kwang Houg and Michelle who asked me out to dinner the weekend before. I didn't think they would do a celebration, since I didn't mention my birthday, but they remembered. There were 2 cakes, since they forgot to tell the other that they bought me a cake. Luckily Aileen had bought 4 mini cakes (sized for 1 person type) instead of a regular sized one. My uncle, auntie and cousin Sam had all gotten me presents/angpow and also a large Boston cheesecake. So that made 3 cakes in the fridge...luckily my brother and my dad were around to help finish them off. My colleagues also treated me to my favourite Korean food at Kimchi-Haru, though it wasn't Korean bbq, but it was still yummy Korean kimchi pork :).

From Aileen, Kwang Houg and Michelle

Presents and angpow from Uncle, Auntie and Sam

My dad happened to be in town for my birthday, so we went to Sid's (my choice) for dinner. It was pretty expensive, and I think the food was just so-so that night :P. The next weekend, my uncle brought us to Shook! at StarHill Gallery in KL for my birthday as well as their anniversary. Looking at the prices on the menu was pretty scary. Almost every main course was above RM50! Had to choose carefully to pick something more reasonably price and hopefully a large enough serving. You know how fancy food comes in tiny sizes but with exorbitant prices! My ex-colleagues also gathered for a lunch on a weekend after my birthday at Kissaten for Japanese fusion food. They got cupcakes from Wondermilk+ instead of cakes, which was a good thing, since I'd just cleared all the cakes out of the fridge. Haha! So even though I wanted it to be low-key or quiet this year, I still had quite a few celebrations, but nothing too fancy. Thank you guys!

With Kenny, Danny and Yoke Mun

As with every birthday, I take the opportunity to reflect upon how I might have changed or grown compared to the previous year. The thing that still remains is that I still prefer bad boys. Haha! Well, not quite like previous years where I just liked them rebellious. Nowadays, I mean the guys that are willing to try new things, not just stick to the rules all the time. They should also have a touch of maturity, or ability to see the world from a different perspective. I think these type of 'bad boys' would be streetwise or worldly, that they've experienced things to mold them to how they are now, so they could always advise or help me when I need it. Prime examples of these type of guys would be Big Bang's TOP, Show Luo Zhi Xiang, Nicholas Tse...oh and Ian Somerhalder aka Damon Salvatore. Hehe. They LOOK like bad boys..but they don't necessarily have to be completely bad or be criminals, you know?

I would also say that I've become more...um...vain and concerned about my looks than previously? I mean, I've been trying to take better care of myself since I moved to PJ, but over the last few months, I've paid more attention to it. I would buy more skincare products, where previously it'll just be cleanser and moisturiser, now there's sunscreen, BB cream and lotsa masks! Then you add eyeliner, lipgloss/lipstick and occasional mascara and eyeshadow. I've tried the more natural look to the dramatic black eyeshadow. Heck, I've even tried false eyelashes! Besides the face, I've gotten more interested in my nails and clothes. Seems like I've gotten a bit known in the office for my nails and shoes, since I'm willing to try things out. As for clothes, as per Linda and Vicky's influence, I've started reading magazines like Ray, Vivi etc to check out the styles. So I would say that now I have more 'current fashion' pieces in my wardrobe compared to previously. Of course, I'd still pick pieces that can be reworn often, even if it's not quite in fashion now. Heh, I think I'm quite a shopaholic now.

Which brings me to the next change. I went through quite a long period of confusion and not knowing what I wanted out of life. The 'quarter life crisis' come early as I liked to joke. But now I think I'm pretty sure about things now. Previously I would choose a career over my family and love. I would have said that i would be willing to sacrifice in order to advance my career. Currently though, I'd prefer to have a simple but happy life with my family and friends. Of course, salary has to be enough to save some money, but ultimately, I would choose to be back in Kuching with loved ones. I may earn a higher salary in PJ, but it gets lonely here. Not many people to ask out for movies or even meals, especially if my brother isn't around. When you need help, sometimes its hard to figure out who to ask without feeling embarrassed. I mean, there r friends but somehow my pride gets a bit in the way, probably coz we're not that close yet?

So yes, at 25 years, I feel that I am starting to like what I've become, and of what I've achieved. I would say that though I am still single, but I am kinda comfortable with that. A girl's gotta love herself before loving others right? Though, please don't let that stop you from introducing me to anyone nice.. Hehe. Once again, thank you all for your wishes, messages, gifts, celebrations. Here's to more good times with everyone :)

Present from Dad..hehe...

fnally got my new Nike shoes..half a size too big..but thanks for getting them :D

From CY and Siew Hie

YG Family Love

2010-04-02T23:33:00.001+08:00

As you all can tell, I'm currently really into K-pop, most notably Big Bang. Big Bang is actually from YG Entertainment, a music label known for their hip-hop artistes who actually write or compose their own stuff. In the same label, they have 2NE1, also known as the female Big Bang. Linda's a huge fan and so am I. What's not to like, they have catchy songs, awesome stage presence, they're cute, I like their personalities plus, they embody female power and independence. Plus, just like Big Bang..they have really good fashion style.

Recently, both Big Bang and 2NE1 have been endorsing mobile phones, one for each brand. For each advert, they have a special song, as is the style in Korea. Most of these songs are actually pretty good and catchy. The great thing is that they also put in a lot of effort into making the MVs. I actually liked 2PM's Tik Tok for their phone advert, but somehow YG Family's MVs seem so much better? Especially 2NE1's here. There's not much story in both, but just the quality of the production, detail, fashion..whoaa...

Big Bang - Lollipop 2

2NE1 - Try to Follow Me

At the same time, here's some of my other current faves with links to the MVs, do check them out :)

1. G-Dragon feat. Flo Rida - Heartbreaker (GD's original Heartbreaker was accused of plagiarising Flo Rida's Right Round..but that was sampling an old song too..so he shut up the critics when he released this remix)

2. Brian Joo - In my head (Korean version of Jason Derulo's, he even performed the english version with Jason in Korea)

3. Girl's Generation - Run Devil Run (9 hot girls..lol)

4. Kara - Lupin

5. T-Ara - I Go Crazy Because of You (extremely catchy and addictive! u just feel like grooving to it..lol)

6. F.Cuz - No One (another clubbish track)

7. CN Blue - I'm a Loner (reminds me of the Beatles in a way)

8. Oneway - Magic (love their velvety, smooth voices)

9. Ernest - Because I'm Weary (from the KBS Drama Master of Study OST, makes u feel emo n sad when u listen, but it's nice!)
10. Rain - Love Song (This is a must listen, c'mon it's RAIN!!!..also another sad song..)

2AM - I did wrong

2010-03-31T21:36:00.001+08:00

Ah...2AM is just winning me over these days...After the release of their first single which I previously posted, they returned with their repackaged album with this song...'I did wrong'. They filmed a music drama MV for it, it's quite your typical Korean drama...but i don't know..something about it just appeals to me..mayb coz the song is catchy? I think the lyrics are meaningful too...

Translated lyrics:

Chorus:

I was wrong wrong wrong

Your words were so, so, so sweet that

I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me

with your words, words, words everyday

Baby do you really wanna hurt me?

Why are you doing this to me? why?

The stories regarding your behavior

I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but

The way you smile at my friend

Change it Stop it
Even though I tell you many times

Bridge:

You say I'm so sorry only for that moment

You say I will change only for that moment

My heart in pa, pa, pain it hurts but
I can't help but repeating

Chorus

Refrain:

Baby you breaking my heart

Baby you hurting my heart
I want to stop this
I know this is wrong
but I keep going back to you

Baby you and I

Like a bad popular song

I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown
Baby you and I
Like a bad popular song
I'm crying inside

Chorus
Refrain

Rap:

My heart and body go astray

Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears

and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong

The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away

Makes my feeling unbearable

But Why! Why! Why! Why!

Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again

Chorus

Refrain

Credit: This wasn't done by me, but I've lost the link!

Part 2 is here

2AM - Can't Let You Go, Even If I Die

2010-02-08T15:38:00.002+08:00

Though I am primarily a Big Bang fan, I still can appreciate songs from other singers. I've been watching 'We Got Married' Season 2, this Korean reality series where celebrities are paired up as a married couple and they have to carry out missions, stay together, and act like a real couple. In Season 1, my favourite couple was the Joongbo (Hwang Bo and Kim Hyun Joong of SS501) couple. Because of this show, Kim Hyun Joong was cast as Ji Hoo sunbae in the hit Korean drama 'Boys Over Flowers' last year. This season, my fave couple is the Petite/Tidy couple (Ga-In of Brown Eyed Girls and Jo Kwon from 2AM). Their personalities seem rather like the Joongbo couple but with some differences of course. Similarities is that the male of the couple is rather unique in how he does or says things and they seriously nag but they still seem kinda sweet. The girls of both couples are the shyer ones and afraid to initiate things, I think because their partner is from a male idol group and there could be serious backlash from their fanatic fan girls. Difference would be that Jo Kwon can be rather annoying with his constant repetition and feminism, while Hyun Joong was more blur, aloof and a little..weird? Ga-In isn't as domestic as Hwang Bo but she tries, and she's not as independent as Hwang Bo. Makes for good entertainment anyway.

Okay, besides all that, 2AM is the ballad equivalent of 2PM and they were both created by JYP, a very famous producer. He made Rain and Wonder Girls famous...surely this would strike a bell? This is 2AM's new single, and though the MV is well..typical boy band stuff, the lyrics and melody are rather haunting and meaningful I think. Check it out:

Even though I'm young, the pain is the same

Just because I don't know the world very well

Doesn't mean that I don't know pain

Why do you lie, saying it'll be okay?

How will my heart that hurts this much

Be healed so easily?

How will I live without you?

That's why I

CHORUS

Can't let you go, even if I die

How am I suppose to let you go?

Whether you go or leave, fix my heart

If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain

So that I can at least live

I wouldn't be able to live anyway

I can't let you go, even if I die

No matter how much you push me away

I'll hold onto you until the end

So that you won't be able to go anywhere

If you're really going to leave, then lie

That we should meet again tomorrow

That we should meet as we smile

If breaking up wasn't a joke, then I

CHORUS

We went through so much time together

How are you telling me to live by myself now?

I can't do that, I can't

I can't let you go, even if I die

I really can't let you go

How am I suppose to let you go?

I can't let you go

Whether you go or leave, fix my heart

If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain

So that I can at least live

I wouldn't be able to live anyway

I can't let you go, even if I die

Credit to Leaping

Vainpot

2010-02-04T10:29:00.002+08:00

I just read Lin's latest update about changing her hair for CNY, so I thought I'd finally show my new hair, which I also did for CNY. I went back to Kuching last weekend for a close friend's wedding and decided to kill 2 birds with 1 stone by getting my hair done for the dinner as well as for CNY. So, tada, here it is!

I got my hair dyed a brownish-red, don't know what's the exact colour code, but I got it done at my cousin's salon, Eric Salon and I've always been happy with how my hair turns out everytime I go there. I also got treatment done and they set it like this for me. Normally they set my hair slightly differently, but they were trying something new so I quite like it. Okay, to be honest, I think I finally look remotely hot? In the words of Leonard, I look like a woman?! (I have yet to whack him for this). In 'celebration' of looking hot, here are more pics!

Actually, when they first started dyeing my hair, I suddenly got the thought, would it end up looking like Ye Eun's of Wonder Girls? Lo and behold, it did. Check out my much much much prettier and hotter twin..lol

I think I can be forgiven for being vain this time, since there are actually very very few pictures of just me myself and I on this blog. Anyway, I won't look like this everyday, since I am unable to style my hair in the professional way they can. Haha! Okay, to bring me back to the ground and stop being vain, I have to admit one thing....I actually have glasses!...

They are actually 25 degrees for normal use, but most importantly, 25 degrees in the vertical plane to fix my astigmatisme. Why did I get glasses if its only 25 degrees? Well, most people have astigmatisme in the horizontal plane and they can just squint their eyes to focus better, but since my eyes are sooooo unique, mine is in the vertical, so it doesn't change anything if I squint. I'm only supposed to use my glasses mostly in the afternoons when my eyes get more tired or if I'm doing fine detail work. So yeah.

Okay, since I may have scarred some of your eyes, I shall leave you with some REAL hotness..ahahah..well..at least I think so..as well as countless other fan girls..LOL!!

None other than the completely hot but also adorkable TOP/Choi Seung Hyun...

Cotton Candy

2010-01-27T11:10:00.003+08:00

I just had to blog about this. Been feeling rather depressed, demotivated and unhappy these days. Mostly about the workload, how there is so much to do, both at work and in my personal life. It sucks having to be the eldest, having to take care of everything :P.

Anyway, this song was just released as a digital single yesterday and I was really expecting it to be trot, considering it's Dae Sung and all. But I was pleasantly surprised to find that it's kinda old school, you know like back in the 60-80's, that type of sweet love song. But like its title and lyrics, the melody just makes you think of simpler times, like days with just the right amount of sunlight and you have all the time in the world to just lie on your back and imagine what those fluffy clouds look like to you etc. Or picnics, a trip to the fair, or just taking a walk hand-in-hand with the guy you like. Haha..actually..stuff I've never really done. But yea, it just gives you that feeling. So i guess it's suitable to lift my mood now.

Enjoy!

And here are the lyrics with translation!

Verse1

따스한 저 햇살과 함께 그대 손을 잡고서

ddaseuhan jeo haessalgwa hamkkae geudae soneul jabgoseo

Holding your hand in the warm sunshine

라 라랄라 노랠 부르며 달콤한 데이트

lalalalla norel bureumyeo dalkomhan daiteu

We sing Lalalala as we go on our sweet date

그대란 마음의 설탕 한스푼

geudaeran maeumeh seoltang han seupoon

One spoon of sugar with your heart

어 느새 구름처럼 커진 내마음

eoneusae kureumcheoreom keojin nae maeum

And before I know it, my heart has become as big as a cloud

Chorus

그 대는 솜사탕 내맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, My heart melts

몽실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

Verse2

불면 날아갈까 손대면 녹을까

bulmyeon naragalkka sondaemyeon nogeulkka

What if I blow and you fly away, what if I touch you and you melt

눈 깜빡 사라지면 너무 아쉬워

nun kkamppak sarajimyeon neomu ashiweo

I’m so disappointed when you disappear with the blink of an eye

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang ibsurae nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, You melt on my lips

살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까

saljjak immachun geudaewa naragabolkka

Should I fly away with you, our lips gently touching

그대는 솜사탕 내 맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, my heart melts

몽 실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

Bridge

코 끝에 간질간질 그대가 좋아서

kokkeutae ganjilganjil geudaega joaseo

The tip of my nose is tingly tingly, because I like you

그대는 솜사탕

geudaeneun somsatang

You’re like cotton candy

Chorus

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang ibsurae nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, You melt on my lips

살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까

saljjak immachun geudaewa naragabolkka

Should I fly away with you, our lips gently touching

그대는 솜사탕 내 맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, my heart melts

몽실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

녹아요 녹아요

nogayo nogayo

I melt, I melt

Translation Credits: sjay.x @ BBVIP

Big Bang/Boyfriend Quiz Part 2

2010-01-14T13:59:00.004+08:00

Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations? Part 2

1. When I buy him clothes as a present and he doesn't like it…

a. TOP: smiles and lies trying to compliment it saying it’s pretty

b. GD: takes my hand and goes to the shopping mall explaining why he must exchange it for his fashion purposes

c. YB: smiles and tries to start a different conversation

d. DS: gets overly excited and exaggerates his thanks

e. SR: wears it on the spot and jumps up and down the sidewalk

It's nice that he'll still try to appreciate the effort though he doesn't like the present. But yea, it'll be better if he can explain neutrally or drop some hints as to what he would actually like. I'd seriously whack GD if he went all high n mighty or insulted about my taste :P

2. When I am jealous due to his relationship with one of the female celebrities on TV

a. TOP: holds my hand.

b. GD: explains logically says its not true… then goes on TV and explains to the world its not true as well.

c. YB: stutters trying to explain continously, then sighs saying he’s sorry

d. DS: laughs and seeings ‘Look at Me GwiSoon’ with my name in it instead

e. SR: Acts cute and says “Are you being jealous right now~!?’ in a cute voice

Yes, GD please do tell the whole world that you don't belong to a girl hotter than me. Haha! But sometimes actions speak louder than words so score for TOP. And Dae Sung singing that song would totally crack me up and make me forget about being jealous.

3. When I’m away from my phone and another guy sends me a text hitting on me

a. TOP: deletes the guys number

b. GD: presses ‘Call’ on the number right away.

c. YB: pretends he didnt see it but gets quiet

d. DS: tells me i got a text and gives me suspicious looks

e. SR: smiles and lets it go infront of me, then goes home and tracks the guy down texting him evil messages

Hahah..it's nice if they're that possessive but I think it'll be a bit too much too. If they're gonna be like that, they have to be upfront about it with me too though, not just with the guy. C'mon, if I were really with one of them, I think it'll be hard for another guy to have a chance..ahha.

4. When he comes to my house without a word but I look like a ‘pain’ (no shower, havent washed hair, sweats, etc etc)

a. TOP: Washes my hair for me

b. GD: Makes me a schedule on ‘how to not be a pain’ and makes me write a written oath that i will never be a ‘pain’ again

c. YB: lies to me and tells me he hasnt washed his hair for 4 days either

d. DS: sits down on my couch like nothings wrong and watches Dorraemon

e. SR: Gets too shocked and scared that he cant even come in the house

I would so kill GD and SR in this case. And OMG...TOP washing my hair..i would totally freak out, but that's really nice of him. Guess it shows that he's willing to still be with you and even touch you! And Dae Sung..though it seems like he's oblivious, but at least he's not running away so it shows that he's with you not coz of your looks.

5. When I get a sickness and must die the next day

a. TOP: treats me like the normal days but never lets go of my hand

b. GD: swallows/hides his tears and says “Lets live today to the fullest/Until the day ends lets live like no tomorrow”

c. YB: ends up crying and doesnt know what to do

d. DS: pretends he didnt hear and keeps making me laugh

e. SR: cant stop crying and just keeps taking pictures with me

I'd probably be so devastated already, so please don't freak out on me too. Though Seung Ri can't stop crying, at least he's trying to make memories of us together. Making me laugh? Not a bad way to go I guess. Haha, but seriously, TOP and his actions...whoaaa...he's just blowing the others out of the competition by being the strong, manly yet sensitive enough guy. I guess GD would let me do all the stuff I'd wanna do before I go.

6. When he walks in on me cheating on him with someone else

a. TOP: without a word, punches the guy and takes me with him

b. GD: gives me his ring (couple ring), cellphone and walks out without a word

c. YB: makes a conversation with all of us

d. DS: says “Oops, got in the wrong place” and walks out

e. SR: gets very mad and cant control his anger so he throws and breaks furniture

Ohh...awkward.....I'd be really scared of TOP (have you seen how he looks sometimes when he's trying to be all killer-like such as in IRIS, its freaking scary), but if he's still willing to take me away, that would be great. Hopefully it was more of the other guy's fault though..heh. Anyway, its better that he shows his anger rather than just keeping it in.

7. When meeting my parents and they don't like him

a. TOP: goes on his knees

b. GD: says “(name) is pregnant”

c. YB: smiles and says he wants to marry his first love

d. DS: tries to earn points by singing ‘Look at me Gwisoon’

e. SR: kisses me infront of my parents and shouts “(name) IS MY LADY!”

Young Bae is sweet and all but erm, first love? I'd be kinda worried at that though, hehe. But that's just me. I guess my parents would think Dae Sung is weird for singing at such a time, but I bet they'd be amused after awhile, its such a cute song. And I think my dad would probably kill Seung Ri for kissing me in front of them...what more to say GD...he'd just be crumbs after that outburst. TOP seems the most appropriately sincere one here..ahha. After all, guys aren't supposed to kneel in front of girls unless they're proposing or asking for forgiveness?

8. When he sees that I’m in the audience while he's performing

a. TOP: never takes his eyes off me until his performance ends

b. GD: ignores me because i make him nervous and focuses on making the performance perfect for me

c. YB: is so happy that he keeps smiling and messes up his dance

d. DS: puts in customized moves by him for me

e. SR: acts cute infront of the camera

I wouldn't want them to mess up their performance for me, but no ignoring my presence either. And what the heck Seung Ri? Are you acting cute for me or for your fans? And any girl would totally melt with TOP's unwavering gaze on you, especially with him singing. Customized moves for me? OMO, Dae Sung would just win any girls heart.

9. When I tell him I’m going to get plastic surgery

a. TOP: pretends he didnt hear and secretly slides a picture of ’surgery-gone-wrong’ pictures for me to see

b. GD: gives me his credit card

c. YB: tells me im more beautiful now and says no.

d. DS: insists if i do it, hes definitely doing it too

e. SR: listens to me and then makes fun of me

And once again, actions speak louder than words in the case of TOP but Young Bae is pretty good too. I'd seriously kill GD in this case. SR would get a good whacking too.

10. When I say I'm going to a resort for university

a. TOP: tells me to have fun and come back

b. GD: keeps asking me if guys are gonna be there too

c. YB: says its okay but you see him starting to pout without realization

d. DS: suddenly gives me Doraemon and tells me to think of him when i look at this

e. SR: says “Take me too”

Awww...TOP is the best, shows that he trusts me totally. And can Dae Sung get any cuter? I'd really bring it to hug to sleep though I'm no Doraemon fan. It'll be fun to bring my bf along too, though it may be fun to go with just your friends. Maybe Seung Ri can fit in a really big suitcase. haha.

11. When watching a movie together and it's some serious 19+ sexual content…

a. TOP: tries to switch the mood by being funny

b. GD: ……asks jokingly “…can you do that?”

c. YB: cheeks turn red, starts pourring nose bleed and faints

d. DS: “oh fun stuff~” and enjoys it

e. SR: suddenly whips his head around and looks at me

Major awkward moment here. But I think laughter would be the best remedy here ahah. It'll be kinda weird if he enjoys it too much or if he wants me to do the same...but it'll be the worst thing if he gets a nosebleed and faints from it...too innocent..AHAHHA.

Final score:

TOP: 10

GD: 4

YB: 0

DS: 5

SR: 3

Wow, only 1 answer off from TOP. Haha..and Dae Sung is no.2 again. Guess I'm quite consistent huh? But seriously 0 from Young Bae? Guess he's really too nice a guy for me. He has that whole image of being the gentleman, sweet, caring and rather innocent. He's never had a girlfriend before, so not really what I'd go for. Hehe, I don't want to be the one to corrupt him. Give me someone who's just the right amount of corrupted, like TOP. GD is just too much for me to handle i think. Haha.

TRANSLATION CREDIT: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI TAKEN FROM: bigbangkorean.wordpress.com

Big Bang Quiz - Boyfriend type?!

2009-12-30T11:51:00.016+08:00

‘Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?’ Part 1

I think this also applies to any guy. As in, this quiz kinda shows what type of boyfriend you'd like.

1. When I fall and hurt myself
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who gives me a piggy back ride to the hospital
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who makes fun of me because I fell
c. Dong Young Bae, who runs to go buys medication
d. Kang Dae Sung, who helps me get home
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks if it hurts a lot and blows on the place where it hurts

Technically, though I have the bad tendency to laugh at others when they fall (while simultaneously being worried), I wouldn't want my bf to laugh at me when I fall and hurt myself. If I fell in a funny way, I'd laugh at myself too, but not if I'm hurt. Young Bae and Dae Sung's ways are good too, but the 2 Seung Hyun's take the cake.

2. When I say I want a name brand item
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he’ll make it a real one
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who pretends not to listen but buys it for me later
c. Dong Young Bae, who promises to buy me one once he makes more money
d. Kang Dae Sung, who keeps saying not to buy expensive things
e. Lee Seung Ri, who keeps asking if he can buy me something else

Most ppl probably don't believe this but I am really not a brand name person. Especially extremely overpriced items like LV, Chanel, Gucci. So if TOP gets me a fake one, I could probably still pull it off as a real one. And it'll be sweet if he would work hard to buy me that present. Haha. If Ji Yong does that, it'll be sweet but I'd feel really guilty receiving the present. I'd need Dae Sung to stop me from spending too much on unnecessary things. Haha.

3. While watching a horror movie
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who protects me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who quietly covers my eyes
c. Dong Young Bae, who comforts me by saying there’s nothing to be scared of
d. Kang Dae Sung, who holds my hand tightly
e. Lee Seung Ri, who screams even before i scream

It kinda sucks if the guy gets way scared before I am, you'd feel like the man in the relationship. I'd probably scream after he screams! As for Young Bae, I'd probably feel like I was being a baby by getting scared...so yes, please comfort me if I get scared, coz that doesn't happen all the time. I would like big shoulders to hide my eyes or nice arms to grab..so TOP and Dae Sung definitely qualify!

4. When my voice cracks while singing
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i’m cute
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who laughs at me
c. Dong Young Bae, who gets even more embarrassed than me
d. Kang Dae Sung, who pretends he didn’t hear it
e. Lee Seung Ri, who makes fun of me by imitating me

No, don't make fun of me in this situation. I'm already paranoid about sucking at things so it would be best if they brush it off or encourage me... and seriously who wouldn't want TOP to say they're cute..or be touched by him?!

5. When his friend says he likes me
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who says what are you trying to do and breaks ties with his friend
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who goes up and punches his friend
c. Dong Young Bae, who talks it out with his friend
d. Kang Dae Sung, who says he will introduce another girl to his friend
e. Lee Seung Ri, who stops talking to his friend

If I were in that situation, I'd choose friendship over a guy anytime. So I would hate to be the one to spoil a great friendship, believe me, it's a sucky feeling. Though I think any girl would be kinda flattered that you mean so much to them...

6. When I’m mad at my boyfriend
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who starts a serious talk by asking me if I’m mad
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who says I’m sorry and says don’t be mad
c. Dong Young Bae, who sings to me
d. Kang Dae Sung, who makes me laugh
e. Lee Seung Ri, who does cute stuff around me

Sorry TOP, but sometimes girls don't like to be asked that when they ARE mad. It's best if you just straightaway say you're sorry or do something to make me feel better.

7. When my boyfriend meets my friends
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who compliments me in front of my friends
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who asks my friends to watch over our relationship
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes me feel good by complimenting my friends
d. Kang Dae Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks my friends to consider him

Ohhh..who wouldn't feel happy if their bf compliments them in front of their friends, especially if you have hot friends. And coming from TOP? Whoaaa.. But I also like it when the guy takes the effort to get to know my friends and gets along well with them...and asking them to watch over our relationship..is sweet too.

8. On my birthday
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who takes me some place expensive
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who treats me better than other days
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes me a special present
d. Kang Dae Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant

e. Lee Seung Ri, who says happy birthday all day long cheerfully

I prefer a handmade present over a really expensive item...something that they put their effort and time to come up with..is really priceless. And i think if they keep telling me Happy Birthday all day long I probably would get annoyed after awhile. Heh.

9. When we kiss
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who hugs me tight first
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who just does it
c. Dong Young Bae, who asks first
d. Kang Dae Sung, who becomes awkward first
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the cheek and turns his head when I’m about to kiss his cheeks

Firstly I really prefer hugs...then its cute and cheeky of Seung Ri to do that..which I kinda like...Ji Yong's style..nothing too special..so..yeah.

