2AM - Can't Let You Go, Even If I Die

Though I am primarily a Big Bang fan, I still can appreciate songs from other singers. I've been watching 'We Got Married' Season 2, this Korean reality series where celebrities are paired up as a married couple and they have to carry out missions, stay together, and act like a real couple. In Season 1, my favourite couple was the Joongbo (Hwang Bo and Kim Hyun Joong of SS501) couple. Because of this show, Kim Hyun Joong was cast as Ji Hoo sunbae in the hit Korean drama 'Boys Over Flowers' last year. This season, my fave couple is the Petite/Tidy couple (Ga-In of Brown Eyed Girls and Jo Kwon from 2AM). Their personalities seem rather like the Joongbo couple but with some differences of course. Similarities is that the male of the couple is rather unique in how he does or says things and they seriously nag but they still seem kinda sweet. The girls of both couples are the shyer ones and afraid to initiate things, I think because their partner is from a male idol group and there could be serious backlash from their fanatic fan girls. Difference would be that Jo Kwon can be rather annoying with his constant repetition and feminism, while Hyun Joong was more blur, aloof and a little..weird? Ga-In isn't as domestic as Hwang Bo but she tries, and she's not as independent as Hwang Bo. Makes for good entertainment anyway.

Okay, besides all that, 2AM is the ballad equivalent of 2PM and they were both created by JYP, a very famous producer. He made Rain and Wonder Girls famous...surely this would strike a bell? This is 2AM's new single, and though the MV is well..typical boy band stuff, the lyrics and melody are rather haunting and meaningful I think. Check it out:

Even though I'm young, the pain is the same

Just because I don't know the world very well

Doesn't mean that I don't know pain

Why do you lie, saying it'll be okay?

How will my heart that hurts this much

Be healed so easily?

How will I live without you?

That's why I

CHORUS

Can't let you go, even if I die

How am I suppose to let you go?

Whether you go or leave, fix my heart

If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain

So that I can at least live

I wouldn't be able to live anyway

I can't let you go, even if I die

No matter how much you push me away

I'll hold onto you until the end

So that you won't be able to go anywhere

If you're really going to leave, then lie

That we should meet again tomorrow

That we should meet as we smile

If breaking up wasn't a joke, then I

CHORUS

We went through so much time together

How are you telling me to live by myself now?

I can't do that, I can't

I can't let you go, even if I die

I really can't let you go

How am I suppose to let you go?

I can't let you go

Whether you go or leave, fix my heart

If you can't fix it so that I won't be in pain

So that I can at least live

I wouldn't be able to live anyway

I can't let you go, even if I die

Credit to Leaping

Vainpot

I just read Lin's latest update about changing her hair for CNY, so I thought I'd finally show my new hair, which I also did for CNY. I went back to Kuching last weekend for a close friend's wedding and decided to kill 2 birds with 1 stone by getting my hair done for the dinner as well as for CNY. So, tada, here it is!

I got my hair dyed a brownish-red, don't know what's the exact colour code, but I got it done at my cousin's salon, Eric Salon and I've always been happy with how my hair turns out everytime I go there. I also got treatment done and they set it like this for me. Normally they set my hair slightly differently, but they were trying something new so I quite like it. Okay, to be honest, I think I finally look remotely hot? In the words of Leonard, I look like a woman?! (I have yet to whack him for this). In 'celebration' of looking hot, here are more pics!

Actually, when they first started dyeing my hair, I suddenly got the thought, would it end up looking like Ye Eun's of Wonder Girls? Lo and behold, it did. Check out my much much much prettier and hotter twin..lol

I think I can be forgiven for being vain this time, since there are actually very very few pictures of just me myself and I on this blog. Anyway, I won't look like this everyday, since I am unable to style my hair in the professional way they can. Haha! Okay, to bring me back to the ground and stop being vain, I have to admit one thing....I actually have glasses!...

They are actually 25 degrees for normal use, but most importantly, 25 degrees in the vertical plane to fix my astigmatisme. Why did I get glasses if its only 25 degrees? Well, most people have astigmatisme in the horizontal plane and they can just squint their eyes to focus better, but since my eyes are sooooo unique, mine is in the vertical, so it doesn't change anything if I squint. I'm only supposed to use my glasses mostly in the afternoons when my eyes get more tired or if I'm doing fine detail work. So yeah.

Okay, since I may have scarred some of your eyes, I shall leave you with some REAL hotness..ahahah..well..at least I think so..as well as countless other fan girls..LOL!!

None other than the completely hot but also adorkable TOP/Choi Seung Hyun...

Cotton Candy

I just had to blog about this. Been feeling rather depressed, demotivated and unhappy these days. Mostly about the workload, how there is so much to do, both at work and in my personal life. It sucks having to be the eldest, having to take care of everything :P.

Anyway, this song was just released as a digital single yesterday and I was really expecting it to be trot, considering it's Dae Sung and all. But I was pleasantly surprised to find that it's kinda old school, you know like back in the 60-80's, that type of sweet love song. But like its title and lyrics, the melody just makes you think of simpler times, like days with just the right amount of sunlight and you have all the time in the world to just lie on your back and imagine what those fluffy clouds look like to you etc. Or picnics, a trip to the fair, or just taking a walk hand-in-hand with the guy you like. Haha..actually..stuff I've never really done. But yea, it just gives you that feeling. So i guess it's suitable to lift my mood now.

Enjoy!

And here are the lyrics with translation!

Verse1

따스한 저 햇살과 함께 그대 손을 잡고서

ddaseuhan jeo haessalgwa hamkkae geudae soneul jabgoseo

Holding your hand in the warm sunshine

라 라랄라 노랠 부르며 달콤한 데이트

lalalalla norel bureumyeo dalkomhan daiteu

We sing Lalalala as we go on our sweet date

그대란 마음의 설탕 한스푼

geudaeran maeumeh seoltang han seupoon

One spoon of sugar with your heart

어 느새 구름처럼 커진 내마음

eoneusae kureumcheoreom keojin nae maeum

And before I know it, my heart has become as big as a cloud

Chorus

그 대는 솜사탕 내맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, My heart melts

몽실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

Verse2

불면 날아갈까 손대면 녹을까

bulmyeon naragalkka sondaemyeon nogeulkka

What if I blow and you fly away, what if I touch you and you melt

눈 깜빡 사라지면 너무 아쉬워

nun kkamppak sarajimyeon neomu ashiweo

I’m so disappointed when you disappear with the blink of an eye

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang ibsurae nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, You melt on my lips

살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까

saljjak immachun geudaewa naragabolkka

Should I fly away with you, our lips gently touching

그대는 솜사탕 내 맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, my heart melts

몽 실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

Bridge

코 끝에 간질간질 그대가 좋아서

kokkeutae ganjilganjil geudaega joaseo

The tip of my nose is tingly tingly, because I like you

그대는 솜사탕

geudaeneun somsatang

You’re like cotton candy

Chorus

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang ibsurae nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, You melt on my lips