10. When it’s raining and we only have one umbrella
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who shares the umbrella but he ends up getting wet
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who holds me really tight so both of us don’t get wet
c. Dong Young Bae, who give me the umbrella and he walks under the rain
d. Kang Dae Sung, who tells me to wait and go gets another umbrella
e. Lee Seung Ri, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain

Sharing is caring so it'll be nice to share umbrellas with them, coz you'll be all close and all that. Hehe. Of coz I don't want them to get sick....some ppl like just being in the rain, but hmm..not really a big fan..ehhe

11. When I say I want to break up
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who lets me go, saying he’s sorry he didn’t do much for me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who is dumbfounded and says he never thought I’d break it off
c. Dong Young Bae, who asks if he can hug me one last time
d. Kang Dae Sung, who says farewell and lets me go, crying
e. Lee Seung Ri, who clings and anxiously asks why I’m acting like this suddenly

NoooO~~~~...how can i break up with them..I actually chose Young Bae, Dae Sung and Seung Ri in this case. BUt I was thinking, if I want to break up with them, then it means that I thought we couldn't work things out? In this case, TOP would be the best. But I think I'd like the guy to try to convince me to give him one more chance...

12. When we go to the amusement park
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who suggests to ride what I want to ride
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who suggests to go to the haunted house first
c. Dong Young Bae, who takes lots of pictures
d. Kang Dae Sung, who eats this and that
e. Lee Seung Ri, who forcefully takes me to scary rides

I'd appreciate being given the choice but knowing me, I'd just tell TOP that "I don't know, why don't you choose?" Haha and though I would be up for scary rides, he'd better not force me, but bribing with food etc is fine. Ooo and yes to lots of pics and eating..

13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who is sorry but asks if I could pay for now
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young Bae, who has them keep his belonging until he can pay
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls his friend to bring some money
e. Lee Seung Ri, who is anxious and doesn’t know what to do

Seriously I don't mind going dutch, but if he's earning more than me then it'll be best if he pays. But I wouldn't mind treating him occasionally too. If his ego allows him to ask for my help, that shows that he's humble too. If the guy freaks out about this and runs away or doesn't know what to do, that's not good. Coz it shows that he'll run away from problems or be unable to resolve crisises.

14. When I talk to another guy
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who thinks it’s no big deal
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who tells me not to talk to other guys
c. Dong Young Bae, who can’t say anything but actually bothers him
d. Kang Dae Sung, who is curious and sneakingly wedges in the conversation
e. Lee Seung Ri, who later asks what we talked about

I have a lot of guy friends, being from engineering classes and all that so my boyfriend shouldn't worry about me hanging out with them. Its a big turn off if he tries to control who I talk to or what I talk about. I don't mind if they want to join in because they have something to contribute to the conversation, but not coz they're keeping an eye on me.

15. When he can’t reach me through the phone
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who says he’s worried
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who comes to my house right away
c. Dong Young Bae, who lets it by, thinking something must have happened
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls until I pick up
e. Lee Seung Ri, who gets mad because I didn’t pick up

I hate guys who get worked up all over nothing so if they're a little worried but don't totally freak out about this, then its fine. It's kinda possessive and annoying if they have the reaction of Ji Yong, Dae Sung and Seung Ri.

16. When I tell him I love him
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who whispers in my ear that he loves me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who kisses me
c. Dong Young Bae, who hugs me without saying a word
d. Kang Dae Sung, who smiles, embarrassed
e. Lee Seung Ri, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too

Aww..all the above except Dae Sung's reactions are great..but seriously the 2 Seung Hyuns win here. If you're gonna say those 3 words, of coz you'd like to hear it back right?

17. When we’re shopping
a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says it’s boring and wants to go home already
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who picks out clothes for me
c. Dong Young Bae, who does everything I want to do
d. Kang Dae Sung, who impatiently follows me around
e. Lee Seung Ri, who enjoys shopping more than I do

I find it interesting to shop with guys who actually like shopping. Plus I've shopped with guys who like it more than me. It'll be cool if the guy actually picks out clothes for me, hopefully stuff that I would actually be able to wear or look good in, haha. If they don't like going shopping, they can stay at home, just don't come along and whine...

18. When I act cutely (like a kid)
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who thinks I’m cute and hugs me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who says I’m not doing it right and shows an example
c. Dong Young Bae, who tells me to do that everyday
d. Kang Dae Sung, who just laughs
e. Lee Seung Ri, who copies me

It's just so wrong if they can act cuter than me, or think that they are. I may not like to be called cute all the time, but getting a hug for it (especially from TOP) more than makes up for it. Dae Sung laughing at me would probably make me laugh too, he's just so contagiously happy.

19. When we get held up by a gang
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who fights them
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes an effort to clear things out
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls the cops
e. Lee Seung Ri, who leaves me and runs away

Any girl would like their bf to stand up for them, but I'd freak out if they were to fight the gang, what if they get hurt? So yes, running away or clearing things up are the best options. Leaving me behind and running away themselves = NOOOO

Final Score:

Choi Seung Hyun (TOP): 14

Kwon Ji Yong (G-Dragon): 8

Dong Young Bae (Tae Yang): 7

Kang Dae Sung: 9

Lee Seung Ri: 6

It's TOP who wins, not shockingly. I think like Xiao Zhu, he's pretty much like my ideal type of guy. Haha. BUt I'm a little surprised that Dae Sung is 2nd, then again, he's pretty funny and sweet from what I see in Family Outing and etc so okay.

TRANSLATION CREDIT: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI TAKEN FROM: bigbangkorean.wordpress.com

Big Bang

2009-12-30T11:25:00.011+08:00

I think most people who've been around me lately probably already know that I've gotten really interested in K-pop lately. And especially in Korea's No.1 hip-hop band, BIG BANG!...To be honest, I've heard of them before but kinda dismissed them coz c'mon the name is a little..er.. Haha. But then at the gym, I happened to catch one of their vids, Strong Baby, which is actually a solo by one of their members and it was so catchy and addictive that I got interested in K-pop after that.

I started out with a lot of different artists but it was only after I caught this 'Gara Gara Go' video among some others that I really thought to check out Big Bang. I seriously should have known about them earlier, coz they are really really just my cup of tea. Catchy melodies, addictive beats, electronica/hip-hop/pop, meaningful lyrics, basically their music just appeals to me. And when you watch them perform, they have this charisma and swagger that they pull off very well. But they're not just charming singers, they're rather adorkable and hilarious too. Some of them appear on variety shows and well, they're really rather goofy and silly. Anyway, before I become even more fan-girly, I should just introduce the members, starting with my favourite! This is also in order of age...ahah

Stage Name: T.O.P (Singer Se7en gave it to him to mean that he would be Top of everything)

Real Name: Choi Seung Hyun

Position: Rapper, Beatbox, Lyricist, Composer

Notable for: Can be seen in KBS hit action-spy drama IRIS, naturally smoky-looking 'sexy/killer' eyes (95% of the time, it's not eyeliner but his eyelashes, girls should be envious), his power raps

My favourites: His solos, 'To Act Like Nothing Happened' and 'Big Boy', the songs he's featured in, Gummy's 'I'm Sorry' and Uhm Jung Hwa's 'DISCO'

Stage Name: Tae Yang, SOL (Tae Yang means the sun)

Real Name: Dong Young Bae

Position: Singer

Notable for: His solo mini album 'Hot' was a bestseller and won several awards. A really good dancer, with smooth vocals and a killer body. It's just too bad he's a little short :P

My favourites: His solos, 'Look Only at Me' and 'Wedding Dress'

Stage Name: G-Dragon (literal translation of his Korean name)

Real Name: Kwon Ji Yong

Position: Leader, Rapper, Composer, Lyricist

Notable for: His solo album 'Heartbreaker' was the Best Selling Album of 2009 in Korea, one of the youngest but prominent composers around. Tends to be involved in many controversies from plagiarism to performing 'indecent acts in front of minors' at his concert. Which was blown out of proportion in my opinion.

My favourites: Solo songs 'But I Love You', 'Look Only At me Part 2', 'A Boy', 'Heartbreaker'

Stage Name: D-Lite

Real Name: Kang Dae Sung

Position: Singer

Notable for: Permanent member of SBS variety show 'Family Outing', acted in Korea's version of CATS. Has an almost permanent grin on his face

My favourites: Solo song 'Look at me Gwisoon' (a trot song or Korean traditional music, written by G-Dragon) and Family Outing, which is absolutely hilarious

Stage Name: Seung Ri, V.I, Victory (Seung Ri means Victory in Korean)

Real Name: Lee Seung Hyun (Yes, same as TOP, hence the stage name)

Position: Singer

Notable for: Excellent dancer, has choreographed some of their dance routines, his never-ending confidence that sometimes makes the others pick on him. He likes older girls, hence his trademark 'Noona~~'

My favourites: Solo songs 'The Next Day' and 'Strong Baby'

But besides all of their solos that I like as above, of course there are the favourites from them as a group. And there are quite a lot. Seriously, they are catchy. Just give them a try, you can check them out on Youtube.

1. Lies (The song that really catapulted them into fame)

2. Haru Haru/Day by Day

3. Last Farewell

4. Sunset Glow

5. Crazy Dog

6. Gara Gara Go! (Japanese)

7. My Heaven

8. Lollipop (with 2NE1, their labelmates and considered the female Big Bang)

9. Always

10. Let me hear your voice (Japanese)

11. A fool's Only Tear

12. VIP

At the same time, see how goofy they can be. Here's my fave TOP on my fave variety show of the moment, Family Outing.

And here's TOP in IRIS, currently the most expensive drama ever made in South Korea and it was top of the ratings during its screenings. It's an action-spy drama, something different from those usual tear-jerker romantic/comedies, so do check it out.

Unrecognizable Reflection?

2009-10-11T01:10:00.005+08:00

I know I haven't updated in over a year! Actually, I had posts that were in draft and have yet to finish them. But I just felt like posting this. Recently, I was introduced to the music of Death Cab for Cutie by Leonard and yeah, their album 'Plans' kinda struck a chord with me. Particularly this song.

Brothers on a Hotel Bed - Death Cab for Cutie

These lyrics kind of triggered me to think a lot more about what's going on in my life at the moment. And I can really relate to them. Why? I don't mean to say that I've physically changed. Of course, there are some changes in that sense...but the major change is more emotional and psychological.

Something he was not looking for

Both a beginning and an end

But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize

When he catches his reflection on accident

I used to think that I'm not someone whose emotions can be easily affected. That I'm someone strong despite whatever crap happens and that I'd be able to pull through without having to depend on someone. But ever since I moved to KL, somehow I feel that I've gone through several mini 'breakdowns' and am constantly affected by a sense of helplessness. That I dont like what's going on in my life, yet I am unable to do much to change them. Or that I still need to wait things out before deciding what next. I also feel that my personality has somewhat changed as a result.

I used to think that I was kinda arrogant, and pretty confident in my capabilities. Now? I'd probably tell you that I dont have much to offer. As an employee, I'm probably just good at working hard, but not smart in the way of moving up. I'm not good at talking to management and all that unless I really have to. I used to think that I'd do well in admin/management position, but now I feel that it's so much bother, paperwork and reporting. Basically, you'd be in constant meetings, discussions, trying to figure out how to work things out to report to the boss, announce things to the underlings and all that. A lot of my friends are on the lookout for new jobs but me, I look at the adverts and go...I dont fit this requirement, I dont fit that. My degree is somewhat in the middle of fields, not good enough for purely electronics, not for pure computer science. And I am not exactly good in either fields, nor am I a good engineer. I do best in project engineering and yet, most project engineer posts require civil or mechanical knowledge. I'm also not sure if i should go into sales, after all, I'm rather introverted at first impression. So, where exactly does that leave me?

As a friend? Maybe I'm not such a good friend, in the sense that ppl dont contact me unless they need something? Maybe I'm just boring? I feel insecure in my position as a friend to others. I usually will worry that someone else will become closer to this friend than me, and I get all jealous when that happens. I know that's stupid, but i cant help it. Nowadays I feel that I have less people to confide in? And that 95% of my friends are no longer single, so I dont feel good taking up their time in that case. So yea, feel kinda lonely a lot of the time and I keep a lot of stuff to myself compared to previously. Or end up confiding in people that I never expected to be close to. But hey, at least they're willing to listen.

Relationships? I guess a psychiatrist would consider me probably destructive and constantly on the defense. Or that I just dont know how to be in a relationship for long. I am afraid of really caring for someone and showing them. I think I feel that if i get into things too deeply, I'm afraid that I'd get hurt and tend to hurt them first. End things on my terms and all that. And if i get criticized by them, I would always find excuses to defend myself, twist things around etc. Maybe that's just normal for us...but I dont know. I kinda feel that I dont know how to deal with guys. That they probably treat me as one of the guys and that sucks at times. Yeah, that makes me cool to hang out with but not someone to date. And yet, I'm not entirely sure I want to change that. Half the time I enjoy just hanging with the guys, just coz i like the same stuff. But when the guy I have some interest in, just treats me like the rest of the guys..then major ouch.

See what I mean? I think I've never been as insecure or lost as I am now. I joke that I've reached my 'quarter life crisis' a yr early. I know that it's probably time to make some decisions but I dont think i'm ready to. Now that we're considered adults, living on our own, joining the working life, there is just so much more to think about. There would be major consequences to whatever decisions we make. It's not just about us anymore. More things would be affected. No matter how much I think, I still feel lost. And I just want to get rid of all these problems, and live a care-free life. Go on holiday and forget it all. That works..for a few days and when i come back home... reality and all its problems come crashing back at me. It might have been better not to have gone on holiday at all. But I guess, sometimes clarity comes to u at the oddest times and a short break would do the body well, if not the mind. These lyrics from the ending of the song kinda sums things up for me.

On the back of a motor bike

With your arms outstretched trying to take flight

Leaving everything behind

But even at our swiftest speed

We couldn't break from the concrete

Birthday Fortnight

2008-11-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

26th October 2008

Continuing on with my coverage of the birthdays in the month of Oct/Nov..lol. As mentioned in my earlier post, Mike's birthday was on the 27th of Oct, which was a Monday. It was also Deepavali and a public holiday for us in Selangor. YAY! To maximise our time, he decided to have his celebration on Sunday night instead. Being Mike, he chose to do it at Neway Karaoke at 1Utama and invited about 10 of us. Representing Swinburne (bsides the bday boy) was myself, Kwang Houg, Aileen and KC who was here for the long weekend. He'd also invited quite a few of his CHMNS1 friends. Even 1 of his friends working in SG was in KL for the weekend, which was good for him. So it was nice to be able to meet some new ppl from Kch working in KL. But i can honestly say we didn't have much time to talk. Y? Bcoz the package included buffet dinner!! We were all busy stuffing ourselves, there was a lot of yummy food to choose from. So Mike was busy choosing his songs while we chose the food. Haha.

Personally, I liked the appetizers more than the mains but the good thing was, if you keep coming down (they have like 2 flrs of rooms and we were upstairs), once a dish is finished, they'd replace it with a new one, usually of a different type. So there's really a lot to choose from! There was sushi, salads, seafood like mussels, prawns, crab, clams, Japanese noodles (where u can choose the style and ingredients), diff styles of chicken, fish, beef, lamb, vegetables etc. For dessert, there were fruits, jellies, puddings, cakes, pastries and an ice-cream bar! Oh my, I could just go on and on about the food. Basically, we were all just going in and out of the room with dishes of food. If we were lazy or accident-prone, we could also get the waiters to bring up our trays for us! Talk about service, ahah. Heck, if you felt cold, you could even borrow scarves from them!

But one thing about this type of karaokes, they make it compulsory for the snacks, which tend to be extremely over-priced. At least for us, we had 2 drinks each. Anyway, on to the main activity, singing! Each one of us had our own favourite singers and styles, so it was kinda like..Battle of the Stars, ahah. Mike's obviously was Jay, mine was Xiao Zhu, KC's was Lee Hom and there were quite a few songs from JJ, Jolin, AMei and more. ANd yes I have improved, coz I can finally rap Xiao Zhu's part for his song 'Lian Ai Da Ren'. Haha, thanks to lots and lots of practice b4hand. But Mike wasnt there to see, so no judge of my improvement :P I guess the other ppl thought I'm strange..coz i sing duet songs on my own!

Bday boy with KC and Aileen

We sang till almost 12 then Mike rang down for his bday package. Hahaha, the bday boy himself had to arrange for it, so kolien. He was given a free cake and bottle of 'champagne' (sparkling juice la). We had to wait quite awhile for it, so he pretended to cry like he was sooo upset. DRama king la him. Of coz when it finally came, we sang him the bday song in a few diff languages, which is probably a 1st for him. Then it was presents time! The Swinburne group got him an Arsenal casual tee, which he immediately wore the next day. I also got him the Friends complete DVD set (pirated arr..) when I was in Vietnam a few mths ago. He got quite a few presents, you can check out his blog for more details.

Me and Kwang Houg with his present from the Swinburne group (The couple already left ma)

However, unfortunately for us, we were asked to settle the bill and go at around 12.30 coz there were ppl outside waiting to use the room. The package was from 7.30pm to 12.30am, but if there was no1 waiting, we could actually use it till closing time, around 3-4am. But since the next day was a public holiday, guess every1 had the same idea as us! And there were still 6 drinks we hadnt claimed, so we went home with at least 1 or 2 bottles of Kampai, ahah! I think I was rather disappointed that we couldnt sing till early morning, coz it would have been a 1st and hey, I'd been practicing :P Mayb next time ya...hehe. But I really had fun singing, eating and laughing. It was a good celebration, I think MIke definitely enjoyed it with all his friends joining him :D

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1st November 2008

Talk about spontaneity and last-minute. I'd actually sent out Captain's present out to Johor earlier b4 my work trip to Penang when he texted me late on Halloween nite. Then he suddenly said that I should clean my apartment so that when he arrives it's clean. I thought he was just joking as usual but then he got Chee Fui to confirm with me b4 I could finally believe him. Then it was like..all out frenzy, coz the apartment was a little dusty. And being my mum's daughter, that cannot do! Started out cleaning my bathroom, then my room. Coz it was already almost 1, i was like...cannot..must continue tomorrow. So woke up early to clean the rest of the place and waited for them to arrive. And they know how to drive to KL, but then on, no clue. Somehow they managed to arrive someplace near my office so at least i could retrieve them n lead them back to my place.

After dropping their stuff and their car at my place, it was off to Ikea! Hmm, what isit with ppl from Kch and Ikea. Honestly, I've been there like so many times everytime some1 comes to KL. Haha, oh well, part of being the tour guide. Of coz we stopped for food 1st coz it was 3pm and none of us had eaten lunch yet! And i hadnt had a proper meal in 24 hrs, coz i spent most of it sleeping! Hahah. FOllowed them around Ikea trying out all the diff furniture, showed them the Curve's weekend flea market, Cineleisure and then it was off to 1Utama for some serious clothes shopping. Honestly, they're better shoppers than me i think. Kinda fun in a sense, coz they're like girls, can shop together with me. It was dinner time so we went for Vietnam Kitchen and it was the Captain's treat. Since it was his bday hehe. Ooo the golden mango prawn roll was yummy but i think all of us burned our tongues on it coz it was just fresh out of the wok.

Went back to my place where we all freshened up and then we went back to the Curve to check out Scarlet with my bro in tow. After all, its the Captain's bday, we must have alcohol! Hahah. We were early enough to snag a table at the side, but it was starting to get quite crowded. We had Glenmorangie single-malt as per my bro's recommendation, and it was pretty nice with the mixers. A little diff from Jack Daniels and Chivas. At 1st the music was just so-so, some house/r&b that we didn't quite recognize. The good thing about Scarlet was that 1 side of it is open windows/balconies so there was more ventilation, not to mention a nice view. As the night went on, the music got more retro and mixed. From Rihanna's Umbrella, they could go to 'oldies' such as Cranberrie's Zombie, Linkin Park's In the End, Bon Jovi's It's my Life and even....YMCA. Oh my. Hahha, it really made us feel old coz we knew the songs and we teased Captain that it was coz its his bday. It was kinda fun too, coz every1 in the club was just singing along loudly.

We left around 1am coz Chee Fui was falling asleep at the table (he hadnt slept for 24 hrs!!) and the rest of us had little sleep too, with husky voices due to all that singing. So I had 3 'salted fishes' sprawled out in my living room, coz KC was back in KL to get his car. KC was smarter tho, he went to sleep early and staked out a 'safe' position at the side. When my bro came in from watching football, he had to navigate his way around what little space there was with his handphone light and he nearly stepped on the Captain who was in the middle of the group. Since they were all exhausted, I let Chee Fui sleep till 12 noon b4 we woke him up to go for lunch. It was a little late for the dimsum place I had in mind, so we went straight for Mid Valley in 2 cars (so they could drive straight back after that).

Once again, on my bro's recommendation, we went for Mdm Kwan's for lunch. And dammit, he has expensive taste la! Since i promised i'd pay for dimsum breakfast, I paid for the lunch instead and ouch...it was RM100 for the 4 of us..-_- After that, we walked around, checked out the shops and showed them The Gardens, where it was just TOOO expensive for us to buy anything. We are all gadget freaks so we went from Sony to Nokia and so on to see the phones/laptops. My bro showed them the incredibly expensive jeans shop, with all the Evisu, True Religion jeans. Imagine, 1 pair is RM1k minimum! Crazy rite?

But soon, it was time for them to start the drive back to Johor and we said our goodbyes. Of coz they're welcome to come back and stay with us (with more advance notice pls!). Basically I am like the 'hotel' for my Kch friends who come to KL, ahah! But yeah, I had a good weekend too, though it was an expensive one. I think they found it more expensive though, what with their shopping. Anyway, it was a lot of fun, joking around, teasing/arguing, with the Captain getting hit a lot of coz. Chee Fui could just shake his head at how childish we were in public. But that is SOP - Standard Operating Procedure for us. Oh, no pics coz we forgot to take any, and lazy too! Heh. Till the next time then!

The Captain is 1/4 of a century!

2008-11-02T19:09:00.010+08:00

This is yet another birthday post, what to do, October/November is like the peak period for birthdays for me. Imagine, in a duration of about 9 days, there are 6 friends celebrating their birthdays. -_- Anyway, today is the birthday of Captain Henry! He turns 25, which I keep telling him is old!...hHeheh

This is typical of the Capt..

Anyway, some of you may wonder why we call him Captain. He's also known as 'Lao Pan' which means Boss. Captain is bcoz he was really into Pirates of the Caribbean as I was, in the last 2 yrs, and we all thought that he was pretty much like Captain Jack Sparrow, what with him always seeming a little drunk with his crazy, spontaneous ideas and odd quotes/topics. Of course, he'd also do his charming bit with the ladies, misleading and confusing terms of speech and he even had his 'White Pearl'. Oh, and he also has a tendency to be clumsy like Capt Jack too! Last year for his graduation, we bought him a mini Black Pearl too. As for the Boss bit, well, he was like our ringleader, always coming up with ideas on what to do and all that.

So how did I first get to meet this interesting character? I think it was in 2004 when I joined Swinburne and Augustine became the new Council President after Evelyn left. August had this little group called FShit, bcoz of the boyband F4 which was super-popular back then. There were 4 of them; August, Henry, Dominic and Yii Leong, and they even had the same type/colour jackets! Kinda funny if you think back actually. So August being a friendly/gentleman, he introduced me to them. I remember having a 1st impression on all of them and Henry's was that 'Oh, this guy is definitely a bad boy or a player'. Haha! So I was just polite to them and didn't really talk much then.

Bullying 'Da Ge' at Capt's bday last yr

It was only in late 2006 that I got to know the Captain better because he'd just come back from his IBL in Singapore and joined Mike's FYP group. I'd also gotten to know CY better then and the 3 of them were in several classes together, so yea, we all started hanging out. Then it was the period of our Mahjong addiction from CNY onwards, where we HAD to play at least once a week. During the peak of our addiction, we'd play a few times a week, even though we were all in final sem/year! Crazy and risky, I know. From Mahjong, it progressed to Monopoly since I had 3 sets.

My friendship with the Captain is interesting to say the least. People who know us would probably think so, since they all say that we provide all the entertainment. Haha, he's the Boss and I'm the Lady Boss. CY and Siaw Hui keep saying that Kch is so quiet after we both left. It's coz we're always arguing about things and we're super noisy! Obviously most of my guy friends like to tease me and I'd argue back and disturb them too. So since Henry likes teasing us so much, I am probably his biggest target. And the 2 of us are really competitive and we dont like to lose, whether at Mahjong, Monopoly or even any discussion. But in case anyone misunderstands that we don't get along, we're just arguing for the sake of it. To be honest, I think we both just enjoy the sparring. It certainly benefits the others when playing games with us, since they can win more easily since its just the 2 of us fighting so much. Plus get entertained for free. But nowadays, the arguing isn't quite the same since we're just doing it for laughs and we're both on the same wavelength, joking around, teasing each other and all that.

So yeah, despite his bad 1st impression (hmm, this seems to be recurring), I've come to find that he's actually a great friend to me. We always have lots to talk about, from work, music, movies, or just any old thing. There are definitely no dull moments when we meet up, probably coz we both agree that we cant' find any1 else to argue with us in KL/Johor. But he can be a good listener and gives constructive advice too. Of coz, he'd definitely be able to cheer me up when I'm down, what with his craziness. Basically, a really fun and generous friend to hang out with. Though ppl might talk bad about him being a player or a jerk....but for me, he's been a good friend. So yeah, that's more important to me. After all, I come off across as a snobby bitch to others but my friends dont think so.

Anyway, I count him as the other most important guy in my life at the moment (bsides family). We've been through some good times, as well as some stupid fights due to our tempers (esp mine). But at least we're more mature now and understand, respect and appreciate each other more. So here's wishing the Captain a very happy 25th birthday! You don't need an increment but I think you deserve a promotion for all the hours you put in at work. Here's hoping you'll keep improving on your stability/maturity ;). And pls dont do anything too crazy/stupid. Haha! Cheers to Captain Henry!

Happy 24th Mike!

2008-10-27T12:12:00.001+08:00

Today is the birthday of Mike FV, who is probably one of the most important guys in my life (outside of my family of coz) so far. I think everyone knows that we used to be together, but are just friends now. And yes, i think ppl still get confused about this, coz we hang out a lot in KL. But hey, like we always say, KL is a big place, and there are not that many of us from Kuching who can mix around that well.

But moving along, what shall we say about Mike? Well, as everyone knows, he's a good singer (big big fan of Jay!) and enjoys making people laugh. Definitely a good friend to those that he cares about, and a gentleman. So yeah, good with the ladies in his own way ;). Summary is, he's the type of boy you'd wanna bring home to introduce to your mum. HAha!

How did I meet this guy? Simple, I was in Swinburne's Council in my foundation year of 2003 and he'd just joined the Council too. We were organizing this Valentine's Day sale and had to set up the booth. So after the initial introduction, the first thing i said to him was 'Can you go to the Council room to get the radio?'. Lol. Being the nice guy that he is, he of coz went to do it. But I guess he must have thought I'm so bossy. Which he did tell me later. And I thought he was easy to bully. Hehe, so bad of me.