살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까

saljjak immachun geudaewa naragabolkka

Should I fly away with you, our lips gently touching

그대는 솜사탕 내 맘이 녹아요

geudaeneun somsatang nae mami nogayo

You’re like cotton candy, my heart melts

몽실몽실 그대 보고만 있어도 녹아요

mongshil mongshil geudae bogoman isseodo nogayo

Just looking at your fluffy face makes me melt

녹아요 녹아요

nogayo nogayo

I melt, I melt

Translation Credits: sjay.x @ BBVIP

Big Bang/Boyfriend Quiz Part 2

Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations? Part 2

1. When I buy him clothes as a present and he doesn't like it…

a. TOP: smiles and lies trying to compliment it saying it’s pretty

b. GD: takes my hand and goes to the shopping mall explaining why he must exchange it for his fashion purposes

c. YB: smiles and tries to start a different conversation

d. DS: gets overly excited and exaggerates his thanks

e. SR: wears it on the spot and jumps up and down the sidewalk

It's nice that he'll still try to appreciate the effort though he doesn't like the present. But yea, it'll be better if he can explain neutrally or drop some hints as to what he would actually like. I'd seriously whack GD if he went all high n mighty or insulted about my taste :P

2. When I am jealous due to his relationship with one of the female celebrities on TV

a. TOP: holds my hand.

b. GD: explains logically says its not true… then goes on TV and explains to the world its not true as well.

c. YB: stutters trying to explain continously, then sighs saying he’s sorry

d. DS: laughs and seeings ‘Look at Me GwiSoon’ with my name in it instead

e. SR: Acts cute and says “Are you being jealous right now~!?’ in a cute voice

Yes, GD please do tell the whole world that you don't belong to a girl hotter than me. Haha! But sometimes actions speak louder than words so score for TOP. And Dae Sung singing that song would totally crack me up and make me forget about being jealous.

3. When I’m away from my phone and another guy sends me a text hitting on me

a. TOP: deletes the guys number

b. GD: presses ‘Call’ on the number right away.

c. YB: pretends he didnt see it but gets quiet

d. DS: tells me i got a text and gives me suspicious looks

e. SR: smiles and lets it go infront of me, then goes home and tracks the guy down texting him evil messages

Hahah..it's nice if they're that possessive but I think it'll be a bit too much too. If they're gonna be like that, they have to be upfront about it with me too though, not just with the guy. C'mon, if I were really with one of them, I think it'll be hard for another guy to have a chance..ahha.

4. When he comes to my house without a word but I look like a ‘pain’ (no shower, havent washed hair, sweats, etc etc)

a. TOP: Washes my hair for me

b. GD: Makes me a schedule on ‘how to not be a pain’ and makes me write a written oath that i will never be a ‘pain’ again

c. YB: lies to me and tells me he hasnt washed his hair for 4 days either

d. DS: sits down on my couch like nothings wrong and watches Dorraemon

e. SR: Gets too shocked and scared that he cant even come in the house

I would so kill GD and SR in this case. And OMG...TOP washing my hair..i would totally freak out, but that's really nice of him. Guess it shows that he's willing to still be with you and even touch you! And Dae Sung..though it seems like he's oblivious, but at least he's not running away so it shows that he's with you not coz of your looks.

5. When I get a sickness and must die the next day

a. TOP: treats me like the normal days but never lets go of my hand

b. GD: swallows/hides his tears and says “Lets live today to the fullest/Until the day ends lets live like no tomorrow”

c. YB: ends up crying and doesnt know what to do

d. DS: pretends he didnt hear and keeps making me laugh

e. SR: cant stop crying and just keeps taking pictures with me

I'd probably be so devastated already, so please don't freak out on me too. Though Seung Ri can't stop crying, at least he's trying to make memories of us together. Making me laugh? Not a bad way to go I guess. Haha, but seriously, TOP and his actions...whoaaa...he's just blowing the others out of the competition by being the strong, manly yet sensitive enough guy. I guess GD would let me do all the stuff I'd wanna do before I go.

6. When he walks in on me cheating on him with someone else

a. TOP: without a word, punches the guy and takes me with him

b. GD: gives me his ring (couple ring), cellphone and walks out without a word

c. YB: makes a conversation with all of us

d. DS: says “Oops, got in the wrong place” and walks out

e. SR: gets very mad and cant control his anger so he throws and breaks furniture

Ohh...awkward.....I'd be really scared of TOP (have you seen how he looks sometimes when he's trying to be all killer-like such as in IRIS, its freaking scary), but if he's still willing to take me away, that would be great. Hopefully it was more of the other guy's fault though..heh. Anyway, its better that he shows his anger rather than just keeping it in.

7. When meeting my parents and they don't like him

a. TOP: goes on his knees

b. GD: says “(name) is pregnant”

c. YB: smiles and says he wants to marry his first love

d. DS: tries to earn points by singing ‘Look at me Gwisoon’

e. SR: kisses me infront of my parents and shouts “(name) IS MY LADY!”

Young Bae is sweet and all but erm, first love? I'd be kinda worried at that though, hehe. But that's just me. I guess my parents would think Dae Sung is weird for singing at such a time, but I bet they'd be amused after awhile, its such a cute song. And I think my dad would probably kill Seung Ri for kissing me in front of them...what more to say GD...he'd just be crumbs after that outburst. TOP seems the most appropriately sincere one here..ahha. After all, guys aren't supposed to kneel in front of girls unless they're proposing or asking for forgiveness?

8. When he sees that I’m in the audience while he's performing

a. TOP: never takes his eyes off me until his performance ends

b. GD: ignores me because i make him nervous and focuses on making the performance perfect for me

c. YB: is so happy that he keeps smiling and messes up his dance

d. DS: puts in customized moves by him for me

e. SR: acts cute infront of the camera

I wouldn't want them to mess up their performance for me, but no ignoring my presence either. And what the heck Seung Ri? Are you acting cute for me or for your fans? And any girl would totally melt with TOP's unwavering gaze on you, especially with him singing. Customized moves for me? OMO, Dae Sung would just win any girls heart.

9. When I tell him I’m going to get plastic surgery

a. TOP: pretends he didnt hear and secretly slides a picture of ’surgery-gone-wrong’ pictures for me to see

b. GD: gives me his credit card

c. YB: tells me im more beautiful now and says no.

d. DS: insists if i do it, hes definitely doing it too

e. SR: listens to me and then makes fun of me

And once again, actions speak louder than words in the case of TOP but Young Bae is pretty good too. I'd seriously kill GD in this case. SR would get a good whacking too.

10. When I say I'm going to a resort for university

a. TOP: tells me to have fun and come back

b. GD: keeps asking me if guys are gonna be there too

c. YB: says its okay but you see him starting to pout without realization

d. DS: suddenly gives me Doraemon and tells me to think of him when i look at this

e. SR: says “Take me too”

Awww...TOP is the best, shows that he trusts me totally. And can Dae Sung get any cuter? I'd really bring it to hug to sleep though I'm no Doraemon fan. It'll be fun to bring my bf along too, though it may be fun to go with just your friends. Maybe Seung Ri can fit in a really big suitcase. haha.

11. When watching a movie together and it's some serious 19+ sexual content…

a. TOP: tries to switch the mood by being funny

b. GD: ……asks jokingly “…can you do that?”

c. YB: cheeks turn red, starts pourring nose bleed and faints

d. DS: “oh fun stuff~” and enjoys it

e. SR: suddenly whips his head around and looks at me

Major awkward moment here. But I think laughter would be the best remedy here ahah. It'll be kinda weird if he enjoys it too much or if he wants me to do the same...but it'll be the worst thing if he gets a nosebleed and faints from it...too innocent..AHAHHA.