Boy, this was like really back in those old days..ahha

Despite our somewhat...bad first impression, we got to know one another better bcoz of some shared interests, like music and something of an addition to IRC (it was big back then b4 we progressed to MSN). Even up to this day, 5 years down the road, we still talk about the things we both like, such as Jay, Mayday or any good Chinese music, Final Fantasy games (though I've only played FF8), movies, Swinburne gossip, etc. Basically, he's probably the contact with the biggest MSN log file. He's like the first that I'll tell my stuff to, even the most inane or boring stuff. What to do, he's a good listener you know. Makes him very good boyfriend material, and trust me girls, he was/is a good boyfriend. Just that this girl doesn't know how to appreciate him. Hey, we're better off as friends now. So...no regrets for being with him and even being his friend now though :)

Look how skinny you were then!

So yeah, we've been through a lot together, seen new places, both as friends and as a couple previously. But at least we're still good friends now. So before I sound too loso, here's wishing you a great 24th birthday. May you have a great year ahead, and all your wishes come true. Hope you'll get that much-deserved promotion and maybe another Europe trip? And of course, a good girl who will treat u like the king u are ;) You deserve nothing but the best! Cheers mate!

Ah Kong's double tag -_-||

2008-10-11T22:50:00.005+08:00

It's a lot easier to do the tags than to actually update. I'm such a lazy person, ah well..i get very little rest time anyway!

Tag No.1
1. The last person that tagged you is?
Ah Kong aka Alex Kho

2. Your relationship with him/her?
He's my Ah Kong/Grandpa...ahaha...part of the Gay4 laaaa...

3. Your two impressions towards him/her?
He is hardworking but also can act cool....stubborn....go crazy sometimes...similar to me laaa..lol...wat to do..he's my Ah kong ma...

4. The most memorable thing that he/her has done for you?
Helped to take care of my house when I was away in Perth for a week!..ahaha...

5. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?
You're a really great gal, you're an important friend to me...he actually wrote this instead of tell me la...which guy will actually say this to me?..sure kena laugh or tease laaa...or we both turn red also..

6. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will....
Scold him laaa...what lo...become my enemy..i go find him n knock his head...or his car (his baby ma!)...hahah..

7. If he/she becomes your enemy the reason is...
Is most likely coz of our tempers la..we have the same type of temper, very fast get angry and explode de...but we recover quite fast. Err..i think i recover better than him...and I will say sorry more easily than him..esp if I care about the person...sure I will end up say sorry to Ah Kong first..ahah

8. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is:
Pray that he will become happier and get a good job like what he wish for! And one day, attend his wedding..i think u'll b faster than me guaaaa...

9. How do you feel people around you feel about you?
Hmm...i think most of my friends will say I'm a good friend...i asked them this recently..they seem to all say that I'm a good listener, will always do my best to help them no matter what...and i'm not very judgemental...i give good feedback? Good organizer/secretary? I'm just repeating what they say la...suppose they will say i'm serious!..or used to be very la..can be moody n hot-tempered...

10. The character of yourself is?
I try to do my best in everything I do...i tend to put my family and friends' needs over my own. Though I can be lazy and procrastinate..i will be a perfectionist/control freak about things I really care about..i like to plan things...even the unforseeable future..lol.and i can get stressed over things I shouldn't be, making myself moody...can be easily angered but I think i've improved...can be very quiet at times unless I'm with my own gang(s)

11. On the contrary, the character that you hate yourself is.....
My temper, my over-seriousness at times and being too quiet sometimes...coz i find it hard to intro myself to someone new and talk a lot to them...sometimes i just prefer to keep quiet...coz trying to think of topic maaaa....then my temper has gotten me into a lot of trouble...oh! and emotionally detached...i'm too 'cool'...guess coz i'm trying to protect myself from getting hurt...

12. The most ideal person you wanna be is.....
No1 is ideal so I'm happy to be me...just that I want to improve myself...still have a long way to go....one step at a time...

13. For the people who care, say something about them:
Thank you to all my family and friends for all the support, encouragement, advice, time and love. Really appreciate all of it..hope that I can be a good person to you in return..God bless all of you...Happiness and health to all! (Sound like Santa Claus ler)

Tag No.2 (slightly modified)
Ten people to tag:
1)Ching Yi
2)Siaw Hui
3)Vicky
4)Linda
5)Michael
6)Henry
7) Serena
8) Yi Chan
9) Ah Kong
10) Julia

Who is Number (2) having a relationship with?
Our Lao Da, Ting Chyi Yeou...ahahha...looking forward to Dec, when I can bully him again!

Is(6) a male or a female?
95% male..ahha..jk laaa boss

If Number (7) and Number (10) got together, would that be a good thing?
NOOOOO...they are straight!

How about (5) and (8)?
Hhaha!! Cannot la..they're both guys..plus Chan already got gf liao....

What is Number (1) studying?
She graduated same time as me..but she's probably going to learn about automation soon...hehe

Say something about Number (3):
She's like this bubbly girl....who can be blur sometimes..has a great/crazy sense of humour...hiaaaoooo!!...*ahem*...great to chat with...good listener...i miss her and the other G-Gals!!...Muwaaakkkss

Long overdue Tag from Serena

2008-10-11T22:41:00.001+08:00

Got tagged by Serena...so..just a quick one then:

1. State the person who tag you
Serena Sim Shing Yin (correct rite? hehe..still remember)

2. List your five favourite dinners, in your place.
in my place?..this is kinda hard but I'll just put both those in KL and Kch

a. Ah Tao Seafood (Kch)
b. Jln Song - coz of the variety! (Kch)
c. Tomoe Sushi - cheap and good sushi (Kch)
d. Sushi Zanmai - cheap and good sushi (KL)
e. Grandma/Mum's cooking

3. Tag five people then.
- Michael FV
- Kwang Houg
- Alex Kho
- Linda
- Vicky

Turning 23 (Part 2)

2008-10-11T22:35:00.004+08:00

I know, it's been over 4 months since I blogged. So this is really a very delayed birthday post. Haha. What to do, life has been hectic for me. Anyway, on with how my birthday went this year. Well, a big difference was that there was no big party as per previous years. All I had was a karaoke session with Mike and Kwang Houg at Neway 1Utama. Also had a dinner with my uncle them, and a little cake session in the office pantry when I brought out my cake (courtesy of my auntie) to share with them. All of these were before my actual birthday, except the cake session.

On my actual birthday, I was woken up at the ungodly hour of 3am due to Stephen Apek's msg (wonder what he was doing up so late). To be honest, I was actually kinda down for the rest of the day, coz I didn't really receive many msgs in the morning. And it's also my first bday away from family. Overall, I think this was an interesting birthday though quiet. At least I had a lot of time to think over what I've done in the previous years. So here's a point-form summary (at least it wont be so long winded rite?) in chronological order:

- Elected as head prefect in Form 4/Form 5, which was something of an achievement for me since I was never a prefect till Form 4 itself....much to the displeasure of many ppl

- Joined Taekwondo and managed to win 2nd prize for Pattern competition (heh, at least something for sports right?)

- Asked to take part in Swinburne's Inaugural Debate, leading to us finally joining the Inaugural Yayasan Sarawak English University Debate (the actual name is too damm long) and we got 3rd - Elected President of Rotaract Club of Swinburne Sarawak and managing to help the club to achieve its 1st Presidential Citation and a few District 3310 awards

- Becoming Organizing Chairperson for a few big projects like Swinburne's Prom Night 2005 and the Rotaract/Interact fundraiser to buy books for rural Sarawakian schools

- Helped to set-up and run 2 new clubs in Swinburne: Explorers Club and Photomedia & Design Club, both of which were also very successful

- Completed my studies till bachelor's degree (2nd lower honours only, but hey, I'm not a good engineering student)

- Went for many job interviews in KL and even Johor, with the result of 4 job offers

- Ended up working in Philips Lighting, which I'm pretty happy with since they are all willing to guide me and there's constant learning on the job, what with all the trainings, new products and travelling to project sites in the various states

I suppose you can say that I've achieved a lot in terms of studies/career and co-curricular activities. Sometimes it kinda makes me feel like I'm old, since it seems to be over so many years. I bet all those more 'mature' ppl are gonna scold me about this though. But besides all these, I've also learned a lot from my personal life. Some of which are as such:

- Met and remained close with 7 other girls, and we are known as the Gathering Gals. Honestly, we have had some great times, some of which we still crack up over and fondly think back on. I miss all of u gals so much..hope we can meet up soon, though I'm not in KL

- Became friends with a whole bunch of different but amazing ppl in uni. They consist of various groups, such as the Gay4, JL.MFV.AC.SS, Mahjong Club, Debaters Club and so on. My 5 years in uni were definitely the best of my life so far, and I think it'll be hard to top that. You guys are all so great, I always enjoy our times together. Though we might not have so much time or opportunity to meet up now, but we always have a great time when we do! MIss u all!

- Got involved with a few different guys over the last few years and went through a lot of things, both good and bad. Fell in love with a great guy...but ended up as best friends. No regrets whatsoever, just wish you all happiness, you guys deserve it.

- Moved to KL to work, and later got a place on my own (shared with my bro and Aileen though). It's not easy coz it can get kinda tiring and lonely as there are just not that many friends in KL as compared to in Kch. But at least I'm doing ok

- Learned how to drive myself around in PJ and certain areas...i can't really drive to KL yet...but give me another year and I'm sure I'll be able to....(will be forced to, one day)

For me, no matter what I go through, whether it's good or bad, I just try to learn something from it. I'm really quite a perfectionist/control freak when it comes to organizing things or planning out my stuff. But I've also realized that things can't always go your way or be under your control. So I've just tried my best to plan for things, and when they don't work out that way, just try to figure out the best solution and work with it. I've also become more open to trying new things, ideas and experiences. Just listen to what ppl have to say, how they think and yea...just be more open to spontaneity. Live life more. Take time to relax, chill out and maybe let loose a little. Be a little crazy/wild, especially when there's a lot of stress, so things can balance out.

Learn to understand myself and my needs/wants. Instead of being so calculative about prices, pamper myself occasionally. I need to love myself more before loving others. Look more on the bright side of things, see the good part of ppl rather than just the bad part. Accept the ppl I care for as who they are totally, even with their faults/mistakes. Don't always judge a person by their looks, they can sometimes surprise you. Don't care too much about the past, or worry about the future. Start living now, coz today is a gift, that's why it's called the Present.

I learned most of the above 'philosphical' stuff from my various experiences, many wise friends/ppl, some of whom are slightly misunderstood. Lol, its surprising that you expect so little from certain ppl, and they end up giving you the most. Anyway, just wanted to share what I was reflecting on this past birthday and what I've learned. Thank you, each and everyone of you, for your contribution to my 23 years of life. I appreciate your friendship, love and all that you have given me in one way or another. Hope we can still remain friends till we're old! Hehe. Thanks again for all the birthday wishes and everything else :)

Turning 23 (Part 1)

2008-06-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

Today at around 6.30pm, I turned 23 years old. To me, this can be considered a milestone in my life. You may ask, why the odd number and not 25? Well, 25 is of coz a bigger milestone, but I will treat this as a milestone for a few reasons. Firstly, I am no longer a student, after 20 (?) years of studying, I am now in the first 6 months of working life. At the same time, this is my first birthday away from home and on 'my own' in a sense. I have closed one major chapter of my life and am moving on to a new one. Therefore, it's pretty true to set my 23rd birthday as a significant point in my life.

So I shall take this opportunity to look forward to the next big milestone in my life - turning 25 years old. Wow, that's a quarter of a century! That's a big number, especially for those of us who still remember just turning 18 not too long ago. Lol. Yeah, I guess it is a big number. Anyway, instead of worrying about getting old, I shall take it as a measuring stick for achieving my goals. What do I mean by this? When I turned 21, I was upset with myself for not being who I thought I would be by that age. I used to think that by the age of 21, I would be someone self-assured, accomplished and capable (those from Swinburne, think someone who carries herself like Corina). So I was gloomy for that birthday till someone pointed out that it was unrealistic to measure myself like that. I should just measure myself against what I have accomplished over the years. My consolation now is that by the age of 22 and 3/4 years old, I have more or less become what I wanted to be by 21 years old. So it's only a delay of 1 and 3/4 years, ahah!

Anyway, I shall now set some more measurable goals for myself to achieve or things I want to do by the age of 25. Even though it's good to have goals, I think it's better to set a specific period or date for them since it gives me more motivation to work harder. I estimate that 2 years should be enough time for these. If I can't accomplish all by then, at least I'd have tried my best. That's what's important. I guess I may have been inspired from watching Randy Pausch's "The Last Lecture" on "Achieving Your Childhood Dreams". Though some of these goals might seem easy, they're still goals that some of us may keep putting off and never get around to doing.

Goals to achieve by the age of 25 (in no particular order):
- Promoted to 2 grades higher at work
- Check out the view from the Skybridge of KLCC
- Visit Bangkok/Phuket/Taipei/Bali/Kota Kinabalu/Pulau Tioman
- Visit all states of Malaysia (for work or play)
- Try an 'extreme' sport of some sort: parasailing, rock climbing, bungee jumping, skydiving
- Lose enough weight and exercise to become more fit/healthy
- Upgrade to a better camera (mayb semi-pro!) with more skills gained

Other long-term goals include:
- Take MBA
- Visit the other Disneylands in the world (except Disneyland in California)
- Visit Japan/Hong Kong/Australia/Florida

As you can see, some of the goals do overlap each other. And of coz, when I think of more, I'll add them to the list. Then in the next post, I'll look back on the highlights and significant points of my 23 years on Earth, and how I spent this birthday. But first, thank you to everyone who remembered my birthday and wished me a happy birthday. I felt touched with everyone's msgs, comments, posts etc. Even if some ppl were 'reminded' by certain things. Lol. Thanks anyway :) *hugz n kisses*

CNY 2008

2008-05-20T22:22:00.010+08:00

And once again, I am updating about something that happened so many months ago. What can I say, I really tend to put things off a lot. Even in work. >.< must change this bad habit of mine, coz it makes me delay things till the last minute and then I'd have to rush, and yea, makes me late quite frequently. But i know a lot of ppl are like tat, yet this doesn't make it ok.

Anyway, back to the update on hand. This year's CNY marked the first time that I am going home for CNY. Every year, I'm already at home to celebrate it, or maybe going away some place to get away from it (against my will mostly). But this time, I have become one of the many ppl working outside of their hometown and have to take leave to go back home. Kinda strange feeling to me. Thing is, I'd only been working for about 1 mth (1 mth on 1st day of CNY to be exact), so technically I was only allowed to take 1 day's leave. So that's y I took that one day on CNY eve itself and flew back to Kch that morning. Among all of us who are working out of Kch, I was the last to arrive back. Burger was back the earliest by a few days (lucky guy!) followed by the Capt who reached just a few hours before me.

The very 1st thing i wanted to do was hunt down a bowl of yummy Sarawak LAKSA! Sadly, since it was CNY eve, they were all closed :( So i settled for my fave dumplings from Jade Pot instead. The twist was, Jade Pot was also closed for CNY, but my parents went there the day b4 and bought the uncooked ones n learned how to cook/heat them up. Not quite the same, but hey, beggars can't be choosers la, esp since I haven't had them since I left for KL. Having recharged my 'battery' (or satisfied 1 of my cravings), it was off to Eric Hair Salon! Lol i always joke about having my own hair stylist and I guess it's kinda true since I only get my hair done by Eric, who's my cousin on my dad's side. Affordable, yet with quality and friendliness :) And surprise surprise, the Captain was also getting his hair done, being the vainpot that he is. DIdn't get to talk much since we were seated on opposite sides of the salon but we did try to arrange for one of our much-missed MAHJONG sessions for the next few days. As for my hair, I just got a relaxing wash and trim, plus they set it in curls for me. *blissfully pampered*

There were just a few hours left till the family reunion dinner, so I just lazed around watching tv, sneaking some CNY tidbits and playing with the fat cat. Of coz I did try to help out, but there wasn't much I could do as well. It was kind of strange though, though I was back for CNY, my grandma and auntie had gone to spend it in KL -_-|| but she did prepare her infamous dark-sauced duck (infamous not for the taste, but for the events related), ngo hiang (meat rolls in beancurd skin), ingredients for the soup and more. The thing about the women on my mum's side, they tend to prepare food in large amounts. They're always worried about us getting hungry, hence the reason y I became chubbier once i stopped all-day school. My Uncle Jeffrey and cousin were there to help finish the food, but there were still many leftovers, which we would try to finish over the next few days. After dinner, we just sat around, catching up and playing blackjack. For once, I joined in the betting, but only RM1 per bet, which was the lowest among the rest. Hehe and I ended up winning the most, about RM20. But it was just for CNY, so yea, no long-term betting for me! My brother then took off for his REAL gambling session while I watched more TV, which wasn't much in terms of CNY entertainment this year :P till it was time for the great CNY countdown! It's pretty much tradition that all of us are back home for it, so my brother rushed back with my uncle for it. And every year my mum just tries to sleep through it -_-||

As most Kuchingites might know, though we have a firecracker/fireworks ban in Malaysia, it doesn't really seem to affect us for festive seasons. However, from what I hear, they've been harder to find this year. Of course, being ever resourceful, my family managed to source some out and though I enjoy them, I always have to comment 'WHy buy so much? You're just burning money!' But everyone else in the neighbourhood was probably as kiasu, if not more. Well, just the regular families anyway. The number of ppl doing the CNY countdown has gone down over the years. Anyway, it was still pretty much the same - loud, smoky and somewhat dangerous. You never know when a cracker will explode and send things flying over to the next house/neighbour or an empty firework shell might land in your roof gutter and keep burning and so on. This year, the alpha males of my family had finally bought some BIG fireworks, the ones that are packed like individual 'grenades' and produce only 1 big 'flower'. Each 'grenade' has to be loaded into a metal launcher with the fuse trailing out and it will then shoot up into the sky to explode. Of course, there's always the risk of it getting stuck in the launcher and blasting it to smithereens and so forth. *shrugs*

The first attempt is always the riskiest, since we all weren't very sure of the success rate. Usually 1 of them will light it and then run back to where we're all standing, quite a distance away. We watched the lighted fuse disappear into the launcher with bated breath. *POOOOFF* The grenade launched itself up and out and exploded barely over the roofs of the houses in our road. Resulting in all of us ducking and swearing simultaneously, as bits of the packaging and whatnot came raining down on us. -_-|| Our conclusion was that our area was a bit too low to get the full effect of the firework. Since I was attempting to photograph the fireworks, I resorted to crouching between a neighbour's car and his dustbin, to avoid getting hit by any exploding bits and to get the full 'flower'. This worked out pretty ok, but it was still pretty awkward. Lol. After the end of countdown, we were all smelling of smoke, slightly dusty from gunpowder and coughing slightly as usual. But yea, i wouldn't want to miss this part of CNY :) My brother of coz went back to his friends' place and I was back online and watching tv. Oh, and comforting the poor fatty who was frightened by all the noise and cowered in the corner for once. I think he actually went up to join my mum, being the manja cat he is.

The best shot I could come up with

Anyway, on the 1st day of CNY as usual, we started the visiting by visiting the houses of both sides' grandparents. At my dad's parents' house, I got to meet my new 'nephew'. My oldest cousin on that side of the family had given birth to Zyan a few months ago, and this was our first time seeing him in person. He was chubby, cute and big-eyed, awww. He reminded me of my brother when he was young, since he was kind of big for his age and fair too, with a little cheeky grin. Haha. After that, we went to a few relatives' houses, friends of my parents and so forth. Oh, and at one of my dad's friends' place, I got to have my laksa!! Yea, imagine, they serve laksa at their open house, which they made themselves. It was pretty good too, since their father used to set up a coffeeshop. YUM :)

CNY Family Photo 2008

My mum with Zyan in matching outfits

Later that afternoon, I went with Captain and August to go visit Dr. Dennis at his parents' house. We talked about our jobs, what we'd done so far and etc. And I got mistaken by his grandma as their relative -_-||. Since it was a hot day, we went to McD's for ice-cream then back to my house for MAHJONG! As there were only 3 of us, my dad joined in as the 4th person. Kinda strange for me since I've never played with my dad and he also doesn't play by the rules that we follow or know the combos that we do. A lot of adjusting on all our parts, especially for those of us who like to set up big combos. All thru the day, Captain and I were bickering/bantering/discussing (as usual!) and August just shook his head since he's used to it, Dr. Dennis was bemused and i think my dad was probably thinking "hmm..wat's wrong with the 2 of them"

After dinner and more visiting, we had our OFFICIAL mahjong session, this time complete with playing for money. My dad had decided since the 3 of us were now working, we could afford to play with money, which we'd never done. So he explained the rules and said we probably won't lose more than RM50 at most. To which we all exchanged looks that said 'HA? RM50 ar?!' but since he said though we might lose a round, we still can win some money, we were like ok, just try. As the most 'kiamsiap' person at the table (probably coz i'm the only girl), I was the most worried but strangely, I ended up leading for the first few rounds. Till I made this comment "Hey, I haven't had to pay you yet" to the Captain and almost immediately, I had to. -_-|| So the superstition they say about this type of comments IS true. Anyway, after 1 full round of the 4 winds, the end result was the Captain and I winning most of the money with my dad and August losing about RM10 plus each. So yea, had some luck at gambling this year, which is mayb due to me being the only girl.

My family usually has 'open house' on the 2nd day of CNY but on a small-scale, as in no dishes like curries or what served, just cookies, tidbits and so on. There wasn't exactly a rush of ppl unlike my younger years but still quite a steady flow. In between I was of course online, refilling containers, preparing drinks and the usual. Later that afternoon, I went to visit Dr. Chua with CY and we had a good time talking about Swinburne and our jobs. His little boy Eason was so cute, helping to serve us food. And after serving us, he'd quickly cover the containers like he didn't want us to eat anymore. His mum asked him to give us one of everything, so yea a lot of eating. But sometimes he'd only serve CY instead of both of us, so it was funny. We joked to Dr. Chua, now you know what type of girl he'll go for huh? LOL.

Then, that night was MY open house as per the previous years. Most of my Swinburne friends from the E&CS ppl who were in Kch, Serena n the debaters turned up at different times. So we had mahjong, lots of catching up and gossip, just like what we used to do. Really missed it, though I'd been away for just one month. The Mecha gang of Yi Chan, Thong Wei, Stephen all turned up on the 3rd day and of course, more updates on jobs/training, gossip/reminiscing about the good old days when some of us fell down, got into love triangles and so on. Lol. CY and KC came over that night too and talked about the E&CS gang, who would be the first to get married etc etc. The usual. My summary was that everytime when u meet with ur friends that you might not have seen for awhile, the topics tend to change over the years. When you're in high school, you complain about studies, tuition, guys etc. When in uni, you still complain about studies, guys and lack of time/lousy lecturers/crazy assignment deadlines. Then once you leave uni, you talk/complain about work, supervisors, salaries, number of days for leave and so on. Basically, it just makes u feel old n you'll miss the previous stage of your life. But yea, I really enjoyed catching up with everyone.

The 1 thing that maybe annoyed/bemused me during the whole trip was that I kept having to update everyone about my job. Some ppl who totally didn't know would ask if I was still in high sch/uni and those who knew would ask about Sony. Basically I had to explain about the situation or about what I did at Philips many many times. My parents did summarize for them but when they ask in detail, that's me. Sometimes i just wished I had a big card in front that said it all, or a voice recorder, but ah well that's life. And it just means they care about what's going on with you, though they'll probably forget it and ask again next year.

My trip back came to an end all too soon for me and I was really down at the airport. My parents were there and yea, I was kinda distracted with the lighting. But once I got through the IC check and was by myself, it really hit me that I was leaving Kuching again. Leaving my family, friends and all that was familiar, and going back to 'cold', busy and dusty KL. I admit to shedding a few tears but managed to pull myself together. After all, I made the choice myself and it's for my own good. I'm strong enough to accept this new challenge, I must stick with it so I can gain more for the future! Yep, that's what I told myself, but I of course still missed everyone :P Before coming back to Kch, I made lots of plans to meet everyone, to do lots of things (eat laksa, dumplings, go to Spring, play mahjong). I'm glad to say, I managed to do everything and spent quality (not quantity, sadly) with everyone dear to me. Basically, the trip was all I'd hoped for and more. THanks to everyone who played a part. I miss u guys...and I miss those that I didn't get to see (away for holidays or overseas). Till the next time! *hugz*

Leo Ku Magic Moments Concert 2007

2008-05-13T08:55:00.008+08:00

I know that this is a very late post, but u know how I am, procrastinator supreme and all that. Better late than never right? Anyway, I was in KL in December, around Christmas since I had a few job interviews before and after Christmas. It just happened that Leo Ku (古巨基) was in KL for his Magic Moments Concert on the 23rd of December. I'm not really a big fan of his, since I rarely listen to Cantonese songs, but I do like a few of them, especially his 'Golden Melody' (勁歌.金曲) song, since it's a compilation of many nice K-songs. Maxis was one of the major sponsors of the concert and since my uncle works there, he'd gotten 2 free tickets and asked if I wanted them.

Since I had nothing better to do, and I've never actually been to a BIG concert, I thought ok, don't waste the free tickets. Yi Chan, Chiet them were all in KL and I msged them to ask if anyone wanted the extra ticket, but apparently no1 did, so I just went alone. My relatives dropped me off at Stadium Merdeka after church and dinner and I was kinda apprehensive since I'm new to the whole thing but it was fairly easy as it was already close to the starting time. I got my bottle of water confiscated at the entrance but other than that, it was pretty easy to find my seat. Did i mention what seats they were? No? Get ready for this, they were VVIP seats! The very FIRST row and CENTER, baby! Talk about a good start for my 1st concert huh? The VVIP area was even closer to the stage than the most expensive tickets being sold at RM360. The only people closer to the stage were the press and the organizers. And I'm not even a huge fan. Lol.

But knowing that Leo Ku is known as one of the New Heavenly Kings in Hong Kong, and he's a good singer, I thought it should be a pretty entertaining and good concert. The stage was very nicely decorated as a sort of fake forest, with a sort of fantasy/fairytale theme, hence the name 'Magic Moments'. Heck, Leo Ku came out suspended under this huge mechanical bird thing for his entrance. Throughout the whole show, you could see many fantasy elements, such as dragons, sleeping princesses, clocks running around ala Alice in Wonderland and such.

See what I mean? Fancy silvery butterfly wings and all

For me, the highlight was probably when he sang 'Golden Melody' and actually walked down the stage to walk around the VVIP area, shaking hands with both the VVIP area guests and the guests in the RM360 ticket area. I got to shake his hand twice, which is pretty cool even though I'm not a huge fan. But it was a nice thing for him to do, and he could still sing the heck out of the song while walking. C'mon, its a 10 minute song, with several difficult parts, that's pretty amazing.

He also did an Aaron Kwok song, not sure of the title, but it's that fast one with the famous dance moves and he did pretty ok, though its totally not like his good boy/balladeer image. When he went down for a change of clothes, Justin (側田) came up and sang. Then, they had this beatboxer, with Justin, Leo and 2 other guys to form this sort of boyband thing which was pretty interesting and different from what I expected. All in all, it was a good concert, for my 1st one anyway, and yes, Leo Ku definitely can sing. Justin too, even though he had only 1 solo song. I was busy taking photos throughout the whole thing, so I might have missed out some happenings, but yes, definitely a good experience. Thanks Uncle A for the GREAT seats! And free too..hehe... ;)

Typical boyband pose huH?

I wonder how those guys can see anything at all

Leo Ku wasn't the only one with a fantasy theme. Most of the shopping centers were using the whole Fantasy/Fairyland theme for their Christmas decor as well. These pics are of Mid Valley, which I think had the prettiest Christmas decor for this year. They even had story telling sessions with fairy story tellers and the kids participating could dress up as fairies too. Kids nowadays really have everything huh?