Final score:

TOP: 10

GD: 4

YB: 0

DS: 5

SR: 3

Wow, only 1 answer off from TOP. Haha..and Dae Sung is no.2 again. Guess I'm quite consistent huh? But seriously 0 from Young Bae? Guess he's really too nice a guy for me. He has that whole image of being the gentleman, sweet, caring and rather innocent. He's never had a girlfriend before, so not really what I'd go for. Hehe, I don't want to be the one to corrupt him. Give me someone who's just the right amount of corrupted, like TOP. GD is just too much for me to handle i think. Haha.

TRANSLATION CREDIT: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI TAKEN FROM: bigbangkorean.wordpress.com

Big Bang Quiz - Boyfriend type?!

‘Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?’ Part 1

I think this also applies to any guy. As in, this quiz kinda shows what type of boyfriend you'd like.

1. When I fall and hurt myself
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who gives me a piggy back ride to the hospital
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who makes fun of me because I fell
c. Dong Young Bae, who runs to go buys medication
d. Kang Dae Sung, who helps me get home
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks if it hurts a lot and blows on the place where it hurts

Technically, though I have the bad tendency to laugh at others when they fall (while simultaneously being worried), I wouldn't want my bf to laugh at me when I fall and hurt myself. If I fell in a funny way, I'd laugh at myself too, but not if I'm hurt. Young Bae and Dae Sung's ways are good too, but the 2 Seung Hyun's take the cake.

2. When I say I want a name brand item
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he’ll make it a real one
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who pretends not to listen but buys it for me later
c. Dong Young Bae, who promises to buy me one once he makes more money
d. Kang Dae Sung, who keeps saying not to buy expensive things
e. Lee Seung Ri, who keeps asking if he can buy me something else

Most ppl probably don't believe this but I am really not a brand name person. Especially extremely overpriced items like LV, Chanel, Gucci. So if TOP gets me a fake one, I could probably still pull it off as a real one. And it'll be sweet if he would work hard to buy me that present. Haha. If Ji Yong does that, it'll be sweet but I'd feel really guilty receiving the present. I'd need Dae Sung to stop me from spending too much on unnecessary things. Haha.


3. While watching a horror movie
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who protects me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who quietly covers my eyes
c. Dong Young Bae, who comforts me by saying there’s nothing to be scared of
d. Kang Dae Sung, who holds my hand tightly
e. Lee Seung Ri, who screams even before i scream

It kinda sucks if the guy gets way scared before I am, you'd feel like the man in the relationship. I'd probably scream after he screams! As for Young Bae, I'd probably feel like I was being a baby by getting scared...so yes, please comfort me if I get scared, coz that doesn't happen all the time. I would like big shoulders to hide my eyes or nice arms to grab..so TOP and Dae Sung definitely qualify!


4. When my voice cracks while singing
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i’m cute
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who laughs at me
c. Dong Young Bae, who gets even more embarrassed than me
d. Kang Dae Sung, who pretends he didn’t hear it
e. Lee Seung Ri, who makes fun of me by imitating me

No, don't make fun of me in this situation. I'm already paranoid about sucking at things so it would be best if they brush it off or encourage me... and seriously who wouldn't want TOP to say they're cute..or be touched by him?!

5. When his friend says he likes me
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who says what are you trying to do and breaks ties with his friend
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who goes up and punches his friend
c. Dong Young Bae, who talks it out with his friend
d. Kang Dae Sung, who says he will introduce another girl to his friend
e. Lee Seung Ri, who stops talking to his friend

If I were in that situation, I'd choose friendship over a guy anytime. So I would hate to be the one to spoil a great friendship, believe me, it's a sucky feeling. Though I think any girl would be kinda flattered that you mean so much to them...

6. When I’m mad at my boyfriend
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who starts a serious talk by asking me if I’m mad
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who says I’m sorry and says don’t be mad
c. Dong Young Bae, who sings to me
d. Kang Dae Sung, who makes me laugh
e. Lee Seung Ri, who does cute stuff around me

Sorry TOP, but sometimes girls don't like to be asked that when they ARE mad. It's best if you just straightaway say you're sorry or do something to make me feel better.


7. When my boyfriend meets my friends
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who compliments me in front of my friends
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who asks my friends to watch over our relationship
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes me feel good by complimenting my friends
d. Kang Dae Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks my friends to consider him

Ohhh..who wouldn't feel happy if their bf compliments them in front of their friends, especially if you have hot friends. And coming from TOP? Whoaaa.. But I also like it when the guy takes the effort to get to know my friends and gets along well with them...and asking them to watch over our relationship..is sweet too.

8. On my birthday
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who takes me some place expensive
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who treats me better than other days
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes me a special present
d. Kang Dae Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant

e. Lee Seung Ri, who says happy birthday all day long cheerfully

I prefer a handmade present over a really expensive item...something that they put their effort and time to come up with..is really priceless. And i think if they keep telling me Happy Birthday all day long I probably would get annoyed after awhile. Heh.


9. When we kiss
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who hugs me tight first
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who just does it
c. Dong Young Bae, who asks first
d. Kang Dae Sung, who becomes awkward first
e. Lee Seung Ri, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the cheek and turns his head when I’m about to kiss his cheeks

Firstly I really prefer hugs...then its cute and cheeky of Seung Ri to do that..which I kinda like...Ji Yong's style..nothing too special..so..yeah.


10. When it’s raining and we only have one umbrella
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who shares the umbrella but he ends up getting wet
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who holds me really tight so both of us don’t get wet
c. Dong Young Bae, who give me the umbrella and he walks under the rain
d. Kang Dae Sung, who tells me to wait and go gets another umbrella
e. Lee Seung Ri, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain

Sharing is caring so it'll be nice to share umbrellas with them, coz you'll be all close and all that. Hehe. Of coz I don't want them to get sick....some ppl like just being in the rain, but hmm..not really a big fan..ehhe


11. When I say I want to break up
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who lets me go, saying he’s sorry he didn’t do much for me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who is dumbfounded and says he never thought I’d break it off
c. Dong Young Bae, who asks if he can hug me one last time
d. Kang Dae Sung, who says farewell and lets me go, crying
e. Lee Seung Ri, who clings and anxiously asks why I’m acting like this suddenly

NoooO~~~~...how can i break up with them..I actually chose Young Bae, Dae Sung and Seung Ri in this case. BUt I was thinking, if I want to break up with them, then it means that I thought we couldn't work things out? In this case, TOP would be the best. But I think I'd like the guy to try to convince me to give him one more chance...


12. When we go to the amusement park
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who suggests to ride what I want to ride
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who suggests to go to the haunted house first
c. Dong Young Bae, who takes lots of pictures
d. Kang Dae Sung, who eats this and that
e. Lee Seung Ri, who forcefully takes me to scary rides

I'd appreciate being given the choice but knowing me, I'd just tell TOP that "I don't know, why don't you choose?" Haha and though I would be up for scary rides, he'd better not force me, but bribing with food etc is fine. Ooo and yes to lots of pics and eating..


13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who is sorry but asks if I could pay for now
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young Bae, who has them keep his belonging until he can pay
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls his friend to bring some money
e. Lee Seung Ri, who is anxious and doesn’t know what to do

Seriously I don't mind going dutch, but if he's earning more than me then it'll be best if he pays. But I wouldn't mind treating him occasionally too. If his ego allows him to ask for my help, that shows that he's humble too. If the guy freaks out about this and runs away or doesn't know what to do, that's not good. Coz it shows that he'll run away from problems or be unable to resolve crisises.


14. When I talk to another guy
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who thinks it’s no big deal
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who tells me not to talk to other guys
c. Dong Young Bae, who can’t say anything but actually bothers him
d. Kang Dae Sung, who is curious and sneakingly wedges in the conversation
e. Lee Seung Ri, who later asks what we talked about

I have a lot of guy friends, being from engineering classes and all that so my boyfriend shouldn't worry about me hanging out with them. Its a big turn off if he tries to control who I talk to or what I talk about. I don't mind if they want to join in because they have something to contribute to the conversation, but not coz they're keeping an eye on me.


15. When he can’t reach me through the phone
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who says he’s worried
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who comes to my house right away
c. Dong Young Bae, who lets it by, thinking something must have happened
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls until I pick up
e. Lee Seung Ri, who gets mad because I didn’t pick up

I hate guys who get worked up all over nothing so if they're a little worried but don't totally freak out about this, then its fine. It's kinda possessive and annoying if they have the reaction of Ji Yong, Dae Sung and Seung Ri.


16. When I tell him I love him
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who whispers in my ear that he loves me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who kisses me
c. Dong Young Bae, who hugs me without saying a word
d. Kang Dae Sung, who smiles, embarrassed
e. Lee Seung Ri, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too

Aww..all the above except Dae Sung's reactions are great..but seriously the 2 Seung Hyuns win here. If you're gonna say those 3 words, of coz you'd like to hear it back right?


17. When we’re shopping
a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says it’s boring and wants to go home already
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who picks out clothes for me
c. Dong Young Bae, who does everything I want to do
d. Kang Dae Sung, who impatiently follows me around
e. Lee Seung Ri, who enjoys shopping more than I do

I find it interesting to shop with guys who actually like shopping. Plus I've shopped with guys who like it more than me. It'll be cool if the guy actually picks out clothes for me, hopefully stuff that I would actually be able to wear or look good in, haha. If they don't like going shopping, they can stay at home, just don't come along and whine...


18. When I act cutely (like a kid)
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who thinks I’m cute and hugs me
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who says I’m not doing it right and shows an example
c. Dong Young Bae, who tells me to do that everyday
d. Kang Dae Sung, who just laughs
e. Lee Seung Ri, who copies me

It's just so wrong if they can act cuter than me, or think that they are. I may not like to be called cute all the time, but getting a hug for it (especially from TOP) more than makes up for it. Dae Sung laughing at me would probably make me laugh too, he's just so contagiously happy.


19. When we get held up by a gang
a. Choi Seung Hyun, who fights them
b. Kwon Ji Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young Bae, who makes an effort to clear things out
d. Kang Dae Sung, who calls the cops
e. Lee Seung Ri, who leaves me and runs away

Any girl would like their bf to stand up for them, but I'd freak out if they were to fight the gang, what if they get hurt? So yes, running away or clearing things up are the best options. Leaving me behind and running away themselves = NOOOO

Final Score:

Choi Seung Hyun (TOP): 14

Kwon Ji Yong (G-Dragon): 8

Dong Young Bae (Tae Yang): 7

Kang Dae Sung: 9

Lee Seung Ri: 6

It's TOP who wins, not shockingly. I think like Xiao Zhu, he's pretty much like my ideal type of guy. Haha. BUt I'm a little surprised that Dae Sung is 2nd, then again, he's pretty funny and sweet from what I see in Family Outing and etc so okay.

TRANSLATION CREDIT: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI TAKEN FROM: bigbangkorean.wordpress.com

Big Bang

I think most people who've been around me lately probably already know that I've gotten really interested in K-pop lately. And especially in Korea's No.1 hip-hop band, BIG BANG!...To be honest, I've heard of them before but kinda dismissed them coz c'mon the name is a little..er.. Haha. But then at the gym, I happened to catch one of their vids, Strong Baby, which is actually a solo by one of their members and it was so catchy and addictive that I got interested in K-pop after that.

I started out with a lot of different artists but it was only after I caught this 'Gara Gara Go' video among some others that I really thought to check out Big Bang. I seriously should have known about them earlier, coz they are really really just my cup of tea. Catchy melodies, addictive beats, electronica/hip-hop/pop, meaningful lyrics, basically their music just appeals to me. And when you watch them perform, they have this charisma and swagger that they pull off very well. But they're not just charming singers, they're rather adorkable and hilarious too. Some of them appear on variety shows and well, they're really rather goofy and silly. Anyway, before I become even more fan-girly, I should just introduce the members, starting with my favourite! This is also in order of age...ahah

Stage Name: T.O.P (Singer Se7en gave it to him to mean that he would be Top of everything)

Real Name: Choi Seung Hyun

Position: Rapper, Beatbox, Lyricist, Composer

Notable for: Can be seen in KBS hit action-spy drama IRIS, naturally smoky-looking 'sexy/killer' eyes (95% of the time, it's not eyeliner but his eyelashes, girls should be envious), his power raps

My favourites: His solos, 'To Act Like Nothing Happened' and 'Big Boy', the songs he's featured in, Gummy's 'I'm Sorry' and Uhm Jung Hwa's 'DISCO'

Stage Name: Tae Yang, SOL (Tae Yang means the sun)

Real Name: Dong Young Bae

Position: Singer

Notable for: His solo mini album 'Hot' was a bestseller and won several awards. A really good dancer, with smooth vocals and a killer body. It's just too bad he's a little short :P

My favourites: His solos, 'Look Only at Me' and 'Wedding Dress'

Stage Name: G-Dragon (literal translation of his Korean name)

Real Name: Kwon Ji Yong

Position: Leader, Rapper, Composer, Lyricist

Notable for: His solo album 'Heartbreaker' was the Best Selling Album of 2009 in Korea, one of the youngest but prominent composers around. Tends to be involved in many controversies from plagiarism to performing 'indecent acts in front of minors' at his concert. Which was blown out of proportion in my opinion.

My favourites: Solo songs 'But I Love You', 'Look Only At me Part 2', 'A Boy', 'Heartbreaker'

Stage Name: D-Lite

Real Name: Kang Dae Sung

Position: Singer

Notable for: Permanent member of SBS variety show 'Family Outing', acted in Korea's version of CATS. Has an almost permanent grin on his face

My favourites: Solo song 'Look at me Gwisoon' (a trot song or Korean traditional music, written by G-Dragon) and Family Outing, which is absolutely hilarious

Stage Name: Seung Ri, V.I, Victory (Seung Ri means Victory in Korean)

Real Name: Lee Seung Hyun (Yes, same as TOP, hence the stage name)

Position: Singer

Notable for: Excellent dancer, has choreographed some of their dance routines, his never-ending confidence that sometimes makes the others pick on him. He likes older girls, hence his trademark 'Noona~~'

My favourites: Solo songs 'The Next Day' and 'Strong Baby'

But besides all of their solos that I like as above, of course there are the favourites from them as a group. And there are quite a lot. Seriously, they are catchy. Just give them a try, you can check them out on Youtube.