新不了情 (Xing Bu Liao Ching / Endless Love) by Wan Fang

2008-04-15T13:46:00.005+08:00

I was getting bored of listening to the same songs on my laptop this morning, so was searching for this classic Mandarin song but it turned out that it was on the computer at my uncle's place instead. So, went to download it again and well...reminded me of the MTV. I only really watched the MTV when we went for karaoke last year (before New Year's Eve)..and it's mostly about the movie of the same title. I don't remember watching the movie, but from the song lyrics and the MTV, I can tell that it's one of those sad love stories.

Anyway, this song 1st caught my attention recently bcoz Aska Yang (杨宗纬) and Jam Hsiao (萧敬腾) PK'ed it on One Million Star Season 1. Jam sang a more jazzy/bluesy version and got 23 marks out of 25 while Aska sang the more conventional version with a few incredible runs that got the audience cheering like mad. He got 24 marks out of 25! You can watch this on Youtube, as well as Gary Cao Ge's live versions. All 3 sang the heck out of it. So yes, definitely a classic hit. It's pretty much a MUST watch if you like good Chinese music, or if you're an Aska or Gary fan.

万芳-新不了情 (Xing Bu Liao Ching / Endless Love)

心若倦了 (xin ruo juan le)
If your heart is weary
泪也乾了 (lei ye gan le)
And your tears are all dried up
这份心情 (zhe fen xin qing)
This feeling
难舍难了 (nan she nan liao)
Is hard to relinquish or forget.

曾经拥有 (ceng jing yong you)
I once used to have
天荒地老 (tian huang di lao)
All the time in the world
已不见你 (yi bu jian ni)
But I haven't seen you
暮暮与朝朝 (mu mu yu chao chao)
For many nights and many days.

这一份情 (zhe yi fen qing)
This love,
永远难了 (yong yuen nan liao)
Is forever difficult to resolve.
愿来生还能 (yuan lai sheng hai neng)
I hope in our afterlife
再度拥抱 (zai du yong bao)
We can embrace again.

爱一个人 (ai yi ge ren)
Loving someone,
如何斯守到老 (ru he si shou dao lao)
How do you remain faithful till you're old?
怎样面对一切 (zen yang mian dui yi qie)
How do you face everything
我不知道 (wo bu zhi dao)
I do not know.

回忆过去 (hui yi guo qu)
Reviewing the past,
痛苦的相思忘不了 (tong ku de si xiang wang bu liao)
The painful memories are unforgettable.
为何你还来 (wei he ni hai lao)
Why do you come then
拨动我心跳 (bo dong wo xin tiao)
To make my heart race.
爱你怎么能了 (ai ni zen me neng liao)
How is it possible to stop loving you?
今夜的你应该明了 (jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao)
Tonight, you should understand
缘难了情难了 (yuan nan liao qing nan liao)
It is difficult to escape fate, just as it is difficult to dissolve love.

Taken from: Chinese Music Forum

原來你什麼都不想要 (Yuan Lai Ni She Me Dou Bu Xiang Yao / Actually You Didn't Want Anything From Me) by Ah Mei

2008-04-14T12:36:00.010+08:00

I was listening to Leo Ku's new medley of love songs...and this was one of the songs in it. And I just felt like downloading the whole song and reading the lyrics. I guess it suits me at the moment. Most of the time I'd say I'm a very logical person. BUt as with most ppl, it is when you really want something...or anything to do with feelings, your heart will overrule your brain. We're only human after all.

I've been busy over the past few weeks since my last update, but I'll blog on that later. Here's the lyrics to this Ah Mei classic.

張惠妹-原來你什麼都不想要 (Yuan Lai Ni She Me Dou Bu Xiang Yao / Actually You Didn't Want Anything From Me)

Verse:
我知道這樣不好 (wo zhi dao zhe yang bu hao)
I know this is not good
也知道你的愛只能那麼少 (ye zhi dao ni de ai zhi neng ne me shao)
And I know your love is only this little
我只有不停的要 (wo zhi you bu ting de yao)
I just can't stop
要到你想逃 (yao dao ni xiang tao)
Want till you want to run away
淚濕的枕頭晒乾就好 (lei shi de zhen tou shai gan jiu hao)
(If) the pillow is wet from tears, just dry it and it'll be good
眼淚在你的心裡只是無理取鬧 (yan lei zai ni de xin li zhi shi wu li qu nao)
Tears are irrationally disturbing your heart
以為在你身後 (yin wei zai ni shen hou)
Because being by your side
是我一輩子的驕傲 (shi wo yi bei zi de jiao ao)
is the honour in my life
原來你什麼都不想要 (yuan lai ni shen me dou bu xiang yao)
You actually didn't want anything from me

Chorus:
我不要你的呵護 (wo bu yao ni de a hu)
I don't need your concern
你的玫瑰 (ni de mei gui)
Or your rose
只要你好好久久愛我一遍 (zhi yao ni hao hao jiu jiu ai wo yi bian)
Only want you to love me good and long just once
就算虛榮也好 (jiu suan xu rong ye hao)
Even if(your) vain, that's fine
貪心也好 (tan xin ye hao)
It's also ok if you're greedy
哪個女人對愛不自私不奢望 (na ge niu ren dui ai bu zi si bu she wang)
Which woman isn't selfish or hopeful in love
我不要你的承諾 (wo bu yao ni de cheng nuo)
I don't want your promise
不要你的永遠 (bu yao ni de yong yuan)
Don't want you forever
只要你真真切切愛我一遍 (zhi yao ni zhen zhen qie qie ai wo yi bian)
Only want you to truly and absolutely love me just once
就算虛榮也好 (jiu suan xu rong ye hao)
Even if(you're) vain, that's fine
貪心也好 (tan xin ye hao)
It's ok if you're greedy
最怕你把沉默 (zui pa ni ba chen mo)
I'm only scared you'll use your silence
當做對我的回答 (dang zuo dui wo de hui da)
as your response to me

Verse

Chorus X 2

原來你什麼都不想要 (yuan lai ni shen me dou bu xiang yao)
You actually didn't want anything from me

Taken from: Life in China Forums: Chinese Music

I Wish The Best For You and other songs

2008-03-24T09:15:00.002+08:00

Over the last few days, I have been downloading English songs by the dozen...compared to recently when I would download complete Chinese albums. Most of these English songs are the clubby type but a few of them are really meaningful too. Currently one of my faves is 'I Wish the Best for you' by Emerson Hart, someone who I've never heard of b4. BUt yea, this song is nice.

Emerson Hart - I Wish The Best For You

How long can we wait here
To say goodbye?
The words once they're spoken
Are words that we can't take
Back to where we were, before
Things got in the way
Life gets so confusing
When you know what you're losing

Chorus:
You, Me
Why can't we see that there's
More to love than we'll ever know
Sometimes you're closer when you're
Letting go
I wish the best for you
I wish the best for you

We'll both regret the hurting
That we will do
You'll learn to forget me
And I'll try
I'll try to forget...

Chorus

If you ever need a place that you can run to
I'll be here, I'll be here

Chorus

Lyrics from Top 10 MP3 Download

Other songs that I really like are:
1. Teardrops on my Guitar - Taylor Swift
2. Kukatakan Dengan Indah - Peterpan
3. I Remember - Keyshia Cole
4. Feels Like Tonight - Daughtry
5. Fallin Down - Duran Duran Ft. Justin Timberlake
6. Taking Chances - Celine Dion
7. Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood
8. The Way That I Love You - Ashanti
9. Stripper Friends - Tila Tequila
10. Leavin' - Jesse McCartney
11. Built to Last - Melee
12. 4 Minutes - Madonna Ft. Justin Timberlake

Quite an eclectic mix huh? Couldn't imagine that Duran Duran would be on the list too. Haha! BUt anyway, you can get most of these songs and lyrics from Top 10 MP3 Download

I will forgive and try to forget the pain and hurt that may have been caused, and remember the good times. I sure hope you do too. I really do wish all of you, the very best. Just know that I will be here for you :)

Bored Again, Therefore I Tag

2008-03-17T10:49:00.005+08:00

I'm busy at work now, but felt kinda bored, so just thought I'd do a quick tag for a change of pace.

1. Real name => Andrea Chan SY
2. Nickname => And, Drea, Ah Girl, Lao Pan Niang, Aunty/Grandma (BLEK!)
3. Married => Mrs. Luo Zhi Xiang..I wish!..BUt I would get controlled :P
4. Male or Female => Female..but too much guy influence already
5. Highschool => SMB St. Teresa
6. College => Swinburne University of Technology (Sarawak Campus)
7. Short or long hair => Long, around shoulders
8. Are you a health freak => Trying to be more healthy in terms of eating and exercise
9.Height => 152cm +
10. Do you have a crush on someone => Yes..Xiao Zhu!..Hehehe.
11. Do you like yourself => 85% of the time..there are times when I dislike myself for what I've done etc...so u can say i'm no narcissist
12. Piercings => one in each ear
13. Righty or Lefty => Right-handed lo

FIRST'S
14. First surgery => To stitch up my wounds from a bad fall. Other than that..only if necessary. If plastic, then only to fix my flat nose bridge
15. First piercing(s) => for my ears, around 8 yrs old i think!
16. First person you see in the morning => myself..in the mirror
17. First award => milk drinking competition against my lil bro..ahaha
18. First sport you joined => er...running in kindy gua....or else swimming
19. First pet => rabbit i think
20. First vacation => KL i think!
21. First concert => Leo Ku in KL, 23rd Dec 2007 (if u don't count sch concerts to perform in and etc...)
22. First crush => in kindy..most of the class girls had a crush on him but he was my line-up partner (due to height) so we had to hold hands etc..eheheh...ah...kids

CURRENTLY
23. Eating => Half a biscuit earlier
24. Drinking => Milo
25. I'm about to => continue on my lighting designs..the list of projects to do seems to keep growing :(

YOUR FUTURE
26. Want kids => Max 3, but 1 boy 1 girl is good enuff
27. Want to get married => yea...sure..but..not anytime soon lo
28. Careers in mind => Something not so technical, like my current job..but i want to move up lo

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
29. Lips or eyes => I'd notice eyes first, but sometimes lips can really stand out. For example, Angelina Jolie..so it depends. But mostly eyes lo. Window to the soul ma..ahah
30. Hugs or kisses => Most girls would prefer hugs coz of the secure feeling they get. But kisses are good too...just different feeling. Both mean that you're loved :)
31. Shorter or taller => Since I'm considered short..of coz prefer taller la
32. Romantic or spontaneous => A good mix of both...i prefer to plan my stuff out, but its good if can be spontaneous at times...romantic enough..not too mushy laaa..
33. Sensitive or loud => Loud when need to liven things up, but sensitive when i'm moody gua...
34. Trouble maker or hesitant => Every1 who knows me knows that i prefer bad boys..as in..get up to more crazy stuff..as long not criminal stuff..or fights etc...cannot be too hesitant..esp in making decisions

HAVE YOU EVER
35. Kissed a stranger => err..nope...kissed by acquaintance..then yes la
36. Drank bubbles => u mean champagne?...nope
37. Lost glasses/contacts => i don't have..therefore no
38. Ran away from home => Thought of it, started packing for it, but didn't
39. Liked someone younger => Yea...i think twice, but not too serious
40. Liked someone older => i mostly like older guys..so yes
41. Broken someone's heart => Er...quite often..sad to say...but not always that serious i think (i hope!)
42. Been arrested => No and don't plan to be
43. Cried when someone died => Definitely..it's only human
44. Liked a friend => OMG..this happens all the time..coz i don't really go for the 'love at 1st sight' thing...n guys don't fall for me like tat too. Seriously it's hard for guys n girls to be friends without some feelings developing

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
45. Yourself => 90% of the time
46. Miracles => Its good to do so
47. Heaven => Yea...something to aim for in life...
48. Santa claus => Nope, but its a nice idea
49. Angels => WHy not, I think I have them physically by my side and also the invisible ones

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*
50. Is there one person you want to be with right now => I have feelings for ppl, but I don't think I'm ready for anything now. If it's Xiao Zhu, ok, sign me up!..ahah coz he won't be here all the time
51. Do you believe in God => Yes
52. Tag 5 people => Serena, Mike, Linda, Mark, Vicky

Busy Month of Work and FOOD

2008-02-29T15:27:00.009+08:00

I JUST had to update today, after all, this day only comes once every 4 years right? Hehe, guess if u always check my blog, u must b surprised at the rate i'm updating this month. It always seems that the more busy I am, the more I blog. Must be how I release stress or something. Or that I just had to blog about how I'm feeling etc. But I'm really backlogged with posts, I have a list of things to blog about and I'm forcing myself to post based on the time sequence instead of jumbling everything up. Call me perfectionist but yea, I think it'll b less confusing for me when i come back and read my old posts.

Anyway, this will just be a quick update on what I've been busy with this whole month so far. It's been pretty hectic, since it's such a short month and then you include CNY into it. So let's see, I went back to Kuching on the 6th till the 10th for CNY which I really enjoyed. It was all that I was expecting and a little bit more. I'll blog on that later. Then went back to work on the 11th :( but most ppl in the office were still on leave, so it was pretty quiet too. There were also fewer cars on the road, guess a lot of ppl in KL basically took longer leave since CNY was close to a weekend. Oh and Valentine's Day here was pretty quiet. I think I saw that only the receptionist received roses. This year, I treated myself to some books and dinner at Chili's. Hehe...which was pretty ok too. Of coz, I did all this on the 15th of Feb, instead of the day itself, so as not to get ripped off by the exorbitant prices. :)

The company organized a CNY lunch with the customers of lighting department on the 18th of Feb, at Oriental Pavilion, Jaya 33. Each table cost about RM1000 and had some pretty good stuff. Shark's fin soup (where u could see actual PIECES of fin), cod fish, yee sang (total of 4 for me this year, hopefully it will pay off!), suckling pig, roast chicken and more. I must say, most of us went back to the office around 3 something feeling rather full and sleepy :P. And that night, there was a testing and commissioning of a project in KL, near Sogo. Basically we had to adjust the angle of the lights to get the required effect on the facade of the building. So I got to learn how the changing of the angles appear in real life, as well as the colour difference of the lamps. We reached the place around 7 something and finished at around 9, which is considered early..a lot of times they tend to finish at around 12 -_-.

I had to go for the Project Dealer's training from the 19th to 20th at Boulevard Hotel, Mid Valley. 1st day was mostly about the lighting products, including the newly acquired LED lights and I admit, I kept falling asleep! This is actually pretty common for me, I tend to feel drowsy during this type of trainings/meetings, unless we have to do some practical work. I must make sure I sleep earlier on the nights before any meetings/trainings. It's not good to continue this!! But the next day, I didn't have any time to sleep as I had to help my supervisor with the training. The project dealers, as well as our own sales engineers were taught how to use the software we use to do lighting calculations. They had to try out some simple examples and the other 3 of us designers were assigned a group to take care of. So yeah, I had to answer their questions and I did feel worried if I was up to it. Luckily, it went pretty ok.

In the afternoon, they were divided into smaller groups to try designing the lighting for a cafe and presenting it to everyone about the concept, lighting fixtures used and calculations. Since I wasn't in a group, I just thought I'd give it a try and see how I would do. I ended up having to present last as my supervisor thought it'll be good to show them what I did, since I'm considered to be more experienced than most of the other participants. After presenting, there was this silence in the room, till my supervisor asked them to ask me questions. To which they asked me to demonstrate how I did cove lighting, explain about the lighting etc. -_-|| Luckily i could answer! But the main thing was that we were very well fed over the 2 days of training. Breakfast and 2 tea breaks were quite ok, but the lunches *phew*. 1st day was buffet lunch where I really did try to eat more veg...and 2nd day was set lunch where there was salmon and lamb!...wow..I think I grew fatter in that week alone.

Main Course of Set Lunch: Salmon & Lamb (L-R)

I think I gained even more in the next week as a few of us were assigned to do a lighting audit at a 5-star hotel in KL for 2 days. 14 of us were divided into groups to audit the different areas, which was pretty interesting. My group got to go to the pastry kitchen where we saw them baking, decorating cookies and cakes, and making chocolate!! Oh the temptation...but we didn't get to try anything though. There was even a sausage making room, ehhe. But we also had to audit the rubbish compacting room :( Overall, I think our group was pretty lucky since we didn't have too hard areas. Other groups ended up with the huge basement car parks. Since my task was to count the lamps according to type, i would have really suffered in the car park, since there are so many! On the 1st day we started late as they were discussing the methods to audit, so I had late breakfast with 2 of the male sales engineers, which was on the senior one (Thx D!). I had a HUGE chocolate croissant, which they doubted I could finish, but I did! Heh.

And not long later, we had lunch...which was buffet! This is considered 1 of the best buffets in KL and it costs about RM100 per pax. OMG...I was like in heaven when I saw the spread. The buffet was divided into different areas by type of food. There was loads of fresh seafood like oysters, mussels, crabs, prawns, sashimi and sushi in the front. Then, there was the Chinese area complete with dimsum, porridge and get this..duck's tongue..EWWW. The Indian/Malay food area, Western roasts area and so on. But the area which I really really went weak for was the dessert area! My eyes literally brightened and I started noting down mentally which desserts I wanted.

Here's my only plate of mains, the meat was too tough tho :P

Though the food was pretty good, I made sure I saved up space for those yummy desserts. There was this counter with a see-thru panel where spoons were stuck through, and these spoons were holding little fruit pastries. I took like 2 of them and I wasn't sure if I had to take the spoon together with the pastries, but I think I did. Hehe. There were lots of yummy-looking cakes and also their own ice-cream, but I stuck with just the choc/fruit/cheese cakes. They also had quite a big selection of their handmade chocolates and even a chocolate pizza...WHOAAA. And finally, I went for the ultimate...the chocolate fountain! After all, it was my 1st time actually dealing with a chocolate fountain on my own. So I chose some fruits and marshmallows to dip under the glistening waterfall (imagine a mini version of the choc waterfall in Charlie & THe Choc Factory). After they were thoroughly covered with melted chocolate, I sprinkled them alternately with chopped nuts, raisins and sprinkles. Surprisingly it wasn't too sweet, but just nice. Later I found out that they use dark chocolate, which is my fave! THat was seriously the best buffet I've ever had, pretty much worth the RM100. I would go just for the desserts ok! So, I think I will go back just for their hi-tea, which I'm sure will have EVEN MORE DESSERTS! Did I make anyone drool yet?

Yummy Chocolates! (taken from sheryl0202.blogspot.com)

Chocolate Fountain! *drool* (taken from sheryl0202.blogspot.com)

The next day, we had lunch at the chinese restaurant there, where they ordered lots of interesting stuff. One of which to note was duck with kiwi instead of the usual orange duck etc. It was slightly sour and tart, when I expected it to be sweet. This went down really well with the guys at my table who ordered another plate. But my fave was the scallops dish! They sort of made nuggets out of whole scallops with eggs, water chestnut (i think) and stir-fried with a sauce. Those scallops were really really sweet and fresh and I had 2. There was a platter of mixed roast pork, a plate of mostly roast chicken skin and so on. I was the only girl at my table and they kinda treated and called me a princess *blush*. I felt so paiseh, coz they always made me take 1st. BUt yeah, I could keep up with their appetites..eheheh. It was an incredibly expensive lunch..2 tables of 14 ppl...the bill came up to over RM1000 -_-. Turns out the scallops dish was one of the more exp ones..eheh..but hey..they ordered it..i just eat ;)

We also had this meeting/training for our new lighting concept on the 28th, where I had to give a presentation about some project examples. My 1st time presenting at the company so I was kinda worried but yea, it turned out ok. And they ordered Domino's Pizza and KFC for lunch! Good grief, talk about fattening me up huh? Well, it was my first time trying Domino's which is pretty good, I think better than Pizza Hut, but not as good as Romeo's at Centrepoint. I think I had like 2 slices of pizza, 2 chicken wing parts and 1 KFC piece, not sure what part it was. The next day, I went with some female colleagues to this restaurant at Bangsar. Our company is organizing a function there in April, so they had to coordinate on the food details while I was there to do measurements of the features we planned to light up with our new products. What they didn't tell me was that they planned to have lunch there 1st. So yes, more fattening up with pasta and worse..they ordered dessert, which was much nicer than the pasta. Warm chocolate cake with a molten center and some pancakes with fruits, ice-cream (strangely, with sweet olives!). It was also my 1st time going around measuring things with a measuring tape and I nearly fell backwards down the stairs while measuring how high they were -_-.

In addition to all this, my brother was in KL from the 19th to the 27th and of coz, we brought him to all the good food places like Pangkor Seafood for our fave lala, Jake's for the steaks, Rakuzen for Japanese and so on. So yes, I think I definitely gained weight and I can feel that my pants have gotten a bit tighter. Even though we did work after eating..but still. Damm..after all that effort to eat healthy and maintain my weight! I was so happy when I found that my pants were looser just b4 CNY.....!! So in March onwards, I must control my food intake!....BUt it will be hard when I have cupboards with my stash of CNY food -_-......Pls don't tempt me too much ok?....Esp with desserts..they're my weakness :P

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2008-02-29T10:19:00.007+08:00

This is kinda a continuation of my previous post on my strange feelings about one of my best friends changing jobs/moving. In the days following that post, I've been thinking a lot about it. And I've come to think that, though we may be in the same city, it doesn't necessarily mean that we are free to meet up too and all tat. Like CY and Hui, they're both still in Kuching, but bcoz they're both busy with work and new colleagues/friends, they rarely meet up too. What more to say the rest of us who are scattered over West Malaysia, or the rest of the world? But of coz, I know that when we do meet up, we're still the same as ever.

I've also started thinking about certain friends and how they seem to treat me. Like u know sometimes, u'd get phone calls from ppl who want something like assignments, projects, books, answers etc? And other times, you don't hear from them at all? That kinda happened to me few days ago. Normally, I'd be more than happy to help out my friends, especially this friend who I've always helped out. But I guess bcoz I was always willing to help out, this friend kinda took it for granted. So there was no 'Please' or 'Thanks', but more of 'commands'. And I felt a bit pissed, but I did tell this friend in the end, to which they kinda joked it off by way of explanation/apology. Somehow, I know this friend is kinda like this, as in tend to 'use' ppl but I also know that we are still friends, just that maybe the tone of their 'command' sms sounds too much like commands.

Thinking it through, I guess this is actually normal for people to 'use' each other. I mean, how often do u call some1 up just to talk about nth at all? There is always a reason to call up ur friend, whether to ask them out, ask for something/help/advice etc. I think a major reason for this is that we're all so busy with our own lives (or it seems so anyway!), that we don't have the time to just call up our friends to chat aimlessly. There is always something we want out of it, not that it's always for materialistic stuff. It can be for support, advice and etc. So yeah, I guess it's normal for this friend to call me up and ask me for help with documents. I've always gotten requests for help with documentation...they say it's due to my English? I should feel honored that there's something for ppl to refer to me....after all, I always feel so lousy in other stuff. Oh, and also event management...lol..

In a way, if someone calls u up for some purpose, there's one good thing. At least they think highly of u in that aspect...and in some cases, at least they're thinking of u! For me, if I don't think highly of them or feel that they're not up to 'standard', I definitely won't even think of calling them for anything. Unless i absolutely have to! And another thing that I kinda came to a conclusion about is....that it doesn't really matter what ppl do to u. The most important thing is how we feel about ourselves. It is up to us what makes us happy and what doesn't. And I think it's really pointless to care about what others say, bcoz u can never please every1. So, I am trying to think in this way. As long as I've done my part as a friend, I won't think too much about how my friend treats me/returns the favour. My conscience will at least be clean. My happiness should not have to depend on any 1 person or people. I should be able to make myself happy first.

But I'm definitely not denying the power of friendship. My caring for friends is kinda what led to me to think about all this stuff. If I didn't care so much about them leaving/moving or the way they treat me, I wouldn't analyse this into detail. You know, ever since I watched Friends, the series...I've always wished that I could have that. One day, live with a bunch of friends and going through the best part of our lives together. But I also realise that it's fairly impossible. People come and go all the time, off to uni/work/married. Old friends drift apart, you meet new ones and so on. And like in the series, they themselves change too. Relationships change over time, from friends, to being a couple...then back to friends. I can honestly say, it is really RARE for a guy and girl to just be friends. Most of the time, feelings will develop, mayb on 1 side, or both, and it can go 4 ways.

1. They don't end up together, but their friendship becomes stronger.
2. They don't end up together, but things bcome weird between them and there goes the friendship.
3. They can be togheter, but if they breakup, things might be weird.
4. They can be together, and after breaking up, they're still good friends.

Trust me, I've been through all 4 of them, lol. But I have a lot of good friends so far, so I'm really glad to have met all of them. There are a few groups of them, like the 1st batch would be the Lodgians (all you Point 3's!) and of coz the Gathering Gals! Then, we have G4 (stands for Gay 4, ahah!) from Swinburne....I am the only girl, so yea, I think that's where the whole Princess thing came about. But they rarely treat me like a Princess....they bully me! And of coz, I've learnt to bully them back. Then there's JAMS, where MIchael is the only guy and was our brother. Last but not least, it's the Mahjong/Monopoly/clubbing kakis! Though I only got to know them better for the last 1 year, they were the ones that I really wished to have the FRIENDS experience with.

Part of the Gathering Gals and Point 3 ppl :)

The incomplete G4: Chiet, me, Yi Chan, Stephen (Thong Wei's missing)

JAMS: Jenny, Mike, me and Serena

Mahjong/Monopoly/clubbing kakis: CY, Henry and Siaw Hui

Though I know that most likely, i will not be able to have the FRIENDS thing with any of these groups, because we're all in different places/jobs/situations....I still adore and miss all of you. Though we may drift apart, and stop keeping in touch so frequently (this ALWAYS happens...coz we're busy/lazy/forgetful etc)...I know that when we do keep in touch, or meet up...we will still have that camaderie, all the crazy teasings and fun/silly stuff we always get up to.

So yes, I am feeling better about myself, and the position I'm in. I can now say, I'm proud of my friends, what they've achieved. And I wish everyone the very best in their future undertakings. You'll always have a supporter in me. I do hope you guys feel the same way about me too :) But if you don't, that's ok. I'll still support myself! After all, its better to love someone without any expectations of them loving you back....it's the most painful, but sincerest type of love. Hmm..somehow this isn't coming out the way I'm thinking. Must b too tired....hehe..Muakz

擦肩而過 (Ca Jian Er Guo / A Brief Encounter) by Sam Lee Shen Jie

2008-02-24T22:14:00.006+08:00

Currently, I'm really addicted to this song by Lee Shen Jie. It's a sad song but yeah, don't know why. GUess I miss karaoke? And maybe it kinda suits me now. Hmm.