1. Lies (The song that really catapulted them into fame)

2. Haru Haru/Day by Day

3. Last Farewell

4. Sunset Glow

5. Crazy Dog

6. Gara Gara Go! (Japanese)

7. My Heaven

8. Lollipop (with 2NE1, their labelmates and considered the female Big Bang)

9. Always

10. Let me hear your voice (Japanese)

11. A fool's Only Tear

12. VIP

At the same time, see how goofy they can be. Here's my fave TOP on my fave variety show of the moment, Family Outing.

And here's TOP in IRIS, currently the most expensive drama ever made in South Korea and it was top of the ratings during its screenings. It's an action-spy drama, something different from those usual tear-jerker romantic/comedies, so do check it out.

Unrecognizable Reflection?

I know I haven't updated in over a year! Actually, I had posts that were in draft and have yet to finish them. But I just felt like posting this. Recently, I was introduced to the music of Death Cab for Cutie by Leonard and yeah, their album 'Plans' kinda struck a chord with me. Particularly this song.

Brothers on a Hotel Bed - Death Cab for Cutie

These lyrics kind of triggered me to think a lot more about what's going on in my life at the moment. And I can really relate to them. Why? I don't mean to say that I've physically changed. Of course, there are some changes in that sense...but the major change is more emotional and psychological. 

Something he was not looking for 

Both a beginning and an end 

But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize 

When he catches his reflection on accident

I used to think that I'm not someone whose emotions can be easily affected. That I'm someone strong despite whatever crap happens and that I'd be able to pull through without having to depend on someone. But ever since I moved to KL, somehow I feel that I've gone through several mini 'breakdowns' and am constantly affected by a sense of helplessness. That I dont like what's going on in my life, yet I am unable to do much to change them. Or that I still need to wait things out before deciding what next. I also feel that my personality has somewhat changed as a result. 

I used to think that I was kinda arrogant, and pretty confident in my capabilities. Now? I'd probably tell you that I dont have much to offer. As an employee, I'm probably just good at working hard, but not smart in the way of moving up. I'm not good at talking to management and all that unless I really have to. I used to think that I'd do well in admin/management position, but now I feel that it's so much bother, paperwork and reporting. Basically, you'd be in constant meetings, discussions, trying to figure out how to work things out to report to the boss, announce things to the underlings and all that. A lot of my friends are on the lookout for new jobs but me, I look at the adverts and go...I dont fit this requirement, I dont fit that. My degree is somewhat in the middle of fields, not good enough for purely electronics, not for pure computer science. And I am not exactly good in either fields, nor am I a good engineer. I do best in project engineering and yet, most project engineer posts require civil or mechanical knowledge. I'm also not sure if i should go into sales, after all, I'm rather introverted at first impression. So, where exactly does that leave me?

As a friend? Maybe I'm not such a good friend, in the sense that ppl dont contact me unless they need something? Maybe I'm just boring? I feel insecure in my position as a friend to others. I usually will worry that someone else will become closer to this friend than me, and I get all jealous when that happens. I know that's stupid, but i cant help it. Nowadays I feel that I have less people to confide in? And that 95% of my friends are no longer single, so I dont feel good taking up their time in that case. So yea, feel kinda lonely a lot of the time and I keep a lot of stuff to myself compared to previously. Or end up confiding in people that I never expected to be close to. But hey, at least they're willing to listen.

Relationships? I guess a psychiatrist would consider me probably destructive and constantly on the defense. Or that I just dont know how to be in a relationship for long. I am afraid of really caring for someone and showing them. I think I feel that if i get into things too deeply, I'm afraid that I'd get hurt and tend to hurt them first. End things on my terms and all that. And if i get criticized by them, I would always find excuses to defend myself, twist things around etc. Maybe that's just normal for us...but I dont know. I kinda feel that I dont know how to deal with guys. That they probably treat me as one of the guys and that sucks at times. Yeah, that makes me cool to hang out with but not someone to date. And yet, I'm not entirely sure I want to change that. Half the time I enjoy just hanging with the guys, just coz i like the same stuff. But when the guy I have some interest in, just treats me like the rest of the guys..then major ouch.

See what I mean? I think I've never been as insecure or lost as I am now. I joke that I've reached my 'quarter life crisis' a yr early. I know that it's probably time to make some decisions but I dont think i'm ready to. Now that we're considered adults, living on our own, joining the working life, there is just so much more to think about. There would be major consequences to whatever decisions we make. It's not just about us anymore. More things would be affected. No matter how much I think, I still feel lost. And I just want to get rid of all these problems, and live a care-free life. Go on holiday and forget it all. That works..for a few days and when i come back home... reality and all its problems come crashing back at me. It might have been better not to have gone on holiday at all. But I guess, sometimes clarity comes to u at the oddest times and a short break would do the body well, if not the mind. These lyrics from the ending of the song kinda sums things up for me. 

On the back of a motor bike 

With your arms outstretched trying to take flight 

Leaving everything behind 

But even at our swiftest speed 

We couldn't break from the concrete 

Birthday Fortnight

26th October 2008

Continuing on with my coverage of the birthdays in the month of Oct/Nov..lol. As mentioned in my earlier post, Mike's birthday was on the 27th of Oct, which was a Monday. It was also Deepavali and a public holiday for us in Selangor. YAY! To maximise our time, he decided to have his celebration on Sunday night instead. Being Mike, he chose to do it at Neway Karaoke at 1Utama and invited about 10 of us. Representing Swinburne (bsides the bday boy) was myself, Kwang Houg, Aileen and KC who was here for the long weekend. He'd also invited quite a few of his CHMNS1 friends. Even 1 of his friends working in SG was in KL for the weekend, which was good for him. So it was nice to be able to meet some new ppl from Kch working in KL. But i can honestly say we didn't have much time to talk. Y? Bcoz the package included buffet dinner!! We were all busy stuffing ourselves, there was a lot of yummy food to choose from. So Mike was busy choosing his songs while we chose the food. Haha.

Personally, I liked the appetizers more than the mains but the good thing was, if you keep coming down (they have like 2 flrs of rooms and we were upstairs), once a dish is finished, they'd replace it with a new one, usually of a different type. So there's really a lot to choose from! There was sushi, salads, seafood like mussels, prawns, crab, clams, Japanese noodles (where u can choose the style and ingredients), diff styles of chicken, fish, beef, lamb, vegetables etc. For dessert, there were fruits, jellies, puddings, cakes, pastries and an ice-cream bar! Oh my, I could just go on and on about the food. Basically, we were all just going in and out of the room with dishes of food. If we were lazy or accident-prone, we could also get the waiters to bring up our trays for us! Talk about service, ahah. Heck, if you felt cold, you could even borrow scarves from them!

But one thing about this type of karaokes, they make it compulsory for the snacks, which tend to be extremely over-priced. At least for us, we had 2 drinks each. Anyway, on to the main activity, singing! Each one of us had our own favourite singers and styles, so it was kinda like..Battle of the Stars, ahah. Mike's obviously was Jay, mine was Xiao Zhu, KC's was Lee Hom and there were quite a few songs from JJ, Jolin, AMei and more. ANd yes I have improved, coz I can finally rap Xiao Zhu's part for his song 'Lian Ai Da Ren'. Haha, thanks to lots and lots of practice b4hand. But Mike wasnt there to see, so no judge of my improvement :P I guess the other ppl thought I'm strange..coz i sing duet songs on my own!