李圣杰 - 擦肩而過 (Ca Jian Er Guo / A Brief Encounter)

我愛著誰　愛到我有點醉 (wo ai zhe shei, ai dao wo you dian zhui)
I've loved someone, loved until I was a little drunk
告訴我你是誰　能夠把我讓我變不對 (gao su wo ni shi shei, neng gou ba wo rang wo bian bu dui)
Tell me who you are, to be able to make me become so unusual
你不會累　但我卻愛你愛到好累 (ni bu hui lei, dan wo que ai ni ai dao hao lei)
You're not tired, yet I've loved you to the point of exhaustion
從沒有為了誰　不顧安危付出一切 (cong mei you wei le shei, bu gu an wei fu chu yi qie)
I've never risked my own safety and sacrificed my all for anybody
站在這平衡點　我還是覺得有點危險 (zhan zai zhe ping heng dian, wo hai shi jue de you dian wei xian)
I'm standing at the equilibrium point, but I still feel it's a little dangerous
或許是看不見　只能夠靠感覺 (huo xu shi kan bu jian, zhi neng gou kao gan jue)
Maybe it's because I can't see and can only use my intuition/feelings

CHORUS:
他不會是個好男人　也不會是個好情人 (ta bu hui shi ge hao nan ren, ye bu hui shi ge hao qing ren)
He's not a good man, and is not a good lover either
你對我說　我們只是擦肩而過 (ni dui wo shuo, wo men zhi shi ca jian er guo)
To me, we are just two people who had a brief encounter
好的男人有那麼多　少了他的日子也能過 (hao de nan ren you na me duo, shao le ta de ri zi ye neng guo)
There are so many good men out there; without him, life will still go on
我不會再讓你寂寞　也不會讓你更難過 (wo bu hui zai rang ni ji mo, ye bu hui rang ni geng nan guo)
I will no longer make you feel lonely, and I won't let you feel more hurt
你聽我說　要好好學著去生活 (ni ting wo shuo, yao hao hao xue zhe qu sheng huo)
Listen to me, you must learn how to live well
就算未來有多少錯　至少還有我的問候　我的溫柔陪你渡過 (jiu suan wei lai you duo shao cuo, zhi shao hai you wo de wen hou, wo de wen rou pei ni du guo)
Even if the future has many wrongs, at least you'll have my greeting and my warmth, accompanying you through the days

你聽我說　你不要這麼做 (ni ting wo shuo, ni bu yao zhe me zuo)
Listen to me, you shouldn't do this
你不要看著我　說你已經知道怎麼做 (ni bu yao kan zhe wo shuo ni yi jing zhi dao zen me zuo)
Don't look at me and say you already know what you should do
你很難受　我願意陪你一起承受 (ni hen nan shou, wo yuan yi pei ni yi qi cheng shou)
You feel pain, and I'm willing to bear the pain with you
只要你不怕痛　再多坎坷我都陪你走 (zhi yao ni bu pa tong zai duo kan ke wo dou pei ni zou)
As long as you're not afraid to get hurt, I'll walk with you no matter how many bumpy roads there are
站在這平衡點　我還是覺得有點危險 (zhan zai zhe ping heng dian wo hai shi jue de you dian wei xian)
I'm standing at the equilibrium point, but I still feel it's a little dangerous
或許是看不見　只能夠靠感覺 (huo xu shi kan bu jian, zhi neng gou kao gan jue)
Maybe it's because I can't see and can only use my intuition/feelings

CHORUS x 2

Taken from: http://www.jay-chou.net/forums/archive/index.php/t-276663.html

This Strange Feeling

2008-02-21T08:04:00.012+08:00

I'm feeling kinda weird now. I just got an sms from 1 of my best friends...that they finally got their dream job. Normally, I'd be very happy to hear of a friend's success/happy event but this time.....Like just the other day, I received VERY BIG news from 2 of my friends about something happy. And I got all excited for them, maybe even more excited than they were. I was just so happy then. But now maybe, it's bcoz it's been so set in my mind that they're already settled in this particular job, this location, that things won't change already. Like, it's confirmed in my mind that these friends are in Kuching, these friends are in KL, and these others are in other parts of Malaysia and the world. Or maybe it's bcoz it's one of my closer friends who I just got to know much better in the past year and I really care a lot about every 1 of them. That they're getting further and further from me. At first, it wasn't that far away, but now it seems that the distance has grown even more. Physical distance of course, emotional distance is still ok. We're all still in touch and talking on the phone/MSN..

I think I'm kinda in shock now. There I was, just checking my company email then I hear this familiar ringtone (I set specific ringtones for each of my closest friends), which I havent heard in awhile. Reading their SMS..i could feel my mood drastically change from quietly contented but tired to quietly contemplative and slightly sad. I actually can feel my heart sinking and my brain getting muddled as I'm trying to sort out my feelings here. Maybe I'm not as adaptive to change as I thought I was. Coz this change kinda affects me in a sense. Our original plans were that we could meet up for holidays every once in awhile, you know 'Cuti-Cuti Malaysia' and all that. But with this move, there would be one kaki short. It may not seem like a big deal, but for us, each of us contributes a different factor to the whole group. And if one is missing, it's different. Some of these friends are more influential than others too, as in the amount of craziness/fun/ideas/capability they contribute.

I know, I really should be happy for them. But it's kinda hard now. I'm gonna miss them. After my trip back to Kch for CNY, I felt really happy to have been able to meet up with everyone. I could feel myself smiling widely everyday while in Kuching, bcoz you guys just made my day. But once I went into the airport, I was like..oh crap, I'm gonna leave again. KL has lots of things to do, but I enjoy spending time with my friends more. Even if we just sit around watching tv together, or chatting about nth in particular, that's more fun to me. And it means a lot more. I guess the bad part about going back, is that once I got back to KL, I missed everyone even more. It seems like such a long time till April. And I wonder when I would be able to see some of you, especially the ones not in Kuching, since it's not like CNY where we all come back. Now I really want that year-end trip even more. Even if it's 9 mths away, at least if it's confirmed, it's something for me to look forward to. Quality time with quality ppl.

I miss you guys. And I'll miss you till I see you. But I'll miss you even more after I see you. Haiz.

Anyway, Happy Chap Goh Mei!

Anticipated Movies of 2008

2008-02-17T21:37:00.017+08:00

It's been ages since I last blogged about movies, but since this year promises to have loads of cool movies, I thought it would be appropriate. So here's the list of movies in 2008 that I'm looking forward to, and why, in the order of their release dates.

1. Kung Fu Dunk: Now Showing
Starring Jay Chou, Chen Bo-Lin, Charlene Choi and Eric Tsang, this is one of the 2 big CNY movies for this year. Originally supposed to be based on the manga 'Slam Dunk', it got changed to be a mix of basketball and kung-fu. Apparently Jay makes a breakthrough and is a more comical type of character in this movie, so I'm kinda looking forward to checking it out. Some reviews I've read are that it's better than the other CNY movie, Stephen Chow's CJ7, so I'd definitely want to compare them. But I'm not loving Jay's hairstyle in this movie though, luckily it's just a wig!

Jay and Charlene with their silly hairstyles

2. CJ7: Now Showing
THis is probably the other Chinese blockbuster movie of the year, as it's been awhile since Stephen Chow's last movie. It opened the same day as Kung Fu Dunk and was No.1 at the box office in Malaysia. However on my last check, the ratings were slightly lower than that of Kung Fu Dunk. THis is probably bcoz it's not exactly in the vein of Stephen's famous 'mo lei tau' brand of comedy. It's a more family oriented type of movie and he aims to make the viewers cry. And I bet most ppl didn't know that the little boy is actually a girl, who is now Stephen's god-daughter. Lucky girl huh? Lol, heard from a friend that his bro-in-law fell asleep during this movie, so wonder how it is. Will probably catch this one on DVD.

The 3 main characters of CJ7

3. Jumper: Now Showing
Supposedly the 1st of a trilogy, this stars Hayden Christensen (young Darth Vader), Jamie Bell, Rachel Bilson and Samuel L. Jackson. It's about this guy who has the ability to jump/teleport himself from place to place on will. He kinda abuses his power as he helps himself to money from vaults, relaxes on top of the Sphinx etc. But as in the vein of all superhero type movies, with great power comes great responsibility, so there's actually this group of paladins who hunt down jumpers like him. Why? Because this power is too great for normal humans to have. Read some bad reviews of it, so will catch this on DVD or online, simply because it sounds interesting. The stunts and effects are supposedly good though.

Doesn't this pic make u wanna travel the world?

4. L: Change the World: Release date - 21st Feb
This is a spin-off for L from the Death Note manga/movies. I guess bcoz it was so successful, they wanted to milk more from it, and L is pretty much the mysterious character with not much background revealed in the manga/movie, compared to Light/Kira. Apparently, it's about his final 23 days after he wrote his name in the Death Note and he has to save ppl from some virus. Initial reviews weren't that good but at least it's still the same actor portraying him. I actually didn't know about this movie till I saw the poster in a magazine.

The characters of L: Change the World

5. 27 Dresses: Release date - 28th Feb
This is pretty much a romantic comedy, so mostly for girls. It stars Katharine Heigl (of Grey's Anatomy fame) and James Marsden (Cyclops of X-Men). Katharine plays this girl who has been a bridesmaid 27 times. U know the saying, '3 times a bridesmaid, never a bride'? Well, this is an extreme version. The reason is probably that she's too involved in other ppl's love life that she doesn't really do anything about herself. SOunds interesting and yea, I kinda want to see how James Marsden is in this movie, compared to how his character fared in Enchanted. Well, I am a sucker for rom-coms too.

James Marsden and Katherine Heigl having a candid moment

6. The Spiderwick Chronicles: Release date - 14th Feb (in US)
Yet another movie adapted from a book/series of books. This one is from the 1st of a series of 5 books and is pretty similar to that of Narnia/Harry Potter in the sense that it involves children getting into a fantastical world. Freddie Highmore plays twins in this movie and starts off as pretty much a brat who doesn't follow the rules in this book he finds. Thus, he gets hunted by the creatures i think. I havent read the books yet, coz they're pretty pricey. But it looks good so far and I heard the ending is good. Apparently better than Golden Compass but not up to LOTR standard.

Freddie Highmore and a faerie

7. Speed Racer: Release date - 9th May
The big screen adaptation of our childhood cartoon, this stars Emile Hirsch as the main character, and includes Christina Ricci as his gf, Susan Sarandon and John Goodman as his parents and Matthew Fox (of Lost fame) as Racer X. So some pretty heavy starpower! Most of it was shot against green screen, so it should look pretty cool, especially since the directors, the Wachowski brothers (directed the Matrix trilogy) wanted a real-life anime feeling to it.

Here's the actor playing Speed Racer

8. The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian: Release date - 15th May
This is actually the 2nd book in the series but story-wise, it comes after The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. The 4 Penvensie children from the 1st movie return to Narnia to find that it's been 1000 years since they left (time passes much faster there u see). THey now need to help Prince Caspian (played by Ben Barnes, pretty much a newcomer but hot) to reclaim the throne from his evil uncle. Kinda familiar story huh? But yea, the trailer looks pretty cool and c'mon, it's a big fantasy movie. Just the type I like though I did complain that the battles weren't realistic coz there was no bloodshed at all. What to do, it's a kid's movie.

9. Indiana Jones & The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull: Release date: 22nd May
I just saw the trailer and it brings back nostalgic memories. They intentionally filmed it in the style of the previous 3 movies and used very little CGI so that it would seem more realistic. Even Indy himself admits that he's getting old and makes mistakes, which makes him more human. It's supposed to b 19 yrs since his last adventure and he now has a new sidekick, Mutt (played by Shia LeBeouf, who's now hot property after Transformers). Cate BLanchett plays a baddie, so at least they've added some new blood, which helpfully are currently hot. BUt with Steven Spielberg and George Lucas involved, it should be a huge movie this summer! Check out the trailer.

10. The Incredible Hulk: Release date - 13th June
Edward Norton is the new Hulk and he wasn't exactly the type I'd imagine, but yea Dr. Bruce Banner was pretty shy looking type right? And I guess guys would look forward to the movie just to ogle at Liv Tyler too. I wasn't a big Hulk fan, but I do usually want to check out the big blockbusters.

Teaser poster for The Incredible Hulk

11. Hellboy 2: The Golden Army: Release date - 10th July
Hellboy returns, with his gf, the blue-fire starting Liz, and Abe Sapien. There's lots more monsters and less of the old historical baddies from the 1st movie. The original's director returns, so it should be pretty consistent with the 1st, which wasn't all that bad. So yea, yet another summer blockbuster to look forward to. C'mon...more monster ass to kick..that should be good, right?

First look at the good guys

12. The Dark Knight: Release date - 15th July
Christian Bale returns as Batman and Maggie Gyllenhaal (sister of that Jake of Brokeback Mountain fame) replaces Katie Holmes as the love interest. There are 2 confirmed baddies, namely the Joker and Harvey Dent, who eventually turns into 2-Face. Another returning baddie from Batman Returns, the Sandman also appears. Plus there's also a cameo by Edison Chen (now infamous for his sex pics with MANY HK actresses/singers) as a yet unknown baddie. Wow, so many baddies and just one superhero? Awesome! But the 2 main baddies kinda reminds me of Batman Forever, coz they were in it too. HOwever, the main pull to this movie is that it was pretty much the final complete role of Heath Ledger (Rest in Peace!), who plays the diabolical Joker. From the trailer, you can see just how demented and evil he is, compared to the Joker as played by Jack Nicholson who seemed more jolly. So it'll be kinda ironic for audiences to watch the movie, as they'll sort of associate the role with what actually happened.

13. The Mummy 3: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor: Release date - 24th July
Brendan Fraser returns as Rick O'Connell to help save the world from a new mummy, an ancient Chinese wizard, accidentally awakened by Rick's now teenaged son. Jet Li stars as the new baddie and our very own Datuk Michelle Yeoh's in it too. Rachel Weisz doesn't return as Evie so that kinda sucks coz I tot they were a hot couple. I don't know about this movie, coz the 1st 2 were obviously B-grade movies on purpose, but somehow this doesn't really appeal to me as much as before. But yea, I'd still like to see how they incorporate the whole Chinese element in and change it up from the Egyptian style. But at least it'll still be funny, one way or another...I hope!

Jet Li kicking butt (as usual) as a Chinese mummy (doesn't look like it)

14. Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince: Release date - 20th November
The 6th in the series and gets even darker than the 5th movie. Harry gets a hold of this old Potions book and with its tips, begins to do well in his potions class. Lucky for him, Snape no longer teaches potions but Defense against the Dark Arts. But Lord Voldemort's strength is growing and he's recruiting more and more members so things are getting worse in the magical world. Harry's also learning more about how Lord Voldemort changed from a boy till his evil 'reign'. If you've read the book, you'll know how it ends, so I'm really curious as to how they'll show the ending. It's a really big deal so they better do it well.

The now all-grown up cast of Harry Potter

15. X-Men Origins: Wolverine : Release date - TBA
It's currently filming in New Zealand and is expected to set place in Japan and Canada, as per the comic's origins. They will explain more about Wolverine's past and will apparently show him fighting ninjas and more. Wolverine will be even more of a badass than ever and Sabretooth, among others will show up. SOunds damm cool and yes, more of Hugh Jackman pls!

Whoa, check out the muscles!

So yea, this looks like a great year for movies, just like the previous 2 years. See you at the movies!

Note: Info and pics of the above movies have been taken from Cinema Online magazine, Rotten Tomatoes website, Wikipedia and various blogs and sites.

Working & Life in KL

2008-02-15T08:44:00.009+08:00

That's right, you read correctly. I am currently working and living in KL. But I'm kind of getting ahead of myself. The whole story actually started directly after my final exam in Swinburne, Advanced Digital Signal Processing, which was on the 29th of November 2007. Hmm, I remember the date so clearly, probably bcoz it was really a significant day in my life, since it would most likely be the final exam in my school life! Plus for personal reasons too.

I came out from the exam hall to find out that I'd received several phone calls from an unknown KL number. I figured it was from one of the many companies that I'd applied to. I actually started applying for jobs 1 or 2 weeks earlier and there were quite a few, so I had no idea which company it was. I called back to find that it was Sony! They were asking me to go for an interview for either the post of Design Engineer or Engineer under the Management Trainee Program on the following Wednesday, to which I said I had to confirm since I needed to fly there. So finally I did go and there were 5 other ppl to be interviewed. But first we had to take 3 tests which I initially worried about till I called up to ask. The first was an IQ test which sad to say, I only managed to answer 15 out of 25 in the given 20 minutes. Luckily I finished both the Maths and English tests.

After lunch, I went for the interview with another guy, where there were 3 interviewers, 2 of whom were Japanese guys and a local lady. Halfway through the interview, we were given a C programming test with 2 questions. 1st was to write the result of the program and 2nd to correct the coding. I ended up correcting and changing almost the whole code and I still have no idea whether it worked! So i pretty much thought I'd screwed things up for my very 1st job interview. I did ok for the rest of the interview I think, but heck since the Design Engineer post was purely programming, I thought sure no chance. So after the interview, I took a taxi to KLCC to walk around while waiting for my uncle to get off from work so he could send me to LCCT for my flight home. Who knows, I received a phone call from Sony then, asking me to come back next Tuesday for a 2nd job interview. What the heck, another trip! By then I was considering whether I should go back for the interview, since it would mean another plane trip and did I really want a programming job?

Tuesday rolled around to find me in KL once again and taking a taxi to Sony in Bangi, which is about 45 mins away from Taman Tun Dr. Ismail (near 1 Utama) where my uncle stays. BUt this 2nd interview was pretty much a waste of my time! It was still the same 2 Japanese guys and they pretty much repeated the same questions for me n the previous guy from the 1st interview. I was like, I spent RM500+ to fly here and get asked the same questions? I should have just turned the job down. But heck, at that time, I didn't have any other offers though my parents kept telling me there was no need to rush n I should b patient. And it was Sony, a big multi-national company. But still, I was hesitant to accept because it was so far away, and it was programming!

Anyway, this turned out to be only the 1st of quite a few offers. After that, I got an interview with GES in Johor. Initially it was supposed to b directly after the Sony 2nd interview but it was just too rushed. So I flew from Kuching to Johor on the 16th of Dec just for the interview on the 17th for the post of Project Engineer. The guy brought me around the factory where they make point-of-sale computers and told me what I had to do. Basically I would be making sure the process line is going smoothly, that the product is ok from start to end, which means that it's more of a project management type of job which I liked. And after the interview, I was supposed to meet the big boss but since he was in a meeting, the interviewer just showed him my resume and explained about it. Well...I got the job. I guess partly coz he did ask if I had any other offers and I told him about Sony. However, the problem with this job was that it's in Johor and my family doesn't think it's too safe for me. Besides that, the pay was lower than that of Sony, though I would enjoy the job better.

After a long delay at Johor Airport where I reached Kuching at around 1am, I still couldn't relax. I flew back to KL on the evening of the 18th of Dec for yet another round of job interviews! I guess I shouldn't have been worried so fast then. I had a session for Maxis Graduate Trainee Program on the 19th, an interview for Solutions Manager post with Alcatel on the 21st (though it was a public holiday!) and another with Industronics on the 26th.

Up till now, the Maxis job was the best in terms of benefits and pay. After including allowances and etc, you could get up to RM4k++, and they expect u to be a manager after 5 yrs! Anyway, the session was a whole day. In the morning, we had written tests, starting with IQ, English comprehension, and something like maths/english. We also had to write a short essay on 'Where/how I see myself in 10 years?'. The afternoon session was group dynamics where we were given this Tinker Toys 'sculpture' and 1 of us could observe it for 1 minute b4 returning to the team to describe to them how to build it. I ended up going to observe it the most since they said I could remember the most. :P for once I can remember stuff huh? But I guess I may have come across a bit too arrogant and strong/stubborn as I didn't make it through, and some others who I thought were pretty good but not as 'outspoken' as me got through the 2nd round. Anyway, all of them had better results and came from more famous unis than I did. I only got into the 1st round due to my uncle's connections :P. But yea, a lot of them thought I got through. Ouch, adding salt to my wound unintentionally, coz I really wanted this job, which was 1 year training first.

The next job interview was then with Alcatel-Lucent for the post of Solutions Manager. Sounds fancy huh? Well..the successful candidates would end up working in Melbourne for at least 2 yrs! It was a public holiday but I still went for the interview, coz it should seem that I'm keen enough on the job ;) They were pretty impressed by my FYP (thanks guys!) and they said the only problem they could see with me was my lack of work experience. But hey, they never stated the minimum experience in their job advertisement so I just tried my luck. Henry said I was so daring when he saw the advert and the job title. Lol but who knew that they would actually call me? I was also keen on the job coz it would be in Melbourne (good opportunity) and the post itself. I'm pretty sure the pay would have been pretty good.

Because of the last job interview on the 26th, I had to stay back in KL for Christmas. Luckily I'd only booked a one-way ticket initially since I was worried that there would be calls for 2nd interviews and etc. Unfortunately, the uncle I usually stay with was going for a family trip to Perth for Christmas. So I moved to yet another uncle's house, but this time in Shah Alam. It was a pretty quiet Christmas but I did catch up on a lot of Archie comics which was pretty ok too. HOwever, the Industronics interview for the post of Project Engineer was pretty much a waste of my time. The interview only lasted like 20 minutes and the guy didn't seem very friendly/interested. Needless to say I felt pretty disappointed after the interview for several reasons. Firstly, I HATE failing at things and I kinda felt that I didn't really impress the guy though I tried my best. Mayb it was just how he looked. Anyway, secondly, I was pretty upset that I missed spending Christmas in Kuching for such a crappy interview. But what the heck, it was a good experience also la.

And so, it was back to Kuching for a well deserved break. After all, I'd been flying all over the place for pretty much the whole month after final exams and didn't really have a holiday. Sure, you can say that I went shopping in KL and had some fun with Siaw Hui and Chyi Yeou. But seriously, all that travelling, interviews and tests were pretty tiring. Now the issue was, whether or not to accept the Sony job. It was much easier to turn down the Johor job just because of the location and the pay. Plus the fact that they wanted to bond me for 2 yrs. I talked it over with many ppl and there were pretty much 2 opinions. 1st, wait for a job that I really really want and would enjoy. After all, I'd only been 'jobless' for less than a month. 2nd opinion, just take it, don't need to be so picky about ur 1st job! And these opinions were from ppl whose advice I really valued and I myself was pretty stuck in between for awhile. I felt really frustrated at this point but in the end, I just thought, fine I'd take it up since probation is only 3 mths and at least I can use that to finish my IBT to graduate from Swinburne.

There I was, packing and mentally prepared to go work in KL for Sony (which would start on the 4th of Jan) when I received 2 more phone calls. One was from Megasteel in Banting, Selangor for an interview for the post of Project Executive on the 2nd of Jan, and one from PHilips in Petaling Jaya for the post of Lighting APplications Engineer on the 3rd of Jan. Talk about cutting it close. In the end, I decided to only fly to KL on the 2nd of Jan, thus turning down the Megasteel job as it was in Banting. I was already having issues with working for Sony in Bangi (which is almost the same area), what more to say a smaller company in Banting. I just thought, ok, I'll go for the Philips interview and see how it goes since Sony only requires 1 week's notice.

That interview in my mind, kinda started off badly. Firstly, I got into a self-car accident on the 2nd of Jan, just few hours before I flew off from KL. So yes, I left a final big impact on Kuching before leaving. Lol. Then on the way to the interview on the 3rd, I had a tummyache, causing me to rush to the toilet upon entering the building. Got to the PHilips office slightly late which made me even more nervous as I'd NEVER been late for interviews. Luckily they weren't ready for me yet so still ok. For once, it was 2 ladies interviewing me and yeah, I really wanted to my best for this job, since it was based in Petaling Jaya which would be so much more convenient for me. Plus, it wasn't a programming job and it was a multi-national company too! I did mention about the Sony offer and they asked how much I was offered. I shouldn't have been so honest looking back :P

After the interview, I went home to change b4 heading off to 1 Utama to pick up some toiletries that I couldn't bring to KL due to lack of space. I was already 6kg over the baggage limit! And later that afternoon, I got a call from Philips. They were offering me the job!! Simply because they thought I was suitable and they didn't want the hassle of taking me away from Sony after starting work there. They were offering me the same pay with some other benefits but yeah, I was just happy to be able to work closer to where I was staying and not having a long commute everyday that I didn't really mind the same pay. Lol. Boy, did my whole family breathe a huge sigh of relief after I told them. HOwever, I kind of had to lie to Sony about starting later since I hadn't seen the official offer letter. After that I emailed them saying that I couldn't accept for personal reasons. This was the 2nd rejection email taht I had to do, and I guess I've been blacklisted by both GES and Sony. Lol.

In my 1st week at Philips, I actually received another call for an interview with Terradyne for the position of Customer Production Support Engineer (what a mouthful!) but I straightaway told the guy that I just got a job. He was really nice and congratulated me on it too. Lol! But yeah I supposed I was pretty lucky, getting a job so fast, receiving many job offers/interviews and mostly from the bigger companies. On the other hand, I did apply to many companies and didn't receive any responses either. So my success rate was pretty much at most, 20%. OUt of the 50+ companies, I had 9 companies who were interested. I went for interviews with 6 of the companies, as I didn't go for Megasteel, got rejected by Taiyo Yuden due to not being a graduate yet, and turned down Terradyne. If you want to compare me to Henry, who was jobless for 1 whole semester, in a way, I may seem more successful. He had more time so he applied to even more companies that I did, and I think he went for more interviews. He even had all-expenses paid trips just to go interview. I think he had about the same number of job offers too. But yea, if u consider the time factor, we're both pretty lucky. And even luckier is Mike, coz he landed the job on his one and only job that he applied for. I guess it was mostly because the company was especially interested in Swinburne grads through Dr. Dennis. I know a lot of my classmates are complaining about the lack of offers in Kuching, but tat's the whole point. Kuching is pretty small, so there are limited options. Which is why we took the chance and applied out of Kuching.

A big part of me just wanted to leave all the stress and issues in Kuching, and finish my studies ASAP. Now looking back, I do miss the times I had in Kuching, with my friends and family. And part of me regrets getting a job so fast coz I'll be working for most of my life, I should have taken 3 months off or something! But I know I would have gotten bored and worried about getting a job during the months off too. Anyway, in case you're wondering what a Lighting Applications Engineer does, here's the info from the job advert itself:

- Responsible to prepare lighting design solutions that comply with local/international standards and incorporate them into Powerpoint/CAD drawings/Perspective View etc
-Support sales team in presentations on technical aspects of lighting
- Requirements:
1. Degree in Electrical/Electronic with minimum 2 years relevant experience
2. Good knowledge and skills in AutoCAD, Photoshop and other lighting software

Hahha..sad to say, I don really have such good skills with those software and no 2 years relevant experience. But hey, I guess they saw that I was willing to learn. And yes, I'm learning a lot and I'm pretty happy with the job. I mean, I wasn't that good an engineering student back in uni so I'm glad that it's kinda a fresh start for me. The company's giving a lot of opportunities for me to learn with all the training etc. My supervisor who interviewed me, is also very supportive and letting me try new things. Anyway, what I mostly do is that we're given plans of rooms/buildings/structures to light up. We would then put in the lights (either suggested by the client or ourselves) and calculate the lighting level and uniformity. The lighting level and uniformity need to be of certain values so tat the environment is safe and comfortable for users u see.

I started doing lighting designs at the end of my 1st week and until now I'm still learning. Sometimes it's challenging and a bit like programming when one single point is giving you problems and you need to play aroudn with the factors just to fix it. And I guess I joined at the correct time since the company is going through some positive changes and there are lots of trainings scheduled over the next few months for us. Currently there are only 3 of us doing the designing so sometimes work tends to pile up, which is why I usually try to get my stuff done ASAP. Everyone is pretty nice and they're all treating me well. There's also a fair bit of travelling. In my 1st month alone, I got to go to Johor to observe the intra quality competition and Ipoh for a hockey stadium project. In Johor, we stayed at Pulai Springs Resort, where all I had to do was watch them present their ideas, eat all the meals (ppl said I eat a lot, which isn't really true!), laze around, go for the massage arranged by the company, jacuzzi (1st time for jacuzzi and massage!). One of the highlights was the final lunch at Qing Palace Restaurant, the in-house Chinese restaurant. It's been voted one of Malaysia's Best Restaurants for the past 8 years, and the food was definitely some of the best I've eaten.

The facade of the hotel we stayed in

One of the 3 pools they have, pretty nice

With Ally and Huey Huey

But one bad thing about working in KL is that the air is pretty bad and I could see all my pimples coming out. There's also the transportation issue, coz though my uncle drops me off in the morning, getting back home is an issue. I take the LRT from the Asia Jaya station just outside my office building to Kelana Jaya station where I usually have to wait from 15-45 mins for the U89 bus. The bus stops at 1 Utama where I then have to wait for the U82 bus back to the condo. BUt most times, walking would definitely be much faster! 15-20 mins on foot, compared to the usually 30-45min wait for the bus. Another thing I feel is that time passes by really really quickly! Because of all the projects, its kinda like I don't have enuff time at work to complete it all. Though my working hours are from 7.45am-4.30pm, I usually leave around 5.30pm. Then travelling time takes up almost 2 hrs, bathe, dinner etc, I'll only be free around 9pm. But ever since we all started working, we usually sleep around 11-12 every night. Last time we used to sleep after 12 and still feel ok the next day. Now, tat's pretty impossible. My God, we're getting old.

Another issue is that I don't really have any friends in KL! Currently my kaki is Burger, and that's usually on the weekends occasionally. I kinda feel that its hard to make friends outside of work. So currently I feel a bit lonely at times, compared to CY and Henry who have lots of friends in their process line. Yea, ppl at work are pretty friendly but it's not like you can ask them out for activities outside of work. Most of them already have families, etc. And yea, I'd like to find friends outside of work, but no real opportunities. I was thinking of looking to join a bowling club or book/reading or movie club, but there doesn't seem to be any such club for ppl my age. But heck, for now I feel like this probably bcoz work is still ok. Looking at my calender for the next few mths, I'm feeling bit worried though. There's lots of activities/trips planned till April and I even have my 1st assignment to complete by the 1st of April! So yea, perhaps its better to wait till May and see how things go.

Other than that, I'm slowly settling into the KL work and social life thing. THere seems to be something to do/going on every week for the company and each weekend, there's usually some program going on at 1 Utama, friend in town and etc. So yea, can't complain too much. After all, there's much more to do in KL than in KUching too. Obviously, you can never run away from shopping. Despite my control, I usually end up buying something, but after much consideration of coz! The main thing is, I miss my family, friends and the fatty bum bum cat! hahaha..but absence makes the heart grow fonder...and I miss u all so very much! Hugs and Kisses!

The Fatty Bum Bum doing his Puss-in-Boots look, acting all innocent(when he's not!) & cute

Bored = Tag

2008-02-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

I was feeling kinda bored in the office today so felt like doing this tag I saw on Serena's blog..aha..

1. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
:: Fast asleep...since last sem I no longer have that kinda stamina to stay up past 2am

2. What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
:: crap...time to wake up

3. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
:: I usually go for older guys..so yea..older...Xiao Zhu!

4. What did you do last night?
:: fly back to KL...and unpacked :P

5. What do you hope to do this weekend?
:: go watch Jay Chou's KUng Fu Dunk!...catch up on reading for work :P

6. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
:: I'm enjoying my single life..so I don't think so..unless its purely casual

7. What song are you listening to?
:: Gary Cao and Yang Zhong Wei but random songs from my playlist too

8. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them?
:: yea...as well as my best friends

9. How’s your heart lately?
:: OK bcoz I've been happy for the last few days...but not that much exercise bsides shopping

10. What were you doing at 7 a.m?
:: on the way to work :P

11. What were you doing this afternoon at 12 p.m.?
:: reading work stuff n feeling bored

12. What was the reason you last cried?
:: leaving Kuching n seeing the faces of those I left behind

13. What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
:: National Treasure 2

14. Have you ever driven without a license?
:: Probably no..but accidentally at most

15. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
:: Hahhaa...definitely..and I'm also one of them!

16. How many red lights have you ran?
:: Quite a lot..lol

17. Have you ever cried while in the shower?
:: Yeppp...kinda good to do so...coz it all goes down the drain

18. Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trusted?
:: Happened to me very seriously in Form 4..so kinda hard to trust so easily but now i'm ok...

19. When was the last time you were given roses?
:: 13th Sept

20. Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
:: Kueh chap, chee cheong fun, dumplings, laksa for food...trip to Taipei/Pulau Redang/Bali...DSLR?

21. Where did your last hug take place?
:: at my best friend's place ;) Hugz n muaks

22. Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
:: pronounciation mostly..coz I don't pronounce it the correct French way

23. Do you drink tea?
:: Yup coz i don't drink coffee....

24. When was the last time you saw a cop?
:: last week in Kuching

25. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
:: Ya ya

26. Does someone like you?
:: I think my friends do! I hope so..ahaha...

27. What do you hope to accomplish before the year ends?
:: Get confirmed in my job after probation and hopefully get a raise...to travel to at least one of my ideal destinations

28. Tag 5 people.
:: Hmm...Michael, Ngee Khiong and Mark

The End of a Year and A Chapter of My Life...

2007-12-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of 2007 and what a year it's been, in more ways than one. But most importantly, this year is the last of my student years. If you count from Kindy till now, I have been studying for about 18 years and that's a long time. So every year, I'd just wait for the new school year to begin and the only major decisions would be, what subjects to take, or Science or Art stream and at most, what uni to study at and what course to take. But now, it's a whole new ball game.

The decisions to be made now would affect me for quite a number of years and possibly for a major part of my future. Sure, ppl could say that we could easily quit the job if we didn't like it, but how would that look on our resumes? And yeah, many ppl would say, don't be too picky about my first job, but I think the first job kinda sets the standard for the rest of the years/jobs. As an engineering grad (sorta!) there are many options to choose from, whether to be in the production side, design, programming, etc. Most jobs have the requirement of either Electronics or Electrical and also things such as Linux, Java, Unix etc...which wasn't covered in our Electronics & Computer Systems degree. It's really rare to find a job that exactly suits the degree, but I guess it's up to us to choose which part we want to cover. So yea, I guess we have a wide scope to choose from. Unfortunately for me, that's part of the problem. I'm ok at programming but I don't really like it, I'm not that strong in electronics, and I don't have a lot of technical skills. My strongest subject is management...so my ideal job would be events management...ahah...crud. Anyway, I need some time to think over this properly and decide. :P So in the meantime, here's my review of the year 2007 for me:

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January:
I finally got to go to Taiwan! Though it was only one night, I managed to walk through Xi Men Ding, which is pretty much the hip place for ppl my age. Lots of clothes and food stores and you could see teens in school uniform or trendy end-of-winter wear. I tried the sausages, tea and oyster omelette. Unfortunately didn't have enough room for my favourite dumplings :(. Also visited one of the night markets nearby and it was pretty interesting, with shops selling snakes to be cooked or for their blood/venom (?), even sex toy shops -_-||. Next day we were off to to San Diego for a Rotary International function with my dad to help him sell Rotary products. I've never been to San Diego before so it was quite ok. Majority of my shopping was manga-related as I'd just gotten addicted to Fruits Basket and Ouran High. The weather was pretty cooling and the food was as usual, American, which I quite like. Somehow for the first time, I missed Chinese food so did ask for it for one dinner but it was incredibly salty. Unfortunately, on our last day there, we got news that my grandfather on my dad's side had passed away. So we skipped our planned one day stopover in Taipei to rush back to Kuching.

February:
The first few days of Chinese New Year was mostly spent in KL but I did have something of the usual open house for friends when I got back. And it was in this month that I learnt how to play mahjong at Chime's house. SO this was the start of our mahjong addiction.

March:
I think this is the month we started our Mahjong Club. Hahha...we started going to Sheng Hock & Dom's house to play mahjong probably a few times a week. Despite the fact that most of us were either final sem or final year students -_-||. But yeah, it was incredibly addictive and some of us got quite competitive. *ahem*

April:
We had a mid-sem break here but it sure didn't feel like one. There were assignments n projects due around then and 2 of Rotaract's biggest projects were carried out then. 14th April was the 3rd Amazing Race organized by Michael FV and gang. Most of the Mahjong Club were involved in helping out. Unfortunately it rained on the morning and afternoon so several things had to be changed. BUt i'm glad to say they managed to work it out. I spent most of the race sitting around the 'pit-stop' and taking photos from the limited view I had. Surprisingly that day I ended up with about 200 pics in my new baby, the Canon IXUS 850. We adjourned to the beach to relax after the Race but most of us were simply too exhausted. There's even this pic of us sitting on the grass eating our very late 'lunch' of KFC at 5pm, looking worn out. However, we managed to sustain till the night where we gathered for another session of mahjong before some of us fell asleep right there and then. Haha!

Then on the 16th, we went up to SK Batu Kitang to do the final handover of books from my year's Books COllecting project. YEs, I know, one year late. BUt better late than never right? It was quite a trip, with my mixed feelings that it was the end of the project, but it was definitely worth it to see the kids' faces. HOpefully they'll take good care of the books and benefit from them. And that night was our Mahjong Club Installation!! Hahaha...basically an excuse for us to get together, have a bbq dinner at club HQ and play mahjong! Sadly, I ended up with lots of gas in my tummy after that night, probably from soft drinks and too many potatoes :P The World School Debate competition hosted by Swinburne Debaters Club was also in that very busy week, so I ended up as one of the adjudicators. BUsy busy month huh?

May:
PRobably the biggest event in this month was my 2nd year anniversary with Mike. Yea, my first relationship that lasted this long. We had dinner at Casa Davide followed by a movie. I would say the most interesting thing about this was our presents to each other. I got him the Ultimate GUidebook of Spiderman while he got me the Visual Guide to the Pirates of the Caribbean. Basically, both of us went shopping for them with Henry and/or CY and the Captain kind of engineered the whole thing -_-||. But it was a nice surprise. We also went for a trip to Santubong Resort with Mike's friends. CY, Mike and Henry all ended up 'modeling' for me to take pics at the beach, ahah. And that night we all stayed up playing Risk or Mahjong from 9.30pm to about 3.30am. It took us THAT long just to finish one whole round of Mahjong -_-|| coz the dealer never changed and Mike's friend playing with us never won, so kolien.

June:
My best birthday ever (but I think that's what I always say) not just because of the great presents I got, but of coz, the people. Despite the fact that I got sick after the party (this seems to be recurring a lot this year!). Two of my most memorable presents was the pre-order of the 7th Harry Potter book from the debaters and of coz, the Captain Jack Sparrow motion-activated figurine. That really shocked me coz I knew it was very expensive, so yea I was very touched. Part of the motive of the present was so that they could play with it too but still...Captain Jack! It's still in its place of honour in the living room. Hahah. Unfortunately, it was also the month of exams. :(

July:
The release of the final Harry Potter book! I dragged Mike out early to collect the book from Popular and spent pretty much the whole day and most of the next reading it eagerly. I was pretty disappointed with JK Rowling's proclamation that 3 of the main characters had died. Don't think they really count as main characters lo. But yeah, it was a deserving ending, though I would have liked to know more about what they were/did when they were all grown up at the end. HOpefully the movie comes out as how I imagined from reading it.

I also went for a 1-week holiday with Mike to KL. Stayed at my uncle's place and basically spent every day at a shopping center. Lol. What else is there to do at KL rite? CY also ended up in KL then for a short holiday so the Captain was pretty irritated to be the only one stuck in KUching. Hehe. Oh, during this trip, we went to watch Harry POtter 5 at GSC One Utama on Friday the 13th. Sadly, we tempted luck as we experienced for the first time, the film getting burnt. :P This is probably the month we got addicted to Monopoly. Well, I think it mostly came down to me and the Captain being overly competitive and dragging the others into it.

August:
Swinburne's graduation! On the 14th of August, we saw Captain Henry, Serena, BUrger and more graduating at the Dewan Undangan Sarawak. It was a strange feeling because we knew that next year, it'll be us, so we paid extra close attention to things. Haha. THe 4 of us; me, CY, Mike and Henry went for one of those studio photography sessions since Henry was taking his graduation pics. So we decided to try a group shot and I think it turned out pretty nicely. Quite like Alvin Leong's style. We also went for a post-graduation trip to Damai with Siaw Hui and her sis. Lol, it was 4 of us girls and 2 guys, who both were kinda sick during the trip -_-|| so we had to take care of them. Hahah.

MIke and I attended the APRRC 2007 in Malacca, where about 600 Rotaractors from all over Asia turned up. It was pretty fun, meeting people from Japan, Korea, Taiwan, Indonesia, Philippines and more. There was a cultural exhibition with each country displaying their local foods and products so we went around trying stuff. There was a Cultural Night where we all dressed up in traditional costume, Cowboy Night in Cowboy Town which ended in a dance party. The final night was a Wet Party at the Water Park's pool so yeah, it was pretty interesting. Sadly for Mike, he got sick on the last night so he missed out on bikini babes. Hahah. Oh, and I celebrated Merdeka Eve with CY, Siaw Hui, CHyi Yeou and Henry at MC3 (Mike was once again sick). Something I'd never done but it was quite fun, tho we left pretty soon after 12. :P

September:
What a month it was for me personally. I did some stuff I never expected I would do, and knowingly hurt someone. It was a new experience but I don't regret it. I'm like that, I will do stuff as long as I know I won't regret about it. Quite a turbulent month and I'm not getting into details here. CY, MIke and I went up to Permai to help the PHotomedia Club with their telematch and trip. We just helped with the telematch as I had been assigned as games master again -_- This was the month that I started going clubbing pretty much almost every week. I started going with Esther and the other cousins and after she left, I'd go with CY, Hui and Henry. We started with Soho and Xanadu, and sometimes other places coz we're more into karaoke.

October:
Mike and Burger left for KL and Belgium to start training. A big deal for everyone as none of our school's grads/trainees had gone so far before. Things would never be the same for our group too with one of us gone. BUt next, we were distracted by Hari Raya where I got sick again. (You see?) Despite that, I did manage to hold up long enough to visit a few houses and eat lots of yummy goodies. Swinburne's Prom was also held then, but I didn't go and on the night itself, went clubbing with my brother and some other guys. Lol. What a change from previous years huh? Sadly, this month saw me getting into disagreements/fights with quite a few ppl so :P On a happier note, there were also many birthdays throughout the whole month. A notable one would be Alex's, at Bla Bla Bla, where I accidentally caused him to step into the water feature in the middle of the place -_-|| So embarrassing but it was an accident!

November:
More birthdays to go! CY, Henry, CHyi Yeou and my own brother celebrated their birthdays. Something memorable was that both me and my brother both got pretty wasted on the same night. Both he and Henry were celebrating on the same night so yes, lots of alcohol. I ended up having to drag him from outside our house to his room, with his shirt totally wet with sweat and ugh, partly vomit :P. So from that night onwards, I pretty much made sure that I won't go back too drunk or tipsy, coz I'd been like that almost every week when I went clubbing.

We also finished our FYP at last! THough a lot of it was very last minute, especially in the last week. CY and I were even more anxious as someone had broken into CY's car and stole her bag and the project module. So had to rush-order it from the US again. LUckily, with the help of many kind individuals throughout the whole project, the project was completed and worked. Despite the stress, we had a lot of good/funny/interesting/crazy times in lab 4.02 for the past few months cooped inside with all the projects. Some of us got so stressed that we'd let it out by saying/doing all sorts of crazy stuff and cracking up each other. Lol. Shortly after FYP, it was time to cram for exams, as we had no study break at all!

The final exam of my uni life (most probably!) was on the 29th of Nov, for Design for DSP Architectures. We celebrated the end of exams by going bowling and for supper afterwards at BDC. And yes, I won for the 2nd time.

December:
Sadly, all good things must come to an end. Mike and I broke up due to some issues and decided that it would be better to just remain friends. But I would say that it was my best relationship yet and that I had a lot of great times during the 2 and 1/2 years. I think we both learnt and gained a lot from it.

I ended up going for a lot of job interviews in this month. I got the call for my 1st interview directly after my final paper -_-||. So, went to KL 3 times and Johor once. I had interviews with Sony, Maxis, Alcatel and Industronics in KL and GES in Johor. Some interviews required me to take some IQ, maths, reading comprehension tests and even coding or group dynamics. So yea, interesting month, but incredibly hectic with all the flying around. Spent a lot on air tickets and also new work clothes.

THanks to my uncle, I got to go watch Leo Ku in concert at Stadium Merdeka on the 23rd of Dec. I had a great seat, front row and center of the VVIP section so only the press were in front of me. I did get to shake his hand too, so a very cool experience. This year's Christmas was pretty quiet as I spent it with another uncle in KL, since I couldn't go back to Kuching, due to another interview :P. To make it up, I did get to celebrate New Year's Eve with CY and the others at Soho, despite the heavy rain. THings only started perking up around 11, so it was pretty ok :D

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In conclusion, I would say that I did and learnt a lot of new things this year. I started getting interested in photography, mahjong and back into monopoly and clubbing. I learnt more about my FYP and also job interviews. I experienced my first drunk-stayover-at-friends'-house, a big concert, international Rotaract event and many other things which I can't recall or mention here. Oh, and I get along better with my brother now. I think all of this has made or kind of changed me too. Some may say that I've become more wild because of the clubbing, openness etc. But I say that may be better than the controlled, serious person that I was before.

Yet, I can control my temper better, I'm more open to trying new things, I'm more keen on loosening up and having fun. BUt at the same time, I think I've become more mature, now that I've been through certain things and seen both sides of the story, as in the good and bad side. I suppose that this is fitting, since it is the last year of my uni life. Who says you don't learn anything from uni? Sometimes it's the life and people experiences in these years that make a difference down the road. And yeah, I've really been through a lot in Swinburne, with the various people. I've made a lot of good friends there, both students and lecturers. And the memories will always be with me.

So the people who really made a difference in my life this year are: Mike, Ching Yi, Henry, Siaw Hui, Chyi Yeou and last but not least, my brother. Of course, the family and friends that aren't mentioned, it doesn't mean that you didn't make a difference, but you probably have always been important throughout the years, not just starting this year. Thank you all for everything you've taught and given me, the good and bad memories, all the times, laughter and tears we've shared together. I hope we'll all always keep in touch and remain friends :D

Busy Busy Months: Birthdays & Projects

2007-11-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Boy, has it been a busy time since I last updated, phew! *wipes sweat*. October is definitely the month with the most birthdays for me. If I had to celebrate every1's bday, I'd be dead broke by now. The birthdays extended all the way into November, and there's still 1 more important one to go. My hunny CY's one of coz..ahaha...So yeah, here's a birthday shoutout to all those October and November babies:

10th Oct: Dominic
11th Oct: Ehren
12th Oct: Cindy & Ngee Kheng
17th Oct: Alex Tho & Chestine
18th Oct: Cousin Samuel *muakz*
25th Oct: Stephen Apek
26th Oct: Sze Yaw
27th Oct: Mike FV ;)
28th Oct: Gary Koko
2nd Nov: Capt Henry
6th Nov: my ass of a bro who's now all grown up n too handsome for his own good
9th Nov: Mika Kuan
11th Nov: Chyi Yeou the Lao Da
18th Nov: CY my Hunny ;)

Group pic of us at Tomóe, with 3 bday babies

*phew* long list huh? Anyway, in addition to all the bdays, was busy rushing and finishing up FYP and various lab reports for the different subjects. Today was the FINAL presentation and demonstration of the project. It went ok, except that I got a lot of hardware questions that I couldn't fully answer :(. Anyway, the video of how the project works is as below. We've been staying in the lab for the last few weeks, basically kicking ourselves for leaving things to the last minute as usual. What can I say, that's just the way we are..procrastinators and last minute ppl. Heck, this sem is really packed too...we're guinea pigs taking 2 new subjects with extremely heavy workloads. There are just SOOOO many labs, and a lot of them take awhile to understand...

But seriously, I'm really thankful to have so many smart n helpful ppl around me to save my part of the FYP -_-....if not for them i probably won't have a successful project. So here's my extreme thanks and gratitude to my saviours:

-Capt Henry for the initial design of the model, n his SolidWorks
-Sheng Hock for building the model
-Hudy for the circuit and the extra hardware stuff
-Dr. Chua for the circuit

Aaaah..I'm sorry I'm so stupid in hardware..i'm seriously seriously not cut out for engineering..I only enjoy eng mgmt laaa...like today..tho i was pretty tired n lazy..i still felt hyped up when Chiet them asked me to help write their recommendations n conclusion for the mgmt 2 assignment tho I had no idea bout their chosen company. See? Ppl keep saying that I can write reports well coz my English is good n etc. Yeah, I do enjoy writing, reading and analyzing something and explaining it. But I know my writing can only get me so far coz I'm not really very creative and I can't force things out. I usually procrastinate till the last minute n really squeeze things out. My best written pieces are when this really great idea strikes me and I get all motivated to write it. Unfortunately, I always lose steam, especially if it's a long process..so never get to the end. All those incomplete stories etc are still in my head..and every once in awhile..they kinda play out in my mind like a movie. Lol.

Doing this FYP really made me think how long I would actually work in the engineering field. I'd probably give it a shot, but seriously, if I had a good job offer from the business field, like event mgmt, or as a sales engineer, heck yeah, i'd definitely jump at the chance! Most ppl i know say that I'm more like a business student rather than an engineering one. Or even an English teacher. haha! But yeah, I'd definitely enjoy being in the event mgmt field, so let's see how things go.

U know that feeling, when ur really really busy with work, sch stuff, you tend to want to go play n have fun even more? Yeah, I'm really thinking bout it now. Like tonite, I'm supposed to start on my DSP project which is due on Tuesday, but coz we just got done with FYP, there's just that feeling of relief and wanting to destress awhile. Shit. Anyway, right now, I miss clubbing, karaoke, movies and bowling. See how lo.....but I also miss photography, whether of scenery or 'models'. I've seen some pics of my koko who's a part time model and I'm like, damm, I need a real model like him. No offense Mike n Henry, but yea, you guys complain about ur tummies...so....I would think a male or girl model with a fit body against a sunset, or something would be really cool. I'd like to try the feeling of directing/photographing a more pro type of shoot. Heheh....but it'd be kinda hard lo...no time, n i dont really have any ideas at the moment. Mayb after exams, it'll be fun to see if I could do it. And if I could find a model! Hahah..any suggestions? And I wanna go travelling! KL, Perth, US, the Caribbean, Europe...aiyooo

Anyway, bsides that, I've also started watching some tv series to destress. 9pm 100% Entertainment on Channel 301 with Xiao Zhu and Xiao Gui. I like Xiao Zhu while CY likes Xiao Gui. Each to her own type ma...I like the naughtier, tall, with a mischievous grin but filial type of guy while CY likes tall, fair and good boys. Hehehe.....see no touch laaa...Then it's 10pm, "I Can't Accept Corruption" on Channel 314 with Louis Koo. It's an old TVB series but yeah, Louis Koo. Hehee.....then 11pm, "Miami Ink" on Channel 707 with Ami James! Technically I won't like guys with so many tattoos, but he's just sooo charming and has this sarcastic/independent/straight attitude and this disarming grin. And I never liked bald guys but yeah, Ami's sexayyyy..ahaha..;) See, I like all the bad boy types...cham...

Show Luo Zhi Xiang (Xiao Zhu)

Louis Koo Tin Lok

Ami James of Miami Ink *smoulder*

So next week, exams start and I'm not sure when I can next update....finish exams on the 29th but have embedded project due on 7th but heck on the 29th I bet we'd all go party!! so after 7th Dec, I'd be totally totally free......hmm....strange...5 yrs seem to pass by so fast..but I'll get to that once I experience the freedom

Raya & Getting Sick

2007-10-19T14:26:00.001+08:00

I was soooo looking forward to the Raya weekend, partly coz it was a long break for us, and of coz, all the Raya goodies. But unfortunately, I had to get sick then too! Darn it. Anyway, the group of us kicked off the holidays with a Monopoly/RISK/Mahjong night at CY's place. As usual, got demolished by Henry as he was all conquering on the Monopoly and Risk table :P But yay, did manage to win back on the Mahjong table. *evil laughter*...Surprisingly that nite, we did end up teaming up for Risk, instead of arguing and competing as we normally do. THough we did compete furiously at Monopoly. We had too much fun that night that some of us thought the next day was Saturday -_-

Stayed at home the whole of Friday and didn't even take a nap, unlike proper school days when I desperately crave naps. BUt i was starting to feel out of it by 8pm but refused to stay home. C'mon..it's the eve of Raya, and it's Friday night. But we all had no idea what to do....to go CY's place or to go clubbing? We were all so indecisive and I kept getting phone calls from the Capt who just couldn't make up his mind. So yea, was on the way out when he would call n say this...then five mins later...another call to go another place. Walaoz. We ended up at Soho, but were just sitting around the back, coz it was packed. So me, CY and August decided to go Zhen How for drinks coz we were bored. And then coz they left for MC3, we packed up and went over too. Geez, some ppl just can't take no for an answer...I said I didn't want to drink anymore and though I covered my glass..yea..still ended up with a refill...partly over my fingers too. Luckily my stamina has improved coz when i got home, I was really hin and kinda wanted to throw up. Not because I drank a lot (I didn't!), but bcoz I had a really really bad headache and was coming down with a fever. So yeah, that nite was pretty crappy coz kept tossing and turning and feeling extremely cold despite turning off the air-cond.

Woke up to find my hair was in a mess (and I just got it done! :P) but I was feeling better. Finally decided to join my family for Raya visiting, or else I'd have nothing to eat at home. So for all 3 houses (1 relative, 2 Rotarians)...I kept hearing the same things over n over again. "Are you working? Have you graduated?" Lol. I felt better as the morning went on, but felt very sleepy in the afternoon so slept for about 6 hrs. We went to Xanadu that nite where I got challenged to pool by the Capt. I won the 1st game by default (coz he put in the black ball) but lost the 2nd game pretty badly. What can I say, I havent played in 2 weeks, plus I kinda forgot about placing my fingers liao...Hehe. But when I got home, yea, I was pretty out of it and feeling sick again. So fun.

Once again, the next day saw me feeling better and it was off to visiting for another 3 houses. BUt the 3rd house, we went to Dayang's house where we had yummy cakes she made (Yum, choc cake!) and also the usual Raya food. Ooo..and since we were kinda bored, we went to CY's place where me, CY, Henry and Dominic had a battle of mahjong. Dom was keen to break the curse where the newbie never wins against the 3 of us. Sadly, I was the first to help him break it. It somehow ended up that Henry won the least..ahah...Maybe coz I laughed at him too much or wat but the next day, I got sick again! This time, it was down with flu and cough. The cough was most likely from the Sunny Hill ice-cream I had...coz I still had a little bit of cough earlier...and the flu was probably coz I was in the rain a bit on Sunday and on the Monday itself. Geez, immediate effect :(

Left to Right: Hong Liong, Chyi Yeou, Siew Hie, Henry, Dayang, me, CY, Dominic, Ban Yip

And this is the main reason I updated today. Check out this new Motorola U9, which is mainly a music phone. It looks damm nice, and I'm still wondering what the front is made of. It looks such a solid colour, yet the screen can display the music like tat so nicely. The screen is supposed to be seamless with the rest of the cover, unlike our current phones where u can obviously see the outlines. It's newly announced so should be available by Christmas or early next year.