Bday boy with KC and Aileen

We sang till almost 12 then Mike rang down for his bday package. Hahaha, the bday boy himself had to arrange for it, so kolien. He was given a free cake and bottle of 'champagne' (sparkling juice la). We had to wait quite awhile for it, so he pretended to cry like he was sooo upset. DRama king la him. Of coz when it finally came, we sang him the bday song in a few diff languages, which is probably a 1st for him. Then it was presents time! The Swinburne group got him an Arsenal casual tee, which he immediately wore the next day. I also got him the Friends complete DVD set (pirated arr..) when I was in Vietnam a few mths ago. He got quite a few presents, you can check out his blog for more details.

Me and Kwang Houg with his present from the Swinburne group (The couple already left ma)

However, unfortunately for us, we were asked to settle the bill and go at around 12.30 coz there were ppl outside waiting to use the room. The package was from 7.30pm to 12.30am, but if there was no1 waiting, we could actually use it till closing time, around 3-4am. But since the next day was a public holiday, guess every1 had the same idea as us! And there were still 6 drinks we hadnt claimed, so we went home with at least 1 or 2 bottles of Kampai, ahah! I think I was rather disappointed that we couldnt sing till early morning, coz it would have been a 1st and hey, I'd been practicing :P Mayb next time ya...hehe. But I really had fun singing, eating and laughing. It was a good celebration, I think MIke definitely enjoyed it with all his friends joining him :D

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1st November 2008

Talk about spontaneity and last-minute. I'd actually sent out Captain's present out to Johor earlier b4 my work trip to Penang when he texted me late on Halloween nite. Then he suddenly said that I should clean my apartment so that when he arrives it's clean. I thought he was just joking as usual but then he got Chee Fui to confirm with me b4 I could finally believe him. Then it was like..all out frenzy, coz the apartment was a little dusty. And being my mum's daughter, that cannot do! Started out cleaning my bathroom, then my room. Coz it was already almost 1, i was like...cannot..must continue tomorrow. So woke up early to clean the rest of the place and waited for them to arrive. And they know how to drive to KL, but then on, no clue. Somehow they managed to arrive someplace near my office so at least i could retrieve them n lead them back to my place.

After dropping their stuff and their car at my place, it was off to Ikea! Hmm, what isit with ppl from Kch and Ikea. Honestly, I've been there like so many times everytime some1 comes to KL. Haha, oh well, part of being the tour guide. Of coz we stopped for food 1st coz it was 3pm and none of us had eaten lunch yet! And i hadnt had a proper meal in 24 hrs, coz i spent most of it sleeping! Hahah. FOllowed them around Ikea trying out all the diff furniture, showed them the Curve's weekend flea market, Cineleisure and then it was off to 1Utama for some serious clothes shopping. Honestly, they're better shoppers than me i think. Kinda fun in a sense, coz they're like girls, can shop together with me. It was dinner time so we went for Vietnam Kitchen and it was the Captain's treat. Since it was his bday hehe. Ooo the golden mango prawn roll was yummy but i think all of us burned our tongues on it coz it was just fresh out of the wok.

Went back to my place where we all freshened up and then we went back to the Curve to check out Scarlet with my bro in tow. After all, its the Captain's bday, we must have alcohol! Hahah. We were early enough to snag a table at the side, but it was starting to get quite crowded. We had Glenmorangie single-malt as per my bro's recommendation, and it was pretty nice with the mixers. A little diff from Jack Daniels and Chivas. At 1st the music was just so-so, some house/r&b that we didn't quite recognize. The good thing about Scarlet was that 1 side of it is open windows/balconies so there was more ventilation, not to mention a nice view. As the night went on, the music got more retro and mixed. From Rihanna's Umbrella, they could go to 'oldies' such as Cranberrie's Zombie, Linkin Park's In the End, Bon Jovi's It's my Life and even....YMCA. Oh my. Hahha, it really made us feel old coz we knew the songs and we teased Captain that it was coz its his bday. It was kinda fun too, coz every1 in the club was just singing along loudly.

We left around 1am coz Chee Fui was falling asleep at the table (he hadnt slept for 24 hrs!!) and the rest of us had little sleep too, with husky voices due to all that singing. So I had 3 'salted fishes' sprawled out in my living room, coz KC was back in KL to get his car. KC was smarter tho, he went to sleep early and staked out a 'safe' position at the side. When my bro came in from watching football, he had to navigate his way around what little space there was with his handphone light and he nearly stepped on the Captain who was in the middle of the group. Since they were all exhausted, I let Chee Fui sleep till 12 noon b4 we woke him up to go for lunch. It was a little late for the dimsum place I had in mind, so we went straight for Mid Valley in 2 cars (so they could drive straight back after that).

Once again, on my bro's recommendation, we went for Mdm Kwan's for lunch. And dammit, he has expensive taste la! Since i promised i'd pay for dimsum breakfast, I paid for the lunch instead and ouch...it was RM100 for the 4 of us..-_- After that, we walked around, checked out the shops and showed them The Gardens, where it was just TOOO expensive for us to buy anything. We are all gadget freaks so we went from Sony to Nokia and so on to see the phones/laptops. My bro showed them the incredibly expensive jeans shop, with all the Evisu, True Religion jeans. Imagine, 1 pair is RM1k minimum! Crazy rite?

But soon, it was time for them to start the drive back to Johor and we said our goodbyes. Of coz they're welcome to come back and stay with us (with more advance notice pls!). Basically I am like the 'hotel' for my Kch friends who come to KL, ahah! But yeah, I had a good weekend too, though it was an expensive one. I think they found it more expensive though, what with their shopping. Anyway, it was a lot of fun, joking around, teasing/arguing, with the Captain getting hit a lot of coz. Chee Fui could just shake his head at how childish we were in public. But that is SOP - Standard Operating Procedure for us. Oh, no pics coz we forgot to take any, and lazy too! Heh. Till the next time then!

The Captain is 1/4 of a century!

This is yet another birthday post, what to do, October/November is like the peak period for birthdays for me. Imagine, in a duration of about 9 days, there are 6 friends celebrating their birthdays. -_- Anyway, today is the birthday of Captain Henry! He turns 25, which I keep telling him is old!...hHeheh

This is typical of the Capt..

Anyway, some of you may wonder why we call him Captain. He's also known as 'Lao Pan' which means Boss. Captain is bcoz he was really into Pirates of the Caribbean as I was, in the last 2 yrs, and we all thought that he was pretty much like Captain Jack Sparrow, what with him always seeming a little drunk with his crazy, spontaneous ideas and odd quotes/topics. Of course, he'd also do his charming bit with the ladies, misleading and confusing terms of speech and he even had his 'White Pearl'. Oh, and he also has a tendency to be clumsy like Capt Jack too! Last year for his graduation, we bought him a mini Black Pearl too. As for the Boss bit, well, he was like our ringleader, always coming up with ideas on what to do and all that.

So how did I first get to meet this interesting character? I think it was in 2004 when I joined Swinburne and Augustine became the new Council President after Evelyn left. August had this little group called FShit, bcoz of the boyband F4 which was super-popular back then. There were 4 of them; August, Henry, Dominic and Yii Leong, and they even had the same type/colour jackets! Kinda funny if you think back actually. So August being a friendly/gentleman, he introduced me to them. I remember having a 1st impression on all of them and Henry's was that 'Oh, this guy is definitely a bad boy or a player'. Haha! So I was just polite to them and didn't really talk much then.

Bullying 'Da Ge' at Capt's bday last yr

It was only in late 2006 that I got to know the Captain better because he'd just come back from his IBL in Singapore and joined Mike's FYP group. I'd also gotten to know CY better then and the 3 of them were in several classes together, so yea, we all started hanging out. Then it was the period of our Mahjong addiction from CNY onwards, where we HAD to play at least once a week. During the peak of our addiction, we'd play a few times a week, even though we were all in final sem/year! Crazy and risky, I know. From Mahjong, it progressed to Monopoly since I had 3 sets.

My friendship with the Captain is interesting to say the least. People who know us would probably think so, since they all say that we provide all the entertainment. Haha, he's the Boss and I'm the Lady Boss. CY and Siaw Hui keep saying that Kch is so quiet after we both left. It's coz we're always arguing about things and we're super noisy! Obviously most of my guy friends like to tease me and I'd argue back and disturb them too. So since Henry likes teasing us so much, I am probably his biggest target. And the 2 of us are really competitive and we dont like to lose, whether at Mahjong, Monopoly or even any discussion. But in case anyone misunderstands that we don't get along, we're just arguing for the sake of it. To be honest, I think we both just enjoy the sparring. It certainly benefits the others when playing games with us, since they can win more easily since its just the 2 of us fighting so much. Plus get entertained for free. But nowadays, the arguing isn't quite the same since we're just doing it for laughs and we're both on the same wavelength, joking around, teasing each other and all that.

So yeah, despite his bad 1st impression (hmm, this seems to be recurring), I've come to find that he's actually a great friend to me. We always have lots to talk about, from work, music, movies, or just any old thing. There are definitely no dull moments when we meet up, probably coz we both agree that we cant' find any1 else to argue with us in KL/Johor. But he can be a good listener and gives constructive advice too. Of coz, he'd definitely be able to cheer me up when I'm down, what with his craziness. Basically, a really fun and generous friend to hang out with. Though ppl might talk bad about him being a player or a jerk....but for me, he's been a good friend. So yeah, that's more important to me. After all, I come off across as a snobby bitch to others but my friends dont think so.

Anyway, I count him as the other most important guy in my life at the moment (bsides family). We've been through some good times, as well as some stupid fights due to our tempers (esp mine). But at least we're more mature now and understand, respect and appreciate each other more. So here's wishing the Captain a very happy 25th birthday! You don't need an increment but I think you deserve a promotion for all the hours you put in at work. Here's hoping you'll keep improving on your stability/maturity ;). And pls dont do anything too crazy/stupid. Haha! Cheers to Captain Henry!

Happy 24th Mike!

Today is the birthday of Mike FV, who is probably one of the most important guys in my life (outside of my family of coz) so far. I think everyone knows that we used to be together, but are just friends now. And yes, i think ppl still get confused about this, coz we hang out a lot in KL. But hey, like we always say, KL is a big place, and there are not that many of us from Kuching who can mix around that well.

But moving along, what shall we say about Mike? Well, as everyone knows, he's a good singer (big big fan of Jay!) and enjoys making people laugh. Definitely a good friend to those that he cares about, and a gentleman. So yeah, good with the ladies in his own way ;). Summary is, he's the type of boy you'd wanna bring home to introduce to your mum. HAha!

How did I meet this guy? Simple, I was in Swinburne's Council in my foundation year of 2003 and he'd just joined the Council too. We were organizing this Valentine's Day sale and had to set up the booth. So after the initial introduction, the first thing i said to him was 'Can you go to the Council room to get the radio?'. Lol. Being the nice guy that he is, he of coz went to do it. But I guess he must have thought I'm so bossy. Which he did tell me later. And I thought he was easy to bully. Hehe, so bad of me.

Boy, this was like really back in those old days..ahha

Despite our somewhat...bad first impression, we got to know one another better bcoz of some shared interests, like music and something of an addition to IRC (it was big back then b4 we progressed to MSN). Even up to this day, 5 years down the road, we still talk about the things we both like, such as Jay, Mayday or any good Chinese music, Final Fantasy games (though I've only played FF8), movies, Swinburne gossip, etc. Basically, he's probably the contact with the biggest MSN log file. He's like the first that I'll tell my stuff to, even the most inane or boring stuff. What to do, he's a good listener you know. Makes him very good boyfriend material, and trust me girls, he was/is a good boyfriend. Just that this girl doesn't know how to appreciate him. Hey, we're better off as friends now. So...no regrets for being with him and even being his friend now though :)

Look how skinny you were then!

So yeah, we've been through a lot together, seen new places, both as friends and as a couple previously. But at least we're still good friends now. So before I sound too loso, here's wishing you a great 24th birthday. May you have a great year ahead, and all your wishes come true. Hope you'll get that much-deserved promotion and maybe another Europe trip? And of course, a good girl who will treat u like the king u are ;) You deserve nothing but the best! Cheers mate!

Ah Kong's double tag -_-||

It's a lot easier to do the tags than to actually update. I'm such a lazy person, ah well..i get very little rest time anyway!

Tag No.1
1. The last person that tagged you is?
Ah Kong aka Alex Kho

2. Your relationship with him/her?
He's my Ah Kong/Grandpa...ahaha...part of the Gay4 laaaa...

3. Your two impressions towards him/her?
He is hardworking but also can act cool....stubborn....go crazy sometimes...similar to me laaa..lol...wat to do..he's my Ah kong ma...

4. The most memorable thing that he/her has done for you?
Helped to take care of my house when I was away in Perth for a week!..ahaha...

5. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?
You're a really great gal, you're an important friend to me...he actually wrote this instead of tell me la...which guy will actually say this to me?..sure kena laugh or tease laaa...or we both turn red also..

6. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will....
Scold him laaa...what lo...become my enemy..i go find him n knock his head...or his car (his baby ma!)...hahah..

7. If he/she becomes your enemy the reason is...
Is most likely coz of our tempers la..we have the same type of temper, very fast get angry and explode de...but we recover quite fast. Err..i think i recover better than him...and I will say sorry more easily than him..esp if I care about the person...sure I will end up say sorry to Ah Kong first..ahah

8. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is:
Pray that he will become happier and get a good job like what he wish for! And one day, attend his wedding..i think u'll b faster than me guaaaa...

9. How do you feel people around you feel about you?
Hmm...i think most of my friends will say I'm a good friend...i asked them this recently..they seem to all say that I'm a good listener, will always do my best to help them no matter what...and i'm not very judgemental...i give good feedback? Good organizer/secretary? I'm just repeating what they say la...suppose they will say i'm serious!..or used to be very la..can be moody n hot-tempered...

10. The character of yourself is?
I try to do my best in everything I do...i tend to put my family and friends' needs over my own. Though I can be lazy and procrastinate..i will be a perfectionist/control freak about things I really care about..i like to plan things...even the unforseeable future..lol.and i can get stressed over things I shouldn't be, making myself moody...can be easily angered but I think i've improved...can be very quiet at times unless I'm with my own gang(s)

11. On the contrary, the character that you hate yourself is.....
My temper, my over-seriousness at times and being too quiet sometimes...coz i find it hard to intro myself to someone new and talk a lot to them...sometimes i just prefer to keep quiet...coz trying to think of topic maaaa....then my temper has gotten me into a lot of trouble...oh! and emotionally detached...i'm too 'cool'...guess coz i'm trying to protect myself from getting hurt...