节拍器 (Metronome) by Jolin Tsai

2007-10-09T22:43:00.001+08:00

I saw this video on Youtube, and it's pretty sad but beautifully filmed I think. Her company spent a lot of money on her "Agent J" album and they filmed about 4 MTVs in Prague & London. They also hired famous ppl like Stephen Fung who appears in this video, and Kim Jae Won (who Nicholas Zhang Tung Liang looks like) for both the 'Agent J' and 'What I'm Scared Of' MTV. These 4 MVs have some connections in story and it's quite complicated but well thought out. I think Chinese MTVs have more story compared to the Western ones. Anyway, I like the melody of this song , very melancholic and simple and I think her singing has improved.

Lyrics (from chinese-song-lyrics.com):
是我越来越想你 (Shi Wo Yue Lai Yue Xiang Ni)
还是隐形了自己 (Hai Shi Yin Xing Le Zi Ji)
小心翼翼你的语气 (Xiao Xin Yi Yi Ni De Yu Qi)
配合你的表情 (Pei He Ni De Biao Qing)
我的好胜心为你舍弃 (Wo De Hao Sheng Xin Wei Ni She Qi)
以为这就是爱情 (Yi Wei Zhe Jiu Shi Ai Qing)
直到自己没空气 (Zhi Dao Zi Ji Mei Kong Qi)
才发现不能再继续 (Cai Fa Xian Bu Neng Zai Ji Xu)

我不愿意再为了讨你的欢心 (Wo Bu Yuan Yi Zai Wei Le Tao Ni De Huan Xin)
别让我的心 (Bie Rang Wo De Xin)
像是上紧发条的节拍器 (Xiang Shi Shang Jin Fa Tiao De Jie Pai Qi)
我的呼吸慢慢跟不上节拍器 (Wo De Hu Xi Man Man Gen Bu Shang Jie Pai Qi)
最初的设定 (Zui Chu De She Ding)
我们交叉在不同频率 (Wo Men Jiao Cha Zai Bu Tong Pin Li)
美丽 (Mei Li)
放弃 (Fang Qi)

时间把我们遗弃 (Shi Jian Ba Wo Men Yi Qi)
究竟快乐伤心 (Qiu Jin Kuai Le Shang Xin)
爱要多少世纪 (Ai Yao Duo Shao Shi Ji)
才能够停止寻觅 (Cai Neng Gou Ting Zhi Xun Mi)

不再演你爱的自己 (Bu Zai Yan Ni Ai De Zi Ji)
脱下了语气节拍器 (Tuo Xia Le Yu Qi Jie Pai Qi)
再一细数我的孤寂 (Zai Xi Shu Wo De Ku Qi)
可不可以 (Ke Bu Ke Yi)
不够再跟着你靠近 (Bu Yong Zai Gen Zhe Ni Kao Jin)
我可以安静 (Wo Ke Yi An Jing)
聆听时间倒转的旋律 (Ling Ting Shi Jian Dao Zhuan De Xuan Li)
暂停 (Zan Ting)

Other nice songs that I'm currently listening to include:
1. 背叛 (Betrayal) - 曹格 Gary Chao
2. 情人节快乐 (Happy Valentine's Day) - 曹格 Gary Chao
3. 好朋友 (Just Good Friends) - 罗志祥 Show Luo Zhi Xiang
4. 错了再错 (Keep Making Mistakes) - 张栋梁 Nicholas Zhang Tung Liang
5. 西界 (Westside) - 林俊杰 JJ Lin Jun Jie
6. 如果你也听说 (If You've Heard) - 张惠妹 Zhang Hui Mei
7. 最近 (Recently) - 李聖傑 Lee Shen Jie
8. 手放開 (Let Go) - 李聖傑 Lee Shen Jie
9. 痴心絕對 (Broken Heart's Decision..i think!) -李聖傑 Lee Shen Jie
10. Tattoo - Jordin Sparks (American Idol Season 5 Winner)
11. Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys
12. Walk Away - Paula DeAnda
13. If That's Ok with You - Shayne Ward
14. Do It Well - Jennifer Lopez
15. Umbrella (Acoustic Version) - Marie Digby

Seems like a lot of sad songs huh? Must be the karaoke influence...eheh. So if you're interested in listening to any of these, can always get from me in MSN..ahah!...

A New Date and a New Beginning?

2007-10-08T22:34:00.001+08:00

Hey!...Breaking news...I have a new boyfriend, and check him out:

Hahah!!! Handsome or not? lol...Did I fool anyone? Good grief, I brought my bro out to Xanadu with us on Saturday nite, and the workers there thought he was my new bf! Coz they knew Mike was leaving, and so yeah, the next week I bring a new bf. Even Augustine thought so. Lol!! Guess it's the fact that we don't look very alike and he doesn't look like he's younger than me. And maybe no1 expects me to go clubbing with my bro? Gee, first Ah Fung, now my bro. Wahh.

Anyway, me and my 'date' and CY were there earlier than the rest so I taught my bro some of the drinking games which I ended up losing. :( so of coz he enjoyed it. He didn't get to see the usual girls there, but there was this girl who sang an Ah Mei song and a Filipino song...and boy could she sing. THough my bro doesn't know how Ah Mei sounds like..but he thought she sounded like the original singer..she was that good! Then I was supposed to play pool with my bro (I was very prepared to lose) but he ended up playing both games with Henry (coz Henry lost the 1st one and wanted to win back). So, yes, one up for the so-called Chan Paikias. Hahahah! Anyway, we learnt a few more drinking games that nite, and Willie (Xiao Gui) got pretty tipsy...hehez..no thanks to CY and August. But we were pretty guai and went home around 12.30. My bro and Henry ended up at Soho (separately though!) and I have no idea what time they left. In conclusion, my bro only liked the drinking games...but finds Xanadu boring. Duh, no gals of coz he thinks it's boring..ahah

I had to go home early coz I'd promised my mum to b her photographer for her company's aerobics event the next morning. It was in conjunction with their Life Style Fair so they were promoting health and she was worried there wouldn't be any pics for their own records. It started at 8am so I had to wake up at 7.30am...and I'd slept around 3.30-4.30 coz I couldn't sleep without my phone (my bro had kidnapped it to msg some girl -_-||). I didn't sleep well coz I knew I had to wake up early. Yet, it was pretty interesting to see these ppl I used to work with doing aerobics. Some of them still wore heels le...so hebat. I took over 100 pics just for the aerobics session and I already felt tired. Esp when the sun came out and looking at all of them working out. Once it was done, i packed up and went back to bed at 9.30am.

However, 2 hours later, my mum calls and asks if I could bring down the camera coz she forgot she still needed it. So ok, crawl out of bed and head down again. This time, things were in full swing and the different booths exhibiting various things from BMWs, stem cell banking, interior design companies, phones and Sony LCD TVs were up. So I went with her from stall to stall to check things out. I tried out the new iPhone, which Sheer Unique is offering for RM3000+! OUch, but they have the crack already, so you can actually use Digi and Celcom with it, unlike in the US. But not available for Maxis users yet. It was pretty ok, music and video was good but interface was a bit laggy and not always responsive to touch. Must be careful on how u touch and where. :P

Kuching Specialist Hospital was there and they were offering free general health screening where they would test ppl's blood pressure, blood glucose and BMI. I wasn't too keen on the glucose part coz they prick ur finger with a needle...but since my family has a history of diabetes, I thought I'd better. I was also kinda worried that I would have high blood pressure coz I've been stressed out lately but luckily it was 120/80 which is normal! Good thing I didn't bring Henry huh? Sure would have high blood one.....Lol..just jk. Then, BMI time where they measured my height and weight. I'm only 152.2cm le...so damm short. And sadly I seemed to have gained back 1kg?? So yeah, I'm 2 kg overweight. SHIT....must start cutting down...I think it was all that late night junk food (Goodbye Koko Krunch!). I wasn't too happy about it but it was time to worry more about the blood glucose test then. I watched them get out the new needle and I didn't want to look when they did it. So all I felt was this quick n hard whack to my right ring finger and hey presto...blood! My blood glucose is normal for someone who hasn't eaten since the night b4 so yay. All ok except my BMI *sobs* Now my bro has evidence to back up his teasing. SHIT.....must wipe that smirk off his face...must lose that 2 kg.

Anyway, must have been too tired from all the late nights, the over-thinking, split personalities, emo-ness and combined with the weather, the lack of sleep on Saturday/Sunday night that I felt sick today. At first I thought it was just the normal Swinburne aircond but i started feeling extra tired n cold. Plus, I didn't have much appetite. Symptoms of a fever for me. Crawled into bed after class and still felt cold even without the aircond...so yes, I'm down with a slight fever. Feeling slightly better after the nap and medicine. But will definitely go to bed early tonite...it's a long week ahead and I've got lots to do! I must get well before the Hari Raya holidays too...all that food and I can't enjoy? Damm..2kg to lose le....alright, in moderation then. *pouts*

OH yea!..What about the new beginning? Some of u might have noticed I don't put my MSN nick as Princess anymore. Well, just felt that it's kinda kiddy and mayb I'm not like that anymore. So yea...time to grow up....I'm still surrounded by guys, but they don't quite treat me like tat..and well..it's time to be just simple old me. ;) Btw, you guys must be thinking, wah,....updating frequently le! Well, just felt like letting out my thoughts here. Healthier than keeping everything in...and not many ppl read my blog..so yeah. And I guess ppl might think..Cheh..it's all about her life nia...but hey..it's my blog..up to u if u wanna read. If not...then..nvm!...Should never care what others think, as long as you haven't done anything wrong and you're happy about yourself.

Jom! Buka Puasa food & other ramblings

2007-10-05T20:43:00.001+08:00

As per yesterday's post, I had some food cravings. The original plan was to go to the Buka Puasa market with CY and maybe Henry or my bro. But what the hell...I got pissed..and Henry of coz got pissed as well...and big time this time. So yeah, am in deep shit now. F*ck my temper and stupid emotional personality, keeps getting me into trouble I can't settle. Probably will break out the vodka later...Yay!..*sarcasm detected*

Anyway, CY couldn't make it last minute so I told my bro it's ok, he doesn't need to skip class to go anymore. But he insisted on going, so yea, I had to wait at Swinburne in the car for him for almost 1 hr. Then, we got stuck in heavy traffic for over half an hour...and all this when the fuel tank was showing its warning sign. So yes, add more to the joy of my shitty day. Sorry for all the profanities. Just feel like it today. Well, we reached the Satok area at almost 6 and my bro goes, "Oh, you overshot it, need to turn around under the bridge." To which I go, "What the hell! Nice navigating you idiot" and he gives me this sheepish grin. So yea, you can tell our relationship has improved to the stage that we can insult each other n not get into huge fights. Luckily coz I don't need anymore conflict for the rest of the day.

In the end, we had to park at Wisma Satok and walked over. I suddenly became like a little girl with her older brother while crossing the road, "EEekks! Wait for me, I don't know how to cross!" And even more so when the first thing I saw at the market was some guys selling cotton candy!! I actually havent been to a Buka PUasa market for probably 2 years? So yeah, I was pretty unfamiliar, so I just followed my bro around and tried to figure out what we wanted to eat. And surprise surprise, he paid for his own stuff on his own accord! Probably the only pleasant surprise in my whole day. Either we were really hungry or greedy, but we really bought a lot of stuff between the two of us. We spent like RM30 on everything, probably also coz we were so tempted by all the variety. Plus food tends to make me happy these days...so yea...the more food the happier I am rite? Especially in the f*cked up condition I'm in. Once again, excuse the French.

When we were about done, we saw a stall selling BBQ seafood and my bro went "Look! Your stingray!" So the final tally of food is as follows:

Andrea: Chicken satay, special kebab (chicken, beef & cheese), roti telur, cotton candy
Aaron: Special kebab, nasi lemak, beef murtabak, crispy popiah
Shared: BBQ stingray, keropok lekor, huge packet of sugarcane juice at only RM2

What's a food entry without a pic rite? And it's nicely labeled for u to see what's what!

So yea, now I feel like a stuffed pig, I'm so damm full. But as someone's still pissed at me..and I realize my life is getting more n more shitty..what with labs, projects, FYP piling up...I'm starting to feel the pressure..and yet I want to go drink!...WTF rite? I feel like puking everything out, I make myself sick. But I won't do it on purpose. Don't worry, don't call the ppl in white coats yet.....I am really screwed up now huh? God help me. Or maybe I don't want help. Maybe I just want to self-destruct. Stop being the good girl...the responsible and level-headed girl everyone thinks I am. I just want an escape. Food and alcohol are only temporary relievers. Am I being melodramatic for attention? Maybe! But maybe I need the attention...the concern...the sayang...but I don't know if I can take it from just anyone. Heck, I can be damm manja with my younger bro..what do you think...I must be damm desperate already.

Where's my drinking buddy when you need him? Oh yeah, he's pissed at me. My bro's out with his frens so damm. And the rest? We're supposed to b at home, doing DSP/FYP etc etc. So that's what I'm gonna try and do now. The key word being TRY of coz..since we have no idea what DSP is all about. I am seriously f*cked up now and I haven't had a bit of alcohol, yet. SHit. Tonite is gonna suck big time.

Emotional Rollercoaster / Split Personality

2007-10-04T21:50:00.001+08:00

What do I mean by split personality? Well, Geminis are known to have split personalities, they can be sociable and happy one second, gloomy and moody the next. That's me, if you know me. Been going through some changes in my life, mostly in how I think and act. After 2 years of staying home, doing 'goody-goody' stuff, I've suddenly felt the urge to go clubbing. This of coz probably has to do with the return of Esther who wanted to go clubbing, and also due to Capt. Henry gua. I started going to Soho/Grappa with Esther and her frens as well as our other cousins. The strange thing was that my bro came along...so we hung out a lot those days. Now looking back, I guess going clubbing together has kinda brought us to better terms. Probably coz he's grown up a bit, and guess he can see how I am..and vice-versa. It's probably to do with me nagging him less too...i mean..let him make his own mistakes rite? I can't keep protecting him...but yea...kinda fun to hang out with him at times...his damm big ego makes me laugh..Met a few new ppl then through Esther too....so it was pretty interesting....

5 cousins: Top- Me and my bro.
Bottom (L-R) - Esther, Ah Tee, Saw Hui (Eric of Eric Salon at 3rd mile above Sunflower Bakery)

But after Esther left, I changed to Xanadu, since I don't have any dancing kaki. Haha! Xanadu's pretty fun too...last time when it was still called Spiderweb, we used to go for karaoke. Now we're still into karaoke but on busy nites, it takes quite long till it's our turn to sing. So we've now learned several drinking games..plus I've made frens with the workers there..plus the boss..so yea..we kinda have special treatment, esp with Henry there. He's there so often it's like his home! ahah. Like for Soho, my bro does the booking or deals with the ppl there and for Xanadu, it's Henry. Tho my gal-frens think I'm moving up there too...lol. Oh, and I've gotten more keen on clubbing type of music...but it's also a mix with all these emo-mandarin songs..must b from all that karaoke..

So why the emotional rollercoaster? Put it this way, not every1 can handle my changes or my sudden urge to do wilder stuff. Sure ppl might say I'm still very kuai..not doing anything too wild, but hey, for me they think it's wild. Clubbing is nth much to most ppl, but nowadays I go every weekend...I've gotten piss-drunk..and no, it wasn't a pretty sight and not something I'm gonna repeat. But basically, my personality is changing too. I'm more keen on playing...not wanting to settle down into the serious stuff. I guess it's to do with my feeling that it's now my last sem of uni life. After this, we're gonna enter the working world and we can't enjoy as much coz it'll be work work work, climb the corporate ladder, meet targets...etc. So I guess I felt that I might have wasted some of my uni years and I'm making up for it now. My bro must feel that I'm trying too hard..but what the heck rite? Better late than never. I hear stories from my relatives that they regret not playing more, coz they can't play or enjoy much now...so yea...I'm 22, gotta enjoy when I still can right?

Yet, the shitty thing is that the other part of me thinks...I'm playing too much..how about my studies, my FYP which is still hanging there....then I go...WTF AM I THINKING OR DOING?! Is it worth it? The question that plagues me these days is...am I giving up something good for something bad...or do I just want the bad thing just coz it's new and exciting....am I sacrificing something more important? Or is part of me hanging on to the old just coz it's good, safe and confirmed? I wonder what it is that I really want...

Edit: In addition to all this, I feel that I don't have much emotions these days...at most..I can obviously feel anger...but I rarely truly feel happy....i feel cold...whatever happens...it is only for the moment...it doesn't last...i feel that i've gone back to being 'batu'....the rock who feels nothing except anger. And that worries me...I should be feeling so much more. I want to be happy...but I can't...I take out my anger on my innocent friends..esp the Capt....and the rest are stuck in between...and when I get angry...it's for no apparent reason other that I'm not happy with my life...so yea..pretty shitty...i feel like drinking...but i can't....not just for this...i need to control it...what the heck is going on......

All this emotional baggage is wrecking havoc with my body...I lost over 1 kg in the last 2 weeks...but I got more pimples and white hair -_-||. Nowadays I also get a lot of food cravings but bcoz I don't feed the cravings, I don't eat much dinner and sorta starve till lunch the next day, coz that's when I can decide what to eat with CY and Henry. What do i crave for? Here's the updated list:
- BBQ stingray with sambal
- smoked chicken / BBQ chicken wings
- takoyaki
- beef/lamb kebab (the type in the Lebanese bread)
- bakulong (something like pickled mango or similar fruit)
- shepherd's pie..or something with mashed potatoes and meat!
- salad with bacon/cold cuts, potatoes...

Damm, just made myself hungry..*tummy rumbles* And of coz, when I feel frustrated and moody as I do now but don't know why...I feel like drinking....to forget about stuff...but I know it's not good to depend on alcohol. Which is why I will go and watch some movie after this. Probably Las Vegas season 1 or Van Wilder: Rise of Taj or Hairspray. Something to distract me.

Before I forget, Michael and Burger are now in KLIA, waiting for their Royal Dutch Airlines flight to Amsterdam and then to Brussels, Belgium. Their ultimate destination is Leuven, Belgium. They were accepted as Software and Research Engineers (or something like that) with Materialise, which is a software company based in Belgium. They're going to Leuven for 3 months training and will come back to work in KL. So yea, pretty good huH? Getting to go to EUROPE, all expenses paid trip, allowance given etc, good pay. Damm! Haha...but I'm not really keen on the job..I'm a crappy engineering student..most ppl think I'm a business student..or would be better off as. So yea, I probably would end up in a business job in the future...hey..I'm keen on sales engineer post! Anyway..all the best to them...hope they have a great trip ..and they learn lots...experience the European life and come back safely ;) For more details and to keep updated on their adventures, u can check Mike's blog.

So hey..long emo ramble from me today....but guess I feel better now...didn't have anyone to talk to just now..so...yea..let it all out here i guess. Btw, check out my deviantart, have updated some new pics. So, till next time!

They say this pic makes me look slimmer and like a giant but i think it's rather emo, so suits me now.

Friends 4ever: Graduation

2007-08-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

14th August 2007, a meaningful day for a lot of ppl. Not only was it my mum and Uncle's birthday (oh no, i just realized I forgot to wish my uncle a happy birthday! -_-||), it was also Swinburne's Graduation. Most of Michael's classmates graduated and with some others I know:

Serena (Bach. of Multimedia)
Henry (Bach. of Engineering, R&M, 2nd class lower honours)
Burger (Bach. of Engineering, E&CS, 1st class)
Dian (Bach. of Multimedia)
Ngee Khiong (Master of Multimedia)

Congratulations to all of them! I did go to the ceremony at Dewan Undangan Negeri with Mike, CY and Siaw Hui. We had to wake up early and we got to ride in a Toyota Wish!..Hahah..my 1st time le! Anyway, Henry had gotten us all tickets and we were supposed to be his family for the day. It was interesting to see the people we know all dressed up and looking like extras from a Harry Potter movie without wands. The lecturers were also in fancier looking robes and hats (though some looked funny..ehhe). Of course, the business students were crowded in the main lobby while the engineering students who were significantly outnumbered hung around outside the robing room. I think there were less than 20 engineering graduates.

Before the start of the ceremony, we took a lot of pics with the people we knew. I also ended up as Henry's personal photographer as he went around taking pics with the lecturers and some girls -_-||. For the actual ceremony, it was rather formal with a very long speech on behalf of the Chief Minister who couldn't make it. The only interesting thing was the very HEAVY-looking mace Dr. Dennis was carrying in the procession. Then of course, we were eager to see how many graduates we actually knew, and we clapped as loudly as we could for them. There was one lady who got a Doctor of Philosophy in Civil Engineering from Swinburne Melbourne though. Wow.

I must say though, I'm really proud of my friends and their achievements. I will definitely miss them, though I may have only gotten to know some of them better in the past semester. But they're really great and caring friends and I wish them all the best. Hope we can continue to keep in touch and stay friends always. :D

Burger with the girls of E& CS, Siaw Hui, CY and me! we got him the bouquet of his fave piggies

Don't we look like Serena's parents? haha, esp with Mike's new specs

As the supposed parents of Henry for the day, though none of us actually cried

CY and I with Dr. Chua, our FYP supervisor in his doctor's robes, lol

Capt. Henry reunited with his Black Pearl which we got for his graduation present. May there always be a wind at your back, Captain!

A preview of next year's graduation, with Mike in Henry's robes

Tag No.2

2007-08-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

Here's the 2nd tag from Serena which is very very long :P. Firstly I'm supposed to list down 20 friends...wonder if I can think of that many..ahha....oh..turns out it's quite ok...don't b insulted if your name is not here...this is just the first 20 I could think of at the moment.

1. Michael FV
2. Serena
3. Jenny
4. Ching Yi
5. Henry W
6. Lyndia
7. Vicky
8. Linda
9. Sun Sun
10. Cindy
11. Elfira
12. Ying Yi
13. Esther
14. Yi Chan
15. Chiet
16. Stephen
17. Alex K
18. Siaw Hui
19. Burger
20. Kok Choong

How did you meet 14? (Yi Chan)
During Foundation, when we were in the same class. But we only got to know each other during rehearsals for Orientation Night...hahaha..

What would you do if you had never met 1? (Michael FV)
Ah, what a big question huh? Probably my temper wouldn't have cooled down so much and I wouldn't have been this happy gua. And I might not have met all these other friends too.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated you? (Sun Sun and Kok Choong)
Both are totally devoted to their own partners and KC and I are not each other's type at all! Plus I highly doubt Sun would ever turn out to like girls.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (Lyndia and Alex K)
Alex has a gf already but I don't think he'd be a good fit for Lyndia either. Haha...

Describe no 3.. (Jenny)
She can be very loud but is a perfectionist at heart. Good at Soo Bahk Do (hope i spelled it correctly a!) and DIY things.

Do you think 8 is attractive? (Linda)
Of coz she is, she's cute and has a heart of gold :D

Do you know anything about no. 12's family? (Ying Yi)
Her dad's a lawyer and her mum is a housewife? Has a younger bro and sis.

Tell me something about 7.. (Vicky)
One of the craziest gals I've ever met and she would probably admit this too. But she's one of my best friends from young, though we had a minor feud when in Pri.1 over someone stupid. Former tomboy into a very feminine girl now ;)

What is no 18's favourite? (Siaw Hui)
Hmmm...I think it's either sleeping or watching series/movies. Hahah...that's what I've heard

What languange does 15 speak? (Chiet)
Mostly Chinese...coz when he speaks English, he can get teased by us since he's from Brunei. Aww..but it's funny..hehe

Who is 19 going out with? (Burger)
No one at the moment, though he tends to joke about guys. LOL

How old is 16 now? (Stephen)
Come October, he will be the same age as me!...Tho he's an apek at heart..ahaha..jk jk

When was the last time you talked to 13? (Esther)
Hmm..face to face was probably last year? Online was last month i think, since my cousin is a busy pre-med student.

Who is 2's favourite singer? (Serena)
Definitely Stephanie Sun Yan Zi!!!...

Would you date 4? (Ching Yi)
Hahhaa....if I become lesbian...why not? She's a nice girl too...

Would you date no. 17? (Alex K)
Nah...he's got a gf..and I'm more than happy with my own bf :D

Is 15 single? (Chiet)
NOOO!! He's been happily unavailable for the past 3 years..hehe

What is no 10's last name? (Cindy)
Goh. Our famous, smart and pretty (probably the perfect package) Ms. Goh.

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? (Elfira)
Hhahaa...i keep ending up with girls. As usual, she's also not single...so I think this is highly unlikely to happen, we're both very straight.

Which school does 3 goes to? (Jenny)
Swinburne University for the past I duno how many years and is currently teaching part-time.

Where does 6 live? (Lyndia)
She's currently in Perth, but when in Kuching, she lives near Jalan Song or sometimes at Tabuan Jaya.

What is your favourite thing about no. 5? (Henry W)
He's a very good and loyal friend who can come up with all sorts of ideas which can be either interesting, funny or totally unacceptable (in more than one way at times). Despite his appearance, he's a caring guy for his friends in need.

As usual, I can't think of anyone who would actually do the tag..so yeah...it stops here..LOL...so kolien

Tag No.1

2007-08-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

Serena tagged me twice and so, here's the first one, which is much shorter!