12. The most ideal person you wanna be is.....
No1 is ideal so I'm happy to be me...just that I want to improve myself...still have a long way to go....one step at a time...

13. For the people who care, say something about them:
Thank you to all my family and friends for all the support, encouragement, advice, time and love. Really appreciate all of it..hope that I can be a good person to you in return..God bless all of you...Happiness and health to all! (Sound like Santa Claus ler)

Tag No.2 (slightly modified)
Ten people to tag:
1)Ching Yi
2)Siaw Hui
3)Vicky
4)Linda
5)Michael
6)Henry
7) Serena
8) Yi Chan
9) Ah Kong
10) Julia

Who is Number (2) having a relationship with?
Our Lao Da, Ting Chyi Yeou...ahahha...looking forward to Dec, when I can bully him again!

Is(6) a male or a female?
95% male..ahha..jk laaa boss

If Number (7) and Number (10) got together, would that be a good thing?
NOOOOO...they are straight!

How about (5) and (8)?
Hhaha!! Cannot la..they're both guys..plus Chan already got gf liao....

What is Number (1) studying?
She graduated same time as me..but she's probably going to learn about automation soon...hehe

Say something about Number (3):
She's like this bubbly girl....who can be blur sometimes..has a great/crazy sense of humour...hiaaaoooo!!...*ahem*...great to chat with...good listener...i miss her and the other G-Gals!!...Muwaaakkkss

Long overdue Tag from Serena

Got tagged by Serena...so..just a quick one then:

1. State the person who tag you
Serena Sim Shing Yin (correct rite? hehe..still remember)

2. List your five favourite dinners, in your place.
in my place?..this is kinda hard but I'll just put both those in KL and Kch

a. Ah Tao Seafood (Kch)
b. Jln Song - coz of the variety! (Kch)
c. Tomoe Sushi - cheap and good sushi (Kch)
d. Sushi Zanmai - cheap and good sushi (KL)
e. Grandma/Mum's cooking

3. Tag five people then.
- Michael FV
- Kwang Houg
- Alex Kho
- Linda
- Vicky

Turning 23 (Part 2)

I know, it's been over 4 months since I blogged. So this is really a very delayed birthday post. Haha. What to do, life has been hectic for me. Anyway, on with how my birthday went this year. Well, a big difference was that there was no big party as per previous years. All I had was a karaoke session with Mike and Kwang Houg at Neway 1Utama. Also had a dinner with my uncle them, and a little cake session in the office pantry when I brought out my cake (courtesy of my auntie) to share with them. All of these were before my actual birthday, except the cake session.

On my actual birthday, I was woken up at the ungodly hour of 3am due to Stephen Apek's msg (wonder what he was doing up so late). To be honest, I was actually kinda down for the rest of the day, coz I didn't really receive many msgs in the morning. And it's also my first bday away from family. Overall, I think this was an interesting birthday though quiet. At least I had a lot of time to think over what I've done in the previous years. So here's a point-form summary (at least it wont be so long winded rite?) in chronological order:

- Elected as head prefect in Form 4/Form 5, which was something of an achievement for me since I was never a prefect till Form 4 itself....much to the displeasure of many ppl

- Joined Taekwondo and managed to win 2nd prize for Pattern competition (heh, at least something for sports right?)

- Asked to take part in Swinburne's Inaugural Debate, leading to us finally joining the Inaugural Yayasan Sarawak English University Debate (the actual name is too damm long) and we got 3rd - Elected President of Rotaract Club of Swinburne Sarawak and managing to help the club to achieve its 1st Presidential Citation and a few District 3310 awards

- Becoming Organizing Chairperson for a few big projects like Swinburne's Prom Night 2005 and the Rotaract/Interact fundraiser to buy books for rural Sarawakian schools

- Helped to set-up and run 2 new clubs in Swinburne: Explorers Club and Photomedia & Design Club, both of which were also very successful

- Completed my studies till bachelor's degree (2nd lower honours only, but hey, I'm not a good engineering student)

- Went for many job interviews in KL and even Johor, with the result of 4 job offers

- Ended up working in Philips Lighting, which I'm pretty happy with since they are all willing to guide me and there's constant learning on the job, what with all the trainings, new products and travelling to project sites in the various states

I suppose you can say that I've achieved a lot in terms of studies/career and co-curricular activities. Sometimes it kinda makes me feel like I'm old, since it seems to be over so many years. I bet all those more 'mature' ppl are gonna scold me about this though. But besides all these, I've also learned a lot from my personal life. Some of which are as such:

- Met and remained close with 7 other girls, and we are known as the Gathering Gals. Honestly, we have had some great times, some of which we still crack up over and fondly think back on. I miss all of u gals so much..hope we can meet up soon, though I'm not in KL

- Became friends with a whole bunch of different but amazing ppl in uni. They consist of various groups, such as the Gay4, JL.MFV.AC.SS, Mahjong Club, Debaters Club and so on. My 5 years in uni were definitely the best of my life so far, and I think it'll be hard to top that. You guys are all so great, I always enjoy our times together. Though we might not have so much time or opportunity to meet up now, but we always have a great time when we do! MIss u all!

- Got involved with a few different guys over the last few years and went through a lot of things, both good and bad. Fell in love with a great guy...but ended up as best friends. No regrets whatsoever, just wish you all happiness, you guys deserve it.

- Moved to KL to work, and later got a place on my own (shared with my bro and Aileen though). It's not easy coz it can get kinda tiring and lonely as there are just not that many friends in KL as compared to in Kch. But at least I'm doing ok

- Learned how to drive myself around in PJ and certain areas...i can't really drive to KL yet...but give me another year and I'm sure I'll be able to....(will be forced to, one day)

For me, no matter what I go through, whether it's good or bad, I just try to learn something from it. I'm really quite a perfectionist/control freak when it comes to organizing things or planning out my stuff. But I've also realized that things can't always go your way or be under your control. So I've just tried my best to plan for things, and when they don't work out that way, just try to figure out the best solution and work with it. I've also become more open to trying new things, ideas and experiences. Just listen to what ppl have to say, how they think and yea...just be more open to spontaneity. Live life more. Take time to relax, chill out and maybe let loose a little. Be a little crazy/wild, especially when there's a lot of stress, so things can balance out.

Learn to understand myself and my needs/wants. Instead of being so calculative about prices, pamper myself occasionally. I need to love myself more before loving others. Look more on the bright side of things, see the good part of ppl rather than just the bad part. Accept the ppl I care for as who they are totally, even with their faults/mistakes. Don't always judge a person by their looks, they can sometimes surprise you. Don't care too much about the past, or worry about the future. Start living now, coz today is a gift, that's why it's called the Present.

I learned most of the above 'philosphical' stuff from my various experiences, many wise friends/ppl, some of whom are slightly misunderstood. Lol, its surprising that you expect so little from certain ppl, and they end up giving you the most. Anyway, just wanted to share what I was reflecting on this past birthday and what I've learned. Thank you, each and everyone of you, for your contribution to my 23 years of life. I appreciate your friendship, love and all that you have given me in one way or another. Hope we can still remain friends till we're old! Hehe. Thanks again for all the birthday wishes and everything else :)