5 things found in my bag (also sch bag):
a. house key
b. wallet
c. handphone
d. water bottle
e. tissue paper

5 things found in my wallet:
a. money
b. photos
c. receipt
d. cards
e. coins

5 favorite things in my room:
a. my bed
b. my book shelves
c. my closet
d. my desk
e. my presents

5 things I've always wanted to do:
a. go to all the Disneylands
b. travel to the places I like at my own pace like Taiwan, Japan, Hawaii, Europe
c. graduate and get a job I'm interested in
d. open my own restaurant/cafe or events mgmt company
e. have a happy life

5 things I am currently into:
a. reading
b. movies
c. music
d. Mahjong
e. Monopoly

I won't tag anyone, coz I don't know anyone who would actually do it for me :P

Summer Vacation but not Quite

2007-07-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

Once again, it's been a month since I last updated. And what have I been up to in this time? Let's see:
- exams (1 of which sucked BIG time :P)
- finished up last project of the earlier mentioned sucky subject, in 2nd week of holidays (BLEK)
- went to KL for a week with Mike for a real holiday
- got and FINISHED 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows'!
- learnt how to play RISK
- got my results :P
- doing FYP in school

So yup, some of us finished our project in the 2nd week of holidays so it was pretty crappy for us :P. And just a few days later, Mike and I went to KL to shop till we dropped, almost literally. Haha! Spent a lot of money on books (no surprise there!), Pirates stuff, some clothes and well, some small stuff can add up to a lot of money. My total expenditure (excluding airfare) was just below RM1000. Luckily we stayed at my uncle's place so we saved on accommodation. An event of interest was that we went to watch 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' at GSC 1 Utama and the film got burnt just as the exciting part started(I never experienced this even in Kuching -_-||) but they were very efficient and replaced the film within 10 minutes. I went to the toilet in the 10 mins and came back to see that I'd missed some of the crucial action :P. Ah well, it was just RM6 (coz b4 12pm) and the cinema was really very nice, with yummy caramel popcorn tho I don't really like caramel. Oh and we had to sit through 1/2 hour of trailers and advertisements.

with Samuel, my cousin whose family we stayed with

The Pirates of the Caribbean stuff that I got were actually pretty hard to find, since almost everywhere just focused on Spiderman 3 and Transformers. Even Harry Potter stuff, besides the 6 books were rare, unlike before. Anyway, there was this really really cool one, a model of the Black Pearl that stretches out to 2 1/2 feet, which is HUGE. There are lots of hidden features like springtraps, compartments and etc. So I got 1 file with Will Turner's face on it, 1 DVD file also with Will, and a miniature model of Will. Obviously you can tell which character I like best. But I also bought a promo set of posters from the first Pirates movie and the book "Bring Me That Horizon: The Making of the POTC" which shows the making of the whole trilogy. Basically my whole trip was lots and lots of walking around shopping centers and spending lots of time around books, toys and CDs/DVDs.

the Black Pearl boat that stretches out to 2 1/2 feet

On the 21st of July, the day all Harry Potter fans were anxiously waiting for, I woke up early to go get the final book. But I wasn't crazy enuf to wake up too early so I reached Popular in Tun Jugah at 8 since I had to be in school by 9.30am anyway. Geez it reminded me of my KL trip when we had to follow my uncle to work at KLCC so we were there by 8am where the shops were still closed. I met some Swinburne ppl who were there by 6.30am -_-|| and I read the newspaper that there was quite a few ppl who rushed in at 7.01am. When I was there, I saw 2 girls outside already a quarter thru the book. Anyway, I got a free Harry Potter/Popular shirt in a Bloomsbury (the publisher) paper bag and a contest form and of coz the BOOK~! It was the adult version coz Mindy and the others thought I'm an adult already. If it wasn't for them, I probably wouldn't have bought it till much later when the price dropped. Actually the price has already dropped from RM109.90 to RM83. Tesco and Carrefour started selling the books at Rm69.90 and thus 3 big bookstores, MPH, Popular and Times refused to sell the books, except those who'd already pre-booked. So now they're starting to sell it again but at a 20-25% discount.

I read a few pages in the morning but spent 2 hours plus in the afternoon b4 church. Mike and I then spent a very quiet Saturday night just reading as we were really keen to find out what happened. I read the actual book and Mike read the pdf version. Anyway, I spent about 8 hours in total reading and finally finished it at 5am. What to do, it was exciting and I just had to find out what happened before some idiot spoiled it for me.

As for results, as expected that stupid subject CSE got me a P!!!..Grrrrr.. but I did fairly ok for the rest of the subjects. D for Photonics and also FYP and HD for Eng. Mgmt 2. But at least the GPA for FYP was 4.0 and there was a slight improvement in my semester GPA and CGPA.

I've been going back to school with CY to do our FYP project. It's quite stressful in the sense that we're still not very sure on what to do as we have quite a few options to try. Also, it's not like I'm such an expert on electronics :P. So have to be very cautious before making any big decisions. So, with the first 2 weeks gone, 1 week of holiday in KL...then busy doing FYP, helping to organize Rotaract's installation, doing my dad's documents and maybe his website....it really doesn't feel like a holiday except maybe at night. But I really want to have a weekend trip with my friends tho, especially since a lot of them will be graduating soon :P. And I have so many movies/series to watch, but not much time. Haiz....I'll just have to try lo...

Turning 22

2007-06-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

Another year has passed and I'm now 22. Time really flies huh? Lol. Anyway, this year it was really a rush as all of us had so many things to due during these 2 weeks. CSE students even had to go back to sch on Friday, a public holiday to sit for a CSE test :P. Then that night, Mike brought me for dinner at Junk and then to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3! Which by the way, was really really good! All those Jack Sparrows! Unfortunately, when buying the DVD for my mum earlier, I accidentally saw one of the important parts and Henry told me something about the ending :P which I didn't really believe. Luckily I didn't bet with him on that or I'd have to buy him the Pirates watch. I bought the RM10 popcorn special just to get the Pirates car sticker.. hehe.

On my bday itself, I woke up early to help prepare the food and etc, but spent most of the time working on my FYP semester report :P And my mum kept wondering why I was glued to the computer n not helping her. Whatever she asked me to do, I'd nod and say yes, then forget about it or just do it halfway. What to do, if I told her I had 2 reports, 2 presentations and 1 assignment due next week, she probably won't let me have the party. Haha! Even my cat had taken a bath..coz he was too smelly already.

Around 5, I went to pick up my chocolate cake from Secret Recipe where I had to wait for quite a long time, since they hadn't written the message yet and basically service is still pretty crappy lo. There is no real order of lining up, the employees still lo lo...but it's also quite sad I had to go order my own cake...ahha..the employee taking my order asked what msg I wanted so I said "Happy Birthday Andrea", then she asked my name and I was quite embarrassed, "Andrea also." then she laughed :P

Anyway, it was pretty much a rush to get ready and take bath. Geez, after taking bath, I still felt all hot and sweaty and it didn't help that the living room air cond didn't seem to work. Surprisingly everyone was early or pretty much on time. I felt really stressed out coz everytime someone came my grandma would go "Girl, someone's here!". I mean, of coz I know but I'm busy serving other ppl drinks etc....and they kept nagging me to ask everyone to eat but they were all busy playing Big 2 or mahjong...so wat to do right? BLEK.. the cocktail bar idea was cool but too tiring coz it was supposed to be my bro who did it, but of coz I ended up doing it coz he didn't help n was too messy :P plus it didn't help with him and my dad complaining about everything I did though it was according to recipe...haiz...all the nagging nearly pissed me off

But the presents I got, made up for everything! Here's a list of the loot I bagged:
- Pink and silver pendant on silver necklace from Chiet, Yi Chan, Thong Wei, Cheryl, Stephen, Lydia
- Round pink cow lamp from Aileen, Dian, Hudy, Kwang Houg, Siaw Yen, Alex
- 2 sets of my photos framed from my uncle Jeffrey
- black Nike handbag from Mike
- pig and pre-order of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows! from Serena, Jenny, Chime, Kevin, Alex, Yang Yaw, Mindy
- Jack Sparrow figurine with motion-activated sound!!! from Mike, Henry, Ching Yi, Seng Hock, Dominic, Burger and Siew Hie

The framed collections of some of my photographs from my uncle.

The rest of the presents: Captain Jack Sparrow, cow lamp, pre-order slip of Harry Potter 7, pig, pink necklace and black Nike bag :D

Everything was really really cool and just my style....so I was really happy with everything....till I overheated the next day. Lol!! I had diarrhoea and was rather nauseous from the next afternoon. After finishing my semester report and slides and sending them off to CY, I kinda conked out till 8pm for a dinner of plain porridge. I stayed on the couch watching Love Actually with my mum n shivering -_-||| despite the blankets. It got worse much later when Mike came and he had to take care of me with a wet compress, medicine and water. Later he had to help me up to my room and tuck me in with all my water, compress and medicine all nearby. Of coz he ended up exploring my very messy room and all the books but oh well.

All the yummy food which I myself didn't get to eat too much of coz I was so busy running around! Clockwise from left (9 o'clock): Green salad, potato salad, baked chicken wings, fried wan tan, tuna pasta bake, fried bee hoon, watermelon, pieces of fried chicken breast, and tuna spread.

Captain Jack Sparrow and his 2nd love, alcohol/rum (his 1st love being the Black Pearl, or himself?)

My 1st foray in sepia and black & white

2007-05-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

As I'm still swamped with lots of various things, I'll just post some pics of my trip to San Diego as promised in the last post. On the last day of my trip in Feb, I 'discovered' the sepia and black and white modes. -_-||| It's my uncle's camera anyway...so was still a bit new to some of the functions...So, it all started from here at Seaport Village, which is a very nice and clean version of Kuching Waterfront. There were lots of ppl just hanging out, enjoying the live band (there were even ppl dancing along..so cute), walking their dogs, story-tellers, fortune tellers, portrait artists, kids running around, bbqs, ppl just lying around on the grass. Everything just seemed really relaxed and made for interesting subjects. I guess it's coz that was Superbowl weekend. Great timing huh? :D

It took forever to get this shot as there were lots and lots of ppl walking past just as I was taking it :P

This may look like the kid posed for me, but I just happened to spot him and another kid playing around the area. I thought this was a great contrast shot, between the kid and the tree, though you can't really notice the kid at first.

Another candid shot of 2 more boys feeding the seagulls. So hard to take this coz I didn't want to use flash and startle the 'models'...and the birds kept moving...

In addition to the 'relaxed' culture, I like taking photos in US bcoz of their clear blue skies! Such a nice colour and not a cloud in sight.

This looks rather gloomy n barren, doesn't it..hehe..but i like the play of light and shadow :P

What Holiday?!!

2007-04-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

Aw man, I seriously take forever to update! BLame it on the workload of a final year student...and also..heh..low stamina...seriously feel so tired each day esp on Mondays n Tuesdays when I have to climb the stairs all the way to the 8th floor :P Anyway, it's now mid-sem break, but it sure doesn't feel like it. Yeah, we don't have to go for classes, but there are lots of extra things. Here's how my schedule looked like for this week:

Saturday, 14th April: Eng. Mgmt 2 tutorial, then rush up to CUltural Village for Rotaract's Amazing Hunt 3. LUckily, all I had to do was man the start/finish line and watch out for any injured participants. Got to go to Permai and also Buntal for yummy seafood dinner with friends. BUt all that driving wore me out..I've never driven up n down to Damai b4...only drove down once when DRR Zack was here...ahha...

Monday: Early in the morning, went up to SK Batu Kitang, a rural sch on the way to Bau, to officially handover the books that we bought with the proceeds of Rotaract's movie premiere. We each took a group of Pri 5-6 kids and read Enid Blyton short stories to them. Had to translate each paragraph into BM..and my BM is damm rusty!...i couldn't remember wat's drown...n had to ask Edison :P Oh! And we had our 'Mahjong Club' Installation bbq...lol

Tuesday: RUsh to finish up Mgmt 2 summary report on Coca-Cola Company. What summary? It was 18 pages!! Lol!!..But another group had 29 pages...so it's ok, lecturer says it's fine anyhow. Replacement Mgmt class that nite, since he won't b here for 26th n 28th of April.

Wednesday: Re-emailed companies in Singapore to find out about the Texas Instrument Evaluation Module for my FYP project. Rushed to sch to attend Swinburne's 2nd World Sch Debate Championship Training Session....as I was one of the adjudicators...Since there was also the 1st prelim round...it ended around 7 plus....-_-||

Thursday: Spent the whole day adjudicating 4 more prelim rounds, and it was mostly the same teams, Green Rd A and B, Lodge A. Later at night, I still had to give tuition.....

Friday: Last day of debate competition..Lodge A vs Green A for the final...which was very very close. It also ended around 7, then we went off to have dinner with CY and Henry...then mahjong!...though we had a Photonics test on Monday, we were too tired to study...

Saturday: Mgmt 2 tutorial...which I thought of skipping since I was still tired out. Looking back, I should have, so that I could study more in the afternoon. So what the heck am I doing now, updating??..Eek.

Seriously, my initial plan for the holiday was to spend more time n effort on my final year project, to study for the Photonics test, and to revise the other 2 subjects. But no...none of that was done. Aww man... Anyway, while at Sarawak Cultural VIllage, though I was stuck at the restaurant, I still ended up taking a lot of pics of the same stuff....ahhaah...mostly the mountain view, since it changed over the hours from totally covered with clouds...to less clouds. Heh. And of course, pics from the beach. Oh and there was this couple...who were taking wedding photos at SCV...not sure if they were a couple or just models...

Testing out the Color Accent mode on this really interesting bush/tree

Thought this made for a good detail shot..hehe..plus the colours r good

One of my fave shots from that afternoon, and this was without flash, so lucky it wasn't blurred. Btw, it was someone lifting up her skirt, not the wind..ehhe

I liked how clear everything came out, esp the reflections

If u haven't noticed, I seem to like taking pics with a blue n green theme....

Kinda like nature photography so here I am, testing the digital zoom mode..

Awww..just like one of those romantic postcards/posters...Guess who they are.. ;)

Somehow this doesn't seem very 'real' to me...unearthly..mayb Mars? Haha..probably due to sepia mode

And my final picture of the day! After about 300 pics... heh -_-|||

And as if u can't tell...I seem to be so into photography now...the main reason is coz...I have a new toy...the Canon IXUS 850IS....which costs RM1499.....and looks like this:

So yeah..i guess u'll be seeing more photos from me soon..lol. Any comments..do let me know :D

Photo Courtesy of Serena Sim

Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End Trailer

2007-03-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

The trailer I've been eagerly waiting for! And there was even a special premiere of the trailer in the US, but fans had to apply and win tickets to go. Of coz, besides the trailer, they showed the 1st Pirates movie and had some games and prizes. Anyway, the trailer is EXCITING!!! There's so much going on, like the 2nd movie...but there's also some really really cool stuff....got me all excited and gave me goosebumps just imagining how grand it could be...So, do check it out! Besides the trailer, there's supposed to be some other videos of Pirates showing on the special player.

DOn't forget, this is an exclusive peek! Other websites (besides Disney.com) will only show the trailer from the 21st of March. Hehehe...

Gone Missing?

2007-02-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

No, don't worry, I haven't gone missing. Just seems like it, from the lack of updates on my blog. This always happens! I'm such a procrastinator, always putting off updates ....blame it on my lousy time management, as well as a lack of an interesting life. Haha...i'm really a boring person... :P

Anyway, let me update u on what I've been up to recently. I finally got to go to TAIWAN!! Whooopee! Stopped over for a nite (about 12 hrs) before heading off to LA. Went to Xi Men Ding and one of the night markets, as they're close to my hotel. Unfortunately, didn't bring my camera as my dad said not to bring anything. Darn!....Ah well, at least my uncle went there b4 and took some pics, so will just 'steal' them from him. Haha!..... It was a bit chilly..around 14 celcius.

And yes,...i really really enjoyed myself there...all the yummy and surprisingly cheap food......*drools* the BEST Taiwan sausage i've had costs NT30 (RM3) each..and they're huge...n also comes with many sauces/flavours but the honey one i tried (coz din really understand..ahha!) was incredible!.....Also had or chien/oyster omelette Taiwanese style...has more egg than ours and looks like a pizza slice. Covered in something like chili sauce but isn't spicy at all and also kangkong i think. Quite nice....Of coz...had my red bubble tea....which was a big cup for NT30 as well....probably the reason y i couldn't sleep that nite..ahha....The only thing I missed...and was the main thing i wanted to try was wuo tie/dumplings!...ARRRGGHHH...i was too full to get them...coz for NT30 u can get 7 dumplings!!!!...where can u get that kind of price in Kuching???

Bsides the food, Xi Men Ding is just a really cool place for ppl our age to hang out...everyone's so trendy...tho it's winter...but it's not the Ah lien type of trendy...very classy...kinda like Singaporean style...and there are all these cool shops...clothes, cute stuff...arcades...etc...from pretty cheap to more upscale type of prices too....a lot of interesting restaurants too. Saw one place where u sit in swings for seats....ahah...It's also pretty big...with different streets..so the street vendors selling all the yummy food could hide from the police..lol...

How about my US trip? Well...wasn't as fun as Taiwan...haha...coz helping my dad with business most of the days in San Diego, California. It's 4 hrs from LA...and when we got there, it was pretty cold, around 11-12 celcius but on our last day it was pretty warm already like 16 celcius. We did have some nice food too..like SALADS..yumm...really miss the Asian Chopped chicken salad we had at this place called Dakota's. It looks fancy but it's also the best American casual dining place in San Diego as voted by the public. We went there 3 times coz my dad liked the salad so much. They have realllyyy nice beef prime rib too....and their babyback pork ribs are huge...tho it was only half-rack. Darn it...why didn't I take any pictures of all that yummy food...Issshhh....but all food portions in the US are big....and they let u have refills of ur soft drink...tho one was enuff for me -_-||

San Diego also has this area like Xi Men Ding, but it's mostly restaurants, pubs...etc, called Gaslamp Quarter. Mostly historical buildings and simulated gaslamps. Behind the hotel where the function was held, there's this tourist area called Seaport Village. It's like our Waterfront, but much nicer. Very clean and just opposite is a naval base i think, coz of the aircraft carriers to be seen. There are lots of places to eat and everytime my dad just HAD to order clam chowder! Kind of a specialty there. Also many interesting shops, each with different specialities, like one shop had all types of mugs...another sells hot sauces...all alcohol related products....and so on. Quite cool to wander around looking at everything. Oh and they sell this potato twist...i tot it was like McD's Curly fries.....who knows it came out like this....

It's probably 1 whole potato...and oily...

I was actually supposed to stop over another day in Taiwan on the trip back...so that I could go see Taipei 101, Xi Men Ding again (to take pics and get my dumplings)....but had to cancel it as my grandpa on my dad's side passed away on the last day we were in San Diego. It's ok...will make sure I go to Taiwan again sometime soon!...

Anyway, these few months..i have 2 new obsessions.....reading manga...and cooking blogs! Kinda surprised that I've become so addicted to manga but it's mostly coz of Fruits Basket. I'm mostly interested in shoujo manga, typical girl huh? And cooking blogs...there are some really good ones....with simple recipes...and some great pics....makes me feel like cooking....and also makes me drool... :P

So in my next posts...I'll post up some pics i took on my trip....and review my favourite mangas...and my fave cooking blogs...ahahah.....See u until then....Happy Chinese New YEar....where's my angpow? JK!

Quick update: Guess who I met??

2006-12-31T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hahah...talk about procrastinating right? I suppose everyone would think my blog is more or less dead. I'm such a lazy blogger....but seriously, the main problem is that I was cut off from internet for the last 2-3 months. Firstly, my laptop couldn't connect to internet AT ALL, and my bro's CPU was sadly sot-sot at the same time. So, I had to depend on sch and Michael's house :P I recently just packed off my printer and laptop for repairs which are really going to cost me. If the printer's warranty can't hold up, the amount to repair it is enuff to buy a new one! And all this while I've been asking for original Epson ink, and guess what? They've been giving me pirated one :P :P!! SO anyway, was using my bro's computer...but have to wait for opportunities where he's away or sleeping or etc :P

Ok, I know i'm soooo loso lar. Straight to the point then. Most of my relatives on my mum's side came back for Christmas, my 2 uncles with the cousins and aunties came back from KL. Though it was rather a busy week, since 2 families coming on different days, the kch uncle and cousin flying off to HK and back again, and my dad as well. So many airport trips. But on the 22nd of December, Michael and I went shopping around Crowne Square and Hock Lee for my 'Christmas outfit' (lol...sounds so...but hey, due to mum's requests :P) and we decided to eat at the famous chicken rice shop behind Hock Lee. Tho i'm not a big fan of chix rice, but Mike's never tried that shop b4..so..

Anyway, there we were, waiting for our chicken rice to come and I was just looking around. And accidentally saw SOMEONE. I was like ".........*lightbulb flickers on*..Oh My God!!" and Mike got shocked and went "what what? What happened?" I was so excited and I pointed over to the direction of the person and explained. Guess who I saw??

Nicholas Teo (Zhang Tung Liang)

Yes, I'm not kidding. Nicholas Teo of 'Huang Hun' (the sad song that won him Astro Talent Quest) fame and is now a pretty famous celebrity in Taiwan, and basically a lot of Asia. He's currently starring in 'Wei Xiao Pasta' which will also be shown on Astro AEC(Channel 19) soon. Originally, I wasn't that crazy about him when he first started out, but I'd just finished watching Wei Xiao Pasta so...u know....ahaahaha....Oh yea, I guess most ppl would know he's from Kuching too. Former student of Chung Hua Middle Sch no.1

Basically, I was excited bcoz...well...how often do u meet a celebrity in real life? Fine, ppl might say he's a small potato..but hey...still more famous than us rite? And he's eating chicken rice! -_-||| and drives a Kelisa. HAhahaha...anyway i was like..."I think that's him..but i'm worried i recognized wrongly" so I got Michael to reconfirm discreetly and I also whipped out my phone to call my cousin, who also happens to be Nicholas's friend. And YES, it REALLY was him! I was so excited/panicky that I kinda lost my appetite. Michael was asking if i wanted to go over n ask him for autograph or something, but I was soooo paiseh larr...so worried I'd be disturbing his peace n also his lunch. LOL.

So there I was, worrying n fidgeting and kept looking over (until his friends noticed, i think!) and finally he finished eating. I dragged Michael over and started:
(all in Mandarin)
Me: Er..excuse me, are you Nicholas Teo?
Guy: Er...yes (but I heard it as NO)
Me: oh, sorry to disturb then...*starting to turn away*
Guy: No no, I am him.
Me: Oh!!! Err...can I take a pic with you? *indicating hp*
Nicholas: Er..I'm sorry but I'm not allowed to use hp and today my image isn't that good. (dressed quite simply and with baseball cap)
Me: Oh,....then nvm....
Nicholas: Very very very very paiseh and sorry!
Me: It's ok, btw...your Wei Xiao Pasta is nice!
Nicholas: Thanks...and very sorry ya.

And I went back to my seat with Michael....a bit disappointed, but decidedly more relieved and calmer. By then part of our chicken rice had already been cleared! hahaha..luckily Michael had already finished his, but left mine lor. It was ok, coz I didn't really feel like eating..couldn't handle it..lolz....But basically, it was a weird experience, but he was pretty nice, very apologetic about not being able to fulfil my request. Never mind..ahaha..coz my cousin is his friend..and yea...he promised to let me know the next time he meets up with him! ^_^ Seriously, he's probably the only celebrity we'll be able to bump into in Kuching like this. Tat's coz he's from Kuching himself, and so he'll just be hanging out normally. if it's a real Taiwanese star or something, I doubt they'll be so easy to spot, or that they'll be allowed out like tat.

I guess I was lucky to spot him also, coz I'd already noticed his friends b4 he arrived, coz their fashion style was slightly more outstanding that the other customers around. Not too flashy, but not exactly office wear or casual wear like mine. Lolz....what an experience and a story to tell everyone that nite...hopefully I didn't make too big a fool of myself..heeez...but...wished I'd gotten a pic of him...even his back might b ok...but who would believe that's him rite?

Okay....got to go get ready for tonite's bbq dinner at Mike's friends' house. Hope everyone will have a good New Yr's Eve celebration, stay safe! I promise to do a review of the year soon..if ppl are interested anyway..lol...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! May it bring more happiness and success to you all! May we all be healthy and safe too ^_^

Just a rant bout a crappy person : ME

2006-11-08T10:04:00.000+08:00

Just feeling rather moody n depressed after what happened last nite. Kinda woke me up and got me thinking about how I am and how I treat ppl. This usually happens after similar incidents. Once again, I realize I am still pretty much the same as b4. Not much change, even tho I've tried. Just like the saying, 'leopard can't change its spots' or 'you can't teach an old dog new tricks'.So what's this stuff about myself that I don't like? Here's a list.

Things I Don't Like About Myself:
- Being arrogant and thinking too highly of myself compared to my actual abilities

- Depending too much on others (80% of my DSP understanding is from copying Mike's old labs) and not doing enough to stop the dependence

- Get stepped on by certain 'geniuses' and still not voice it out, even though i'd normally snap the head off someone who'd dare bully me...

- Being lazy and wasting time playing games/sleeping/watching tv when I know there's a lot to do...and exams are in a month

- Not understanding a whole semester's worth of a subject...and not take the time to work on it

- Get angry at something small easily ...and take it out on innocent ppl who love me...

- Treat those around me badly...but always expect them to do stuff for me..or help me...

I think i can find reasons why I behave like this...but I think that's just finding excuses to forgive myself. Should just stop trying to explain all this and try to work harder on it...but it is very depressing to realize, that I'm still this crappy person who's pretty much useless. Wonder why I still have friends, and such a loving boyfriend, all of which i really don't deserve. *sigh*

Possible Reasons:
- depressed by current family situation: damm bratty brother i have whose ego is the size of KLCC Twin Towers, and thinks he's God's gift to girls (as if) and parents? Must have gotten my 'take it out on others tho it's not their fault' attitude from them....guess i got used to being such a easy target...all that pent-up depression from being at home...with all the crap that's going on btwn all of them....tho i guess i'm not helping much either

- i'm such an idiot...for not knowing more...for not being up to par as the geniuses in my class..

- it's currently that time of the month for me....and I do tend to feel easily angered/depressed and have serious mood swings during this time..

Last nite was a whole new level tho....felt really sad, upset..frustrated b4 i tried to sleep...like i had to break something, cut something...or scream my head off....kinda cooled off after using my currently-long fingernails to use..don't ask

Now in DSP lab...supposedly doing lab..but in btwn typing Matlab commands, I'm chatting in Gmail, downloading manga and updating this very depressing entry. Not to mention, I'm feeling pretty tired out....Haiz. I don't know what I'm doing now. Going to have to work hard, not only in studies, but...to try and fix myself. If only we were more like TV games, if you're not happy with your character's development, you can always start a new game. Or if we're a computer, we can uninstall and install new software. But life...really isn't easy.

Videos for every mood

2006-08-23T12:35:00.000+08:00

Interesting quote:
'Mosquitoes only come out from 6pm till 7am. So before and after that, don't need to worry bout mosquitoes' - My grandma
Despite lots of evidence from me, she still refuses to believe otherwise. But then, it could just be me, having super sweet blood or something, for I always attract mosquitoes. Mosquitoes suck big time. Hey..a pun! -_-|||

Been having some weird moodswings lately, and no it's not that time of the month. For example, on Sunday night, i was feeling pretty happy with life and the next afternoon, I was so depressed for no reason at all! Hmm...could it have been Monday blues? Still feeling the after effects though. Anyway, just wanted to post up some videos that I like and they're so different from one another, just like my moods. One for every mood i guess.

Happy mood - David Tao & Jolin Tsai's "Marry Me Today (Qing Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo)"

Ever since I first heard this song, just really enjoyed it. I was surprised to hear that David asked Jolin to sing with him, but hey, it somehow worked out well. So I listen to it everyday and it just puts a smile on my face. I guess it makes me feel all bubbly and cheerful, just like the song. The MTV's really cute too, especially with all those people having to hold all sorts of awkward poses. But another happy song is also David Tao's "Unforgettable (Wang Bu Liao)"

Sentimental/Sad song - Harlem Yu's "Silently (Jing Jing De)"

This is the main theme to Vic Zhou (Zai Zai of F4)'s new series, together with this Korean girl who I think is pretty famous, but I have no idea who. It really fits the storyline of the series but it's also rather sad. Like the simple melody, reminds me of a music box.

There's also Wang Lee Hom's "Finally" which is an amazing 9 minutes long MTV. I've never heard the song b4 this, but the MTV's pretty good. Rather like a short movie on its own.

Upbeat/party song - Jolin Tsai's "Mr Q"

Though I am not really a party girl type, but sometimes there are songs that make me just wanna break out in some silly dance moves or just bop along. Lol...imagine that huh? This is one song, though I'm including it mainly coz there's eye-candy for both guys and gals. Guys will of coz drool over Jolin who looks better than ever, and the ever cute Edison Chen. Sigh..why are these bad boys so darn good-looking. Oh but he has such a disarming smile! Other party songs of the moment include Christina Aguilera's "Ain't no other man", Nelly Furtado's "Promiscuous Girl" and others. I bet guys love Pussycat Doll's "Buttons" tho.. ;